Chapter 4

That same day, during the Glee club meeting, Charlie decided to tell everyone the truth. She was standing in the middle of the classroom, and everyone was staring at her.
"I lied to all of you," she began. "And I'm truly sorry! I was trying to look cooler, but I think I would do better trying not to tease everyone here!"
She was speaking with her real voice, but she was still dressed up as a boy. Everyone was pretty confused by that.
"But... what does it mean?" asked Kurt.
"It means I made a huge mistake, and I'm trying to fix things up," Charlie answered.
"What mistake are you talking about?" Kurt said. "And what happened to your voice?"
"This is my real voice," Charlie answered. "And this is the real Charlie St. Claire!"
Charlie took off her cap and undid her hair, then unzipped her sweatshirt.
"I should have known immediately that I was doing wrong," she continued. "But when I thought of it the first time, it didn't look like a bad idea..."
"Why did you do that?" asked Kurt.
Charlie knew that the boy would have reacted that way. She had been dumped so many times that she was now used to the feelings caused by someone dumping her, sometimes even very rudely, but she would have never wished the same thing to anyone.
"I wanted to feel cool, just for once..." answered Charlie. "I didn't think that I would have hurt someone, by doing so... I've been hurt so many times, but I've never wanted someone to suffer like this because of me... I'm sorry, Kurt..."
Charlie turned her back to the boy, who was standing right next to her. She was trying to hold back her tears.
"But maybe it could work anyway between us," Kurt said. "You may keep dressing up as a boy, and..."
"Don't you understand that it would never work?" Charlie interrupted him, turning around. "I would still be a girl, and you... You don't need this!"
"But we could at least try..."
Without thinking about it, the girl interrupted him by kissing him. Everyone was astonished, but she didn't care if anyone was looking at them.
"I'm sorry..." said Charlie, about to break down into tears. "One day you will find your soulmate, I know... but I'm not that person!"
Charlie, crying, ran out of the classroom. In a few hours, her mother would have discovered everything, she was absolutely sure of that!

The following day, as predicted, Charlie was emptying her locker. The next day she would have left the city, to go somewhere else, as usual. That time, strangely, she was dressed up as a girl. Kurt saw her, and decided to talk to her.
"Are you moving again?" he asked her.
"My mother has decided she is already tired of this city..." she answered. "I think she's just bored of her customers..."
"So, we're not seeing each other again?"
"I don't know... I could come back to say hello, sometimes, but I don't think my mother would approve..."
"Is she the reason why you decided it wouldn't have worked between us?"
"No offense, but don't you think that it would have been quite... ridiculous? I mean, picture the scene: I come home saying something like: 'Hey, mom, finally I got a boyfriend, and he's gay!' She would probably kill me!"
"Would she have something to say even if we stay just friends?"
"Yeah, that would work... But she will never know that you exist!"
They gave each other their cell phone numbers, promising to call almost every day.
"Don't worry: I was serious, when I told you your soulmate is out there, somewhere, and that very soon you'll find him," said Charlie. "I don't know exactly where mine is, but at least you'll be happy!"
"I wish you were happy too..."
"Maybe I'll find him in the city I'm going to move to... Who knows...? But hang on: before I go, I must do one more thing!"
Charlie brought Kurt in the auditorium. The other Glee club members were already there. Some girls were on the stage, ready to sing. Charlie joined them.
"I couldn't leave before telling you who I really am!" Charlie said. "The girls agreed to help me doing that! Say hello to Charlie St. Claire!"
The music started, and Charlie and the girls started to sing.

"I'm a laid back
T-shirt, blue jeans, mood ring kind of girl
Hey yeah what's the word on you?
Lay low I'm a mission rebel angel devil
Little left of the middle,
Sometimes I get temper mental."

It wasn't a song by Nyaga, but Charlie liked it very much. Actually, it had been written by one of Nyaga's best friends, who wrote in a very similar way.

"Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away, yeah!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today!
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, yeah!
Hey! Hey! Get tangled up in me!"

The Glee club guys really liked "blending" songs, so Charlie tried it too. She had put together two songs by two very different singers, but which had a very similar rhythm, so that who didn't know any of the two songs could have sworn it was actually one song.

"It's raining on Sunday,
There's nothing on TV,
Yesterday was lonely,
You're the only one who gets me.
My mind is like an island
Drifting through the ocean.
I can't stop thinking about you,
I bet you're thinking of me too…"

Charlie was about to leave, and she didn't know where in the world she would have gotten this time. She would have to leave Kurt, forget him, but her head prevented her from doing so. She couldn't stop thinking about him, and maybe she would have never stopped. She was trying to accept the idea that she would have never seen him again, but she couldn't imagine her life without him.

"You wanna know more, more, more about me:
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet!
Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away, yeah!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today!
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction yeah!
Hey! Hey! Get tangled up in me!"

She looked for the last time at his blue eyes in which she used to get lost. Perhaps she would have never seen them again. Of course, she would have heard his voice almost every day, but it wasn't the same as having her new friend next to her. She tried to get over it, but she couldn't stop thinking that he could love her too, somehow, although it seemed absolutely impossible. She thought that she would have never met anyone like him. She felt relieved, thinking that someday she would have the perfect occasion to run away from wherever she would have been, and see him again, even for a little time.

Hi readers!
WIth this chapter, the first part of the story (set at the beginning of Season 2, I remind you) ends, and the next chapter will be the beginning of the second part (set a year after these events).
The "blended" songs which appear in this chapter are "The Diary Of Me" by Taylor Swift and "Tangled Up In Me" by Skye Sweetnam. If you don't know them, listen to them: they're pretty good actually!
I hope you're liking this story! If you do, I would be very happy if you left me a comment, or something! :)