Chapter 10

Demi's POV

Nick and I got into his hotel room, sitting down on the sofa that was next to the TV.

What just happened felt like a blur.

I feel like I've just woken from a dream, it's so strange.

I can't believe that Nick kissed me. I mean, I was hoping he would... but I didn't expect him to straight away. I'm pretty happy he did though because that means he still feels something like I do. We could be finally together one day!

But right now, I would prefer if we were friends with benefits, and I told him honestly because I wouldn't want to leave him hanging, not knowing what to do. So right now the occasional kiss is fine, but only alone. But thank god we're still as close as we were.

I turned to face him, probably with a smile that made me look like a total idiot.

He smiled back with his humble and gentle smile, his eyes full of safety and perhaps... love?

Oh my god let it be love. My eyes are definitely looking at him like that.

He reached out his hand and started to play with my hair, still staring right at me. He then started caressing my cheek, carefully sliding his thumb over it.

I took my hand and placed it on top of his, letting him secure my cheek and let him feel my face.

It felt so soft and blissful. He was so tender with me, making sure he didn't hurt me in the slightest. I know he cared because he couldn't stop looking at me right in the eyes. I looked right back, making sure I didn't close my eyes otherwise I would have let him touch me in other places that I knew was too close for us to just be friends with benefits.

I don't know if we were ever going to be involved like that, but I knew I wanted it. I wanted to be with him, but I knew that getting better was more important at the moment.

But jeez, the temptation was so difficult.

And wait...

Delta.

Did he still have feelings for her? I mean he had a good relationship with her and I did hear they broke up, but that could have been a rumour?

I had to ask.

I gradually took his hand away from my cheek, and placed my hand in his.

He looked down at our hands, looking slightly confused.

He looked back up at me and said, "Did I do something wrong?"

I shook my head, "No of course not. I just need to ask you something..."

His smile faded, and he looked at me seriously.

"Do you still have feelings for Delta?"

I noticed a glitch in his eyes. Did that hurt him when I asked him that?

"Why do you ask?"

"Well... I don't want to be in the way if you're still getting over her."

"Demi it's been 2 months..."

"I know, but you were together nearly a year no?"

"Yes but that doesn't matter anymore."

"Honestly? I mean, I don't want to intrude but..."

He shushed me with his finger, placing it on my lips.

"Delta's in the past. I promise you. We mutually decided to no longer be. She told me she still has feelings for her ex-husband. She also noticed I still have feelings for you."

I couldn't help but let my heart skip a beat when he said that. Now I know for sure he must be telling me the truth because once again, he was looking right at me, with the most believable face I've ever seen. I also know when Nick's lying too... and he rarely does that.

"Oh... well, in that case... I guess it's fine for us to start something then."

"Yes... but not now. Not until you're ready. I'll wait until you are, okay?"

He took my hand and placed it right where his heart was.

I felt it beating rapidly.

Was I doing that to him?

It was so loud too, like a wave.

I felt like crying with happiness.

"Am I doing that to you?"

"You always have Demi..."

I grinned so much when he said that.

I let my mind go away with me. I let go of his hand and I leaned in to kiss him on the lips. I snaked my hand around his neck and the other on his head, feeling the urge to massage it. But I just gently held on to his slight curls that he still kept. I love his curls, but I was tempted to tell him that made he should go wild and try something new... like a buzzcut?

He understood what I was doing and he just slowly pushed me closer, his hands around my waist.

I gave him a light kiss, touching our lips, letting go and doing the same routine. Little kisses that made my heart beat uncontrollably. I fought the urge to moan slightly in his mouth. Yes I know, but he was making me feel THAT good.

I then let go for air, and dropped my head on his shoulder, sighing heavily... but not in necessarily a bad way, but definitely in some sort of frustration. Jesus if I kept continuing, my urge to have him now would take over and it would ruin this moment.

I kissed his shoulder and gave him a big bear hug. He hugged me back, and I let my head rest. This felt so perfect, almost too good to be true. I had to make sure that whenever I had the urge to kiss him, it would be controlled. Knowing me I'll have the urge in public!

But we couldn't let them know about this, we just had to slowly let the press know we're in touch again. But how could we do that? Hmm, maybe when I'm next free, I could reveal that I'm at How To Succeed, so I could go see it again and then if he's allowed, Nick could bring me up to the stage just after the musical is finished and they're all bowing.

Sounds like a plan... but How To Succeed is all eyes on Nick, and it shouldn't be on me.

I think just hanging out casually out in the open would be better, and more sly too.

Paparazzi would see us be all like, what the fuck? When did this happen? When in the world did the Jonas & Lovato family make up? But that's it... they'll think I've made up with Kevin & Joe as well... but I'm not ready for that.

I don't know what Paul would think either. It's a real scary thought.

I think Denise is the only one who would welcome me with open arms...

I mean don't get me wrong, Joe would be quite happy to see me... but Kevin? I don't know.

But right now I would rather not see them until I feel ready to see them. I mean the last time I saw Joe was at that photo shoot was a couple of months ago, and I didn't really speak to him much because I didn't really have much to say. He didn't have much to say either, but it was for the best because it would have been even more awkward if I had said anything stupid. But it was nice enough to speak to him.

Maybe in the next couple of weeks we could arrange for me to go round their family home and negotiate how I feel about Nick.

Oh god no, not in front of Joe.

No no, I will go round there just to make peace. I mean I know there isn't any conflict, but I know Kevin's been a bit tense with me and Joe can't talk to me anymore like old times.

I'll just have to stay calm, and maybe Nick will help me. Well no, he'll help me.

I let go of Nick and look him right in the eyes, in all seriousness.

"Something wrong Dem?"

"No, nothing wrong... it's just, what are we going to tell your parents and your brothers?"

Nick bit his lip, looking down trying to think. He sighs, knowing the situation we were going to have to face.

He looks back up at me, "Well we don't have to tell them about this thing between us... but I guess, you could come round to the old house and you could see my brothers, my mom and dad if you want? Or either that, we could hide you completely for a little bit, only your mom knowing about what's going on."

"I think we'd have to face your family soon. Technically we're not together so that's not the worry. I just think your Joe and Kevin are the main problem."

Nick nods, "I know. Whether I've brought you up, everything gets really awkward. I've had to keep my feelings about you being in treatment hidden because Kev and Joe don't really know how to talk about you. I guess since what happened between you and Joe..."

"Yeah... let's not talk about that."

He nods again, "Right. Got it. So... what do we do for now?"

"We remain a secret. But I guess you can tell Joe about me, I mean... he's not tense with me like Kevin. You can just tell him you've seen me and thought a catch up might be cool. But with Kev, we can just leave him for the minute. You can talk about me to him in the next couple of weeks. And then when I feel ready, we can see your parents. But right now Nick, I just... god I can't... you know?"

"Of course Dem, I get it. Don't you worry, we'll sort this out."

I smile. He always makes feel better with his wise words. I'm so glad I have him again, by my side. I've missed him being around it almost killed me. Well, not literally.. but definitely mentally. He's one of the greatest friends I've ever had, and soon... when I feel ready for sure, he'll be the greatest boyfriend I've ever had.

I can't believe it's taken me all this time to realise he really is the one for me.