Chapter 19
Forever You Coming Back To Me
* "Let me be the one to numb you out. Let me be the one to hold you, never gonna let you get away." - Three Days Grace – Painkiller
I watched her unconscious body on the hospital bed. I felt horrible for what happened to her. How did I miss her blocking Eva's blade? It happened so fast, but I refuse to make any excuses. Cagalli is hurt because of me!
"CAGALLI!" Kairi came storming into the room and threw her arms around Cagalli's body.
"QUIET!" The old lady yelled. The old fart's bed is next to Cagalli's. I am annoyed the nurses put Cagalli in a room with this bitch… I wanted Cagalli to have her own room.
"Sorry…" Kairi tried to quiet her sobs, but she couldn't control them.
I watched as Kairi sobbed next to her. I felt guilty. I wish I were the one lying on the hospital bed, and Cagalli was the one sitting in this chair.
"How is she?" Sora came in the room and asked.
"The doctor said she'll be unconscious for a while, but she should be alright when she wakes up… He said she would feel a lot of pain from the wound on her back, but he's going to give her pain killers," I explained.
"Well, that's good to hear." Sora sat next to me.
"She could've been dead because of me…" I rested my elbows on my knees and buried my face in my hands. I didn't want anyone to see me like this.
I'm weak.
"It's not your fault, Van." Kairi sniffed.
"Yeah, it is… Eva wouldn't have attacked us if Cagalli and I didn't make it official," I whispered.
"So, you're saying you would never have made it official? You know if you didn't do that then she would still be with Zack, and you would've died from alcohol poisoning or something!" Kairi paused and took a deep breath. "I know Cagalli. She's stubborn and she would've tried to save you no matter what the consequences are. It's the same situation with you protecting her from Zexion at Demyx's party."
"She's got a point." Sora agreed.
"But she's in pain because of my stupid ex… I shouldn't have gotten that drunk, but hell, I just thought Cagalli and I were going straight to bed after the club!" I shouted out.
I didn't see or hear Cagalli shielding me because I was drunk. Again, I'm not making excuses, but if I were sober then we wouldn't be here. Eva would be the only one in a hospital bed, and Cagalli and I would be sleeping peacefully.
I wish she would wake up. I need to see her beautiful, bright eyes… I want to take her back to the apartment and take care of her until she's in perfect health.
"Don't be down, just pray for her recovery." Sora patted my back.
"Yeah, no use in me acting like a little bitch," I muttered.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
All our friends visited Cagalli while she is still unconscious. I wanted to cry like a little bitch after I explained to everyone how Cagalli got hurt. They all told me it wasn't my fault, but it was… Why does she have to be the one to suffer? She didn't deserve this… I do…
I said my good-byes to everyone and I am finally alone with her (and the old fart, but I try to ignore her presence). The nurse kept asking me to go home because visiting hours were over, but I refuse. I will stay by her side until I get her out of here. The nurse gave up after awhile and let me spend the night in her room…
I am wide-awake watching her breathe slowly. I whispered old memories we shared and held her hand even though she couldn't hear or feel me. Maybe I was trying to take care of myself because it helped me to touch and talk to her.
"I love you, Cagalli Range." I kissed her on the lips.
I sat back in the chair next to her bed and texted everyone that's been blowing up my phone about Cagalli…
"Vanitas?"
My eyes widened as I got up from the seat and I immediately hovered over her. "Cagalli?"
"Hey." She gave me a weak smile.
The doctor told me she would be unconscious for a while, but I'm happy she's awake… I can't wait to get her out of here!
"Hey," I greeted back.
"Are you okay?" She asked in concern.
I felt guilty all over again. Why would she ask if I was okay? She's the one who got hurt not me!
"Cagalli, you're the only one that got hurt…"
"That's good," she whispered.
"No, it's not… Why would you jump in front of me?! I was scared you would've been…"
"Dead?" She interrupted.
I buried my face on her hospital bed. I didn't want her to see me weak again.
"I'm fine, Vanitas. Just a little sore," she insured me.
"Never do that again."
"Huh?"
"Never protect me! I am the only one who will be doing the protecting, got it?" I started to play with her hair.
"But, I want to protect you…"
"No!" I shouted out.
"I AM TRYING TO SLEEP! SHUT UP!" The old bitch yelled out of nowhere.
"NO ONE IS BOTHERING YOU!" I grunted at her.
"Oh! Someone is sharing a room with me?" Cagalli turned her head to see the old woman. "Hello, there, my name is Caga-"
"NO ONE CARES!" The old bitch spat.
Cagalli's eyes widened and she leaned in to whisper in my ear. "When can we leave?"
"The doctor says he has to run some x-rays, but I'll get you out tomorrow afternoon," I explained.
Cagalli nodded. "Okay, but Vanitas?"
"What?"
"Why can't I protect you?"
"Because I cannot go through this again. I felt guilty and depressed. I can't live without you, Cagalli. I rather be dead and you move on than you leaving me in this stupid worthless world!"
"I can't live without you either. I could never move on if you left me all alone in this world," she whispered.
I leaned in and kissed her firmly on her lips. She needs me like I need her…
"GO TO SLEEP! YOUR LOVE IS MAKING ME SICKER THAN I ALREADY AM!" The old lady killed the mood.
"SHUT UP, YOU OLD BITCH!" I clenched my teeth.
"VANITAS!" Cagalli slapped me on top of my head. "Be nice!"
I rolled my eyes, but I am happy she is awake and is back to her old self.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
It was the afternoon, and the doctor took x-rays and tests on Cagalli. Cagalli and I both stressed how we just wanted the painkillers so we can go home. The doctor did promise us that we would be out of here before tonight.
"How are you feeling?" I asked.
"I'm still sore, but that's it. I'm sure they won't find anything wrong with me…" Cagalli said as she is eating her pudding.
I am trying to keep my cool, but I am nervous as hell! I hope her wound didn't get infected, or she doesn't have to go into surgery.
"I'm fine, Vanitas." Cagalli giggled.
"I didn't say you weren't!" I snapped.
"Yeah, but I can tell you are worried about me. I'm good!"
She wasn't able to figure me out before, but now she sees right through me.
The doctor came in and cleared his throat. "I have some shocking news."
"IS SHE GOING TO BE OKAY?!" I freaked out.
"Yes, yes, but we found something interesting in her tests…" The doctor's voice trailed.
"What is it?" Cagalli and I said in unison.
"Cagalli Range is five months pregnant!" The doctor announced.
"WHAT?!" Cagalli screamed out in horror.
"KEEP IT DOWN!" The old bitch snapped.
The first thought that popped in my head was…
I'm going to be a father?
"THIS IS GREAT!" I grinned.
"Wait, what?" Cagalli looked at me with a confused look.
"You are carrying my kid inside you!" I went to touch her stomach, but she slapped my hand away.
"I wouldn't celebrate yet," the doctor said sternly.
"Why?" I raised a brow.
"Have you been eating properly, Cagalli?" The doctor asked her.
"At first, no. I was starving myself a couple of months ago, but Vanitas has been helping me to get back to my eating habits," she explained.
"Well, you need to get back to your eating habits now because your baby hasn't been getting enough nutrition. If you don't give it enough nutrition, then it will end up dying…" The doctor whispered.
"I'll make sure she eats enough!" I chimed in. I want our baby to be healthy.
Cagalli has to eat for two now. I'm going to make her eat once every hour no matter how much she argues with me… It's obvious why we couldn't tell if she was pregnant, her stomach wasn't showing because she's bone thin. She never even mentioned about her time of the month… It never crossed my mind that she never had it for a while.
"Just to make sure, I want Cagalli to visit this hospital every three days to make sure the baby will survive," the doctor said.
"That won't be a problem." I nodded.
"Great, do you want to know the sex of the baby?" The doctor questioned.
"YES!" I shouted out.
Cagalli just sat there and shrugged. Why am I the only one happy that she's pregnant?
"Cagalli?" The doctor waited for her permission.
"Yes, I want to know," she said in a small voice.
"It's a girl!" He grinned.
"I'm going to have a daughter!" I felt like it was Christmas for me. Wow, I haven't been this happy since Cagalli moved back in the apartment.
"Is there any more questions?" The doctor asked.
"I have one." I cleared my throat. "Did Cagalli's injuries affect the baby?"
"No, you both are very lucky. Just make sure she comes back every three days and feed her," the doctor answered.
"Okay, that's all for me," I said.
The doctor left Cagalli and me alone, but Cagalli is really quiet. I know for a fact that the baby is mine since she's five months pregnant. She moved in with that douche three months ago, and Cagalli told me she only slept with him a couple of times during those three months…
She must've been pregnant before she moved in with him… I wish we knew this before because she would've been mine earlier yet I can't change the past. What is done is done.
"What's wrong with you? Don't you want me to be the father of your child? Would you rather that bastard Zack be the father?" I couldn't help myself but be angry. Why isn't she excited?
"No, no! I'm happy you're the father, but how are we going to take care of her? We can hardly take care of ourselves!" She frowned.
"We'll make it work, I promise! I want what's best for her," I whispered.
"Maybe the best solution is adoption."
I felt my eyes darken. "I will not put our child in a foster home! I refuse!"
"But, Van-"
"If you don't want the child then I'll take care of her myself!" I spat.
"I wouldn't trust you with children," the old lady muttered.
"SHUT THE HELL UP!" I shouted at her.
"I want to take care of her too, but you promise you won't run away? Will you stay by my side during the whole pregnancy?" Cagalli asked.
"Is that why you are scared? You think I'm going to leave you with our child?" Wow, she really thinks low of me.
"I don't think you would, but a lot of men do it. They usually leave the woman after the child is born," Cagalli sighed.
I took her hands in mine and looked her dead in the eyes. "I promise you, I won't leave you. I'm hard to get rid of, so you're stuck with me, got it?"
Cagalli gently smiled and nodded. "Got it."
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
I finally got Cagalli out of that hospital. She is starting to lighten up about the baby. She is talking about buying baby clothes right away, and how she wants to turn her old bedroom into a nursery. I honestly want to get the hell out of our apartment and own a house. I don't want my daughter raised in an apartment that's next to a college full of drunken students.
"Is it okay if Kairi hangs with us tonight?" Cagalli asked, as I made sure she is comfortable in my bed.
"It's your apartment too… Of course, she can come over."
"Thanks, Van."
"I wanted to go out anyways…"
Cagalli's eyes widened. "Where are you going?"
"I'm just chilling with Axel and Seifer, no big deal." I shrugged.
"Okay."
"I'll wait until Kairi gets here before I leave. Do you need anything right now?" I questioned.
"No, I think I'm good. I'm just really tired since that old woman kept us up all night in the hospital." She yawned.
"That crazy bitch." I rolled my eyes. "Alright. Don't lay on your stomach and I'm ordering Kairi to feed you all night."
"Whatever," she sighed.
Not too long she passed out and I couldn't take my hands off of her stomach. My baby girl is in there, and I can't wait to meet her.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
Kairi was at the apartment and I left her to take care of Cagalli. I had something important to do and I needed my friends to help me. I'll be annoyed if they don't take this seriously.
"Dude, I think you should've asked Sora to come with us," Seifer asked.
"We don't need him!" I spat.
"Yeah, how hard can this be?" Axel asked.
The three of us walked inside the Tiffany & Co. store, but all our jaws dropped when we saw how many rings there are. How the hell am I going to find the perfect one?!
"Wow, I'm glad I'm not going to propose anytime soon," Seifer muttered.
"I'm glad I'm gay!" Axel grinned.
"May I help you?" A worker asked us. The way he is looking at us pissed me off. I know he's judging us.
"I wanted to propose to my girlfriend, but I don't know what ring to get. It has to be perfect," I explained.
"Geez, look at Van getting all cutesy!" Axel laughed out loud.
The worker smirked. "Are you sure you can afford any engagement rings?"
I took a couple of racks out of my hoodie pocket. "Ha, I got it covered dude."
The worker sighed and nodded. "Right this way."
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
The worker showed me countless of rings, but none caught my eye until I saw something sparkle in a jewelry case far away from us…
"Can I see that one?" I pointed at the glass case across from us.
The worker walked over and took the ring out of the glass case then handed it to me. I examined it and immediately grinned.
"This is the one," I whispered.
Axel whistled. "Wow, it looks expensive."
"She'll love it!" Seifer cheered.
"It's fourteen thousand seven hundred." The worker cleared his throat.
The diamond is rounded and the band had little diamonds all around it. I know she will like this one.
"I'll take it." I immediately handed all my money to the worker while Axel and Seifer congratulated me, but they shouldn't celebrate yet… She still has to say "yes".
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
Axel, Seifer, and I returned to the apartment and we immediately went upstairs to see Cagalli. She is sitting up, eating a hoagie while Kairi watched her.
"Oh, hey Van!" Cagalli immediately eyed the light blue Tiffany bag. "What's that?"
"Stand up for a second," I ordered softly.
She looked at me like I was crazy, but she did as I said. I then took out the small box out of the bag and went down on one knee.
"Cagalli Range, will you marry me?"