Hey guys! Sorry for taking so long to update. Inconveniently almost all my family celebrate birthdays in the first 2 weeks of august so life has been pretty full on. I just want to say thankyou so much for all your reviews so far! It's what keeps me going, also speeds up my updates ;) Anyway I hope you enjoy!

Hanna's POV

I'm so tired now I want to cry.

To think earlier today I was care free, in the kitchen eating some amazing bacon and eggs with Emily.
Oh my god, Emily. I completely forgot she was here. Did she hear the whole argument? I hope she doesn't ask me what happened, I just want to snuggle up with her and sleep for years.

As I walked up the stairs to my bedroom I started to feel better, just the thought of curling up in bed with Em was enough to put a smile on my face. I opened my bedroom door and noticed my room was empty, I walked over to my phone and checked for any messages from Em, none.

Fuck it. I thought to myself, I'll call her later, she probably just had to rush home back to her mums or something. Right now, I just want to sleep. I left Emily a text telling her to call me when she can and then threw my phone on my bed, got out of my clothes and threw myself into bed. I was asleep in seconds.

I woke up at 10am the next day, I'd slept for about 14 hours. I rolled over and looked squinty eyed at my phone. 2 missed calls from mum but, to my surprise, nothing from Emily. I was just about to call her when she suddenly called me first.

"Emily? What's the matter? Where did you go?" I said as soon as I picked up.

She took a few seconds to reply but finally said, "Han can you come unlock the door for me first, I'm outside and I left my house key here yesterday." Then she hung up the phone.

I crawled out of bed before fixing up my hair quickly and heading downstairs. I had next to no clothes on but I didn't care, Emily has seen me in less than my underwear too many times to count.

I unlocked and opened the door. Emily was in the same clothes she was wearing yesterday, her eyes were red rimmed and a little puffy like she'd been crying or hadn't slept, maybe both. I watched her mouth open then close again as she took in what I was wearing, but just as quickly her expression hardened as she pushed past me and started looking around.

"Where were you?" I asked, confused.

"I stayed at Aria's. Where is he? Is he still here? Did he stay the night?" She started walking upstairs towards my bedroom before I could answer, I followed after her.

"Who? What are you talking about Em?" I asked, now starting to get a bit annoyed at her antics.

She just sighed and sat down on my bed, her head in her hands. Just then it dawned on me who she was asking after, Caleb. I walked over to my wardrobe and put on one of Emily's baggy shirts so I wasn't so inappropriately dressed for the imminent discussion.

I walked back over to where she sat, "Why do you think Caleb would've stayed here?" I asked.

At the mention of his name, she looked up at me with a pained expression. "Han, are you getting back together with him?"

I gaped at her. "What? Em, you can't be serious." I said with the most incredulous look on my face. "Why would I get back with him?" I moved to go sit next to her on the bed but as soon as I sat she stood up.

She started pacing from one side of my room to the other. "Because you love him Hanna." She paused and looked down at her hands and she started picking at the skin around her fingernails. She only did that when she was uncomfortable. "I saw you kiss him."

"That wasn't-" I started to reply but was cut off.

"I was on the phone to Aria and she said she wanted us to come over, so I went downstairs to ask you and…" she trailed off.

"Em, I didn't-"

"I mean if you want to be with him I'm not going to stop you, I want you to be happy. I just thought things had changed, I thought you had changed and that that wasn't what you wanted anymore. Maybe I thought what you wanted was… I don't know." She was clearly getting flustered now, speaking too fast for me to get a word in. I could also see there was something she wanted to say but wasn't.

"Emily" I quickly jumped in before she could continue her verbal vomit "I don't want Caleb. I didn't kiss him, he kissed me. And if I'm being completely honest, a tiny part of me wanted him to do it. But I swear, as soon as he did I realized, it's not him I'm in love with."

She looked at me obviously confused, "But I thought-"

I held up my hand to stop her, "I have changed Em, I know now that I'm not the person I was before when Caleb and I were together. I've had the time to develop my relationships with my friends, the four of us girls have never been closer. I've had the time to grow as an individual too, I've discovered things about myself I never could when I was with Caleb." I stood up and walked over to where Emily stood, "And Emily, it actually fucking frustrates me that you think I could revert back to what I was and drop everything for Caleb. You're supposed to know me better than anyone. Can you tell me honestly why you thought I would ever do that?"

In a barely audible whisper she said, "I was scared."

She was averting my eyes to no end, I reached over and lifted her chin with my hand so she was looking me in the eye before she continued.

"I was scared everything would change. With Caleb in the picture everything would be so off balance. Baby, I was scared I would lose you…" she looked kind of ashamed.

I let out a sigh and grabbed her hand and pulled her over so she could sit with me on the bed.

"Do you want me to be honest with you?" I asked, still with a firm grasp of her hand. She nodded. "You could never lose me, Em. You know why? Because I am always going to choose you, always. And I know that will interfere with any future relationships of mine but you know what? They can get fucked because you're the one I give a shit about. I will happily stay single for the rest of my life if it means holding on to what we have."

As I said this it was like a switch flicked in my mind and I had some newfound certainty. The thought of being with someone else eluded me, as long as I was with Emily I couldn't begin to imagine myself trying to love anyone else. This realisation also kind of scared me. What now? Where do we go from here?

Emily looked so deeply into my eyes I felt exposed. "Baby you don't have to do that..." she said while shaking her head.

I tilted my head to the left and furrowed my eyebrows, "But I don't want be with anyone else, I can only handle one important person in my life at a time."

"No, Han, you don't get it." with one hand already clasped in mine, she moved her other hand to my face "You don't have to stay single to be with me… You can be with me."

It took me four seconds to realize what she was saying. I opened my mouth to reply but just as I did…

My phone rang.

Honestly I'm not sure I like this chapter, it feels a little speedy to me. But there will be a little more lead up to proper Hannily, lots more fluff and of course, once we get a little bit of drama out of the way, eventually some lovely smut ;)
As always, please rate & review! I'm thinking I want to get at least 3 reviews per chapter before I will update (unless I get bored and continue anyway) but yeah. Please please please tell me your thoughts and ideas 3