It's Been A While Since We Last Spoke
Chapter 20
Demi's POV
Today's the day where I finally get to see my boyfriend again.
He finished How To Succeed on Sunday so he's flying down to California from New York.
I've been quite lonely without him, as I've had a bit of a break for these past couple of weeks to settle down, as it seems I've been doing too much I need to catch up with myself.
It's weird calling Nick my boyfriend still, but I'm slowly getting used to it. We've been together nearly 2 months, and I must say, I'm pretty happy.
I've been telling the press about how I want to spend some time focusing on myself, which is true… but I haven't fully told them I'm with Nick. Like I have before I've just avoided the questions. Lying to them makes me feel a bit bad, but it's better off this way first. Joe, Kevin, Frankie, Denise and Paul need to know beforehand, which still I am a bit terrified about. But Nick says we shouldn't have to tell them now. He said he'd rather we told them all together in person, and only when I'm feeling comfortable about it. Thankfully the boys haven't asked about Nick's relationships, so they're not suspicious. Plus, Nick hasn't been able to see them much apart from them coming to support him on How To Succeed.
I must say, even though I don't think I could see the sight of Joe again anytime soon, and Kevin doesn't talk to me anymore, it makes me smile that they're still good brothers to Nick. I also love how Kevin treats Danielle like a princess. She really deserves it. She's a lovely person and I would love to see her again if I get the chance.
Anyway, so Nick should be here in a few hours, so I must make sure I look amazing before he gets here. I've made sure that he doesn't often see me without makeup because even though I am happier wearing no makeup, I just can't seem to show him my natural face because his face is so flawless, I have to make mine look the best it can. It sounds crazy I know, but he seems to be the only guy who has ever had this effect on me.
I think Nick has seen me without makeup, but that was ages ago. I know Nick isn't someone who cares about makeup or not, but I'd rather he see beautiful skin, even if it is covered up. When he's not around, and when I'm at home, I always stay free from makeup. I don't like wearing it unless I have a good reason.
Nick is definitely a good reason to wear makeup.
He makes me heart…
He makes my heart… flutter.
No, he does more than that…
He gives me a heart attack!
Wait.
Heart attack…
Love…
I don't want to fall in love…
If I ever did that,
I think I'd have a heart attack.
Huh!
Did I just make a new song up in my head?
I think I did!
Well that's it then! Me and Nick are songwriting today…
"Demi.. Demi! Where are you taking me? Can you please take this blindfold off of me?"
"Hang on we're nearly inside the room okay? Just be quiet for a few more seconds."
"Alright alright."
I'm so clever for coming up with this idea. This date is going to be awesome. I laid out a nice spread inside the studio that we've always wrote music in, the beatlab that Nick uses sometimes when writing new music. Crazy to be in New York, but seeing as it's the perfect place for us to share some time together and for us to write some new music. Looking forward to seeing the look on his face.
"Okaaayy... we're here."
"Great. Can I take the blindfold off?"
I'm beaming like an idiot. I squeak, "Yes..."
He takes off the blindfold, and opens his eyes.
From the look on his face I can tell he looks satisfied.
"Ohhh Demi..."
He's smiling, his eyes are sparkling... his hand is on his chest, almost clutching his heart.
Yes, I did the right fucking thing.
I giggle and step in front of him, lifting myself on my toes to kiss him on the lips.
Even a small kiss on the lips makes me feel dizzy.
He breaks the kiss, "Whoa whoa Dem... be careful what you do to me." He's grinning like an idiot, and I give him a sneary smirk back.
"Oh but if I'm careful it's no fun."
"Thank you for this. I should have known you'd think of something so perfect."
"I guess I know you and me so well..."
"That you do. Sooo... we're writing music today then huh?"
"Yes, but let's eat our lunch first."
I open the picnic basket that i placed on the table we'll be sitting on. I dig out some wrapped sandwiches that I made and placed them on Nick's plate. I then gesture to him to sit down, so he can eat the food.
"You're so good to me Dem. I bet you've made me my favourite sandwiches."
"Yep, I made a few mini italian hero subs and club sandwiches too. I made myself some turkey subs, and I thought we could share the club ones."
"Great, this is a lovely feast. Thank you so much."
"No big deal... have no problem being good to my boyfriend."
Nick looked at me slightly surprised, "You really do see me as a boyfriend then huh?"
"Yes! You know that dunderhead."
Nick mumbles, "You're the dunderhead..."
"Eat your sandwiches."
Nick gives me a salute, "Yes ma'am."
Nick unwraps the sandwich and takes a big bite into it. I can't help but lick my lips as he eats it.
Nick then looks at me again, his mouth half full but closed, his beady eyes stealing my soul.
"What?" He gives me a mouth filled, goofy smile.
I blink my eyes out of the trance of his face and eyes.
"Ahem... nothing, nothing."
I can feel his eyes are burning into me as I awkwardly pay attention to grabbing a sandwich out of the basket.
"Dem... you were looking at me with those eyes..."
I feel my face start to flush.
"What eyes?"
"You know... like, like you want me right now."
"Shushhhh just eat your sandwich."
"I can't when you look at me like that."
"Well, I'm not anymore so eat and then we'll start some writing."
"Okay okay..."
I squeeze my eyes tight, and bite my lip.
I know I want him.
I want him so much.
I want to know what it would feel like... feeling completely naked next to his...
STOP DEMI NO.
It's too early in the relationship to even be considering it.
Goddamn my hormones.
I really need to get it together.
I start eating one of my turkey subs... which does taste nice.
Mmm yes, I do like turkey sandwiches.
I gingerly look over at Nick... to find that he's staring at me. He's grinning.
"What?"
"Do you err... want some alone time with that sandwich?"
I gasp and throw half of the sandwich at Nick.
He gasps dramatically, "How dare you! That does it!"
He throws his mini sub, missing me and the sandwich landing on the floor crumpled.
"Nick! We can't mess up this studio!"
"Well you started it..."
"Only because you were being rude!"
"Yeah well... you were moaning in delight." Nick is flashing me the most deadliest and sexiest grin I'd ever seen.
I hate Nick.
I hate his sexiness...
his charm...
I hate how much effect he has on me.
"Shut up and don't waste anymore sandwiches."
I stand up to pick up the sandwich that Nick threw at me.
Just as I'm about to turn around I find Nick grabbing me and tickling me.
"Hahahaha no! Hehehee no... stop! Haha get off of me! Nick please! Hahahaa..."
He pulls me down... no self control anymore now.
I find myself laying on top of Nick, his arms still locked around my waist.
My eyes lock with his. His eyes so sparkly, chocolate golden swirls... so enticing.
Nick's biting his lip... and whispers, "I'm finding it hard to resist the temptation of you..."
"Damn it Nick... do neither of us have any willpower?
"I guess not..."
Nick rolls me over and I find him now on top of me.
Nick gets closer to my face, and places his lips on mine ever so tenderly.
His lips feel like butter, and it's making me feel woozy and starry eyed. I flutter my eyes closed and let his lips play with mine.
I feel Nick on me ever so slightly, and it makes me shudder.
Would sex be such a BAD idea?
Because right now I really wish I knew the right moves.
Slowly, yet so passionately... Nick slides his tongue into my mouth, and suddenly my mind goes blank. All I can do is focus on his lips, and how they were making me feel.
My lips were turning to rubber, and the taste of Nick's mouth was almost intoxicating. I know he'd kissed me before... but it's like as if Nick had suddenly improved even more on how to kiss, which I didn't know could be possible... but his lips were making my whole body feel like magic.
His lips did all the work, and I felt my own lips attach to his... as if he was controlling my lips. The feeling of his lips was... well, I can't even think of the words. But his breath was clouding my own, and we were connected as one. I felt like I was going to burst into flames, his touch making me so sensitive, making me feel like I could fall... fall deep down into the ground.
I can feel my heartbeat so fast, yet... I didn't care about breathing. My body ached for more, and I couldn't let go of him. I stifle a moan, which I can't even remember whether it came from my mouth or not. I needed him closer, and I make sure he's touching my whole body with his. I'm so lost in the kiss I can't even think straight. I'm so dazed and blinded that I feel like I could burst and not even notice. I'm so cleansed, so refreshed, so hazy...
Nick then lets go and... I open my eyes to find Nick's brown orbs are now glowing, completely golden and full of light. I feel my lips are now completely swollen. He's leaning over me, now balancing on his knees and his hands. He's looking at me so differently... a face I don't almost recognise.
"Nick..." I somehow whisper.
"...how did you learn to kiss like that? I can't even..."
He gently smiles at me, and drops back down on to me, now nibbling at my neck.
I sigh heavily, not knowing how to take so much bliss in, in so little time.
"Ahhh... Nick..."
I can feel down there... you know... my ovaries and whatnot... feeling unbelievable agony.
Yeah... I'm definitely aroused... alright? So turned on I can't turn it off.
I'm in so much agony down there... I feel like it's going to get set on fire.
If he keeps kissing me like this... we'll have to have sex.
For his health and mine!
The nibbles he's leaving on my neck... it's like he's taking out all the bad I've ever felt.
He's making me feel so good I think it could be sucking out all my negative thoughts.
I close my eyes and just let him continue with the little neck biting when suddenly...
My legs jolt up and I gasp loudly... having suddenly felt the slight sting of a massive bite being taken on the skin of my neck.
"Holy... my god... Nick..."
I hear a faint chuckle, opening my eyes to see him staring at me with such a warm smile.
I can't help but smile back at him, with all the joy I am feeling right now.
"See what happens when you look at me the way you do?"
"Nick... you could give me a heart attack."
"Ha... why's that?"
"The way you make me feel..."
Nick isn't smiling anymore... but he's giving me that same look again that I still can't quite place.
He then sits up, and starts to unravel his shirt. He places it over his head and throws it across the room. Nick is now completely shirtless... which of course is still mesmerising to me.
"Why Nick... why do you have to look like that?"
He grins at me, quite smug and wraps his lips around mine once more.
This time he's not holding back. I instantly feel his tongue again, folding over mine perfectly, and feeling my whole mouth. I can feel my mouth and his fully parted, we're now fully ahead with the plan.
I'm letting out moans I haven't let out before and it vibrates within me and him. My hands are clasped around Nick's bare back and I'm moving my hands in rhythm with his hands on me. I can now feel Nick starting to fiddle with the edge of my shirt, and I can understand he now wants it off.
I let go for one moment to quickly fling the t-shirt I'm wearing off from my body, to reveal my lace bra underneath. Nick looks down at me, and I notice he's biting his lip again.
"Hmmm..."
What does hmm mean?
Nick moves closer to me, as we're now both leaning on our legs. He then puts his arms behind me and I can feel him fiddling with the bra.
"You're taking it off?" I whisper.
"Do you not want me to?"
"No of I course I want you too."
Nick starts fiddling with the bra again, and I feel it come lose.
Nick throws the bra away.
My chest can now feel breeze... and I truly am free from anything.
Nick stands up and offers to take my hand. I take his hand he stands me up.
"What are you...?" Nick lets go of my hand and walks across to the far end of the beatlab.
There's a handle on the wall, which is the first time I've ever seen one.
"Nick pulls on the handle, and all of a sudden I can see a bed being dragged out.
It's a pull out bed... that handle pulls out a frigging bed.
It's double sized too.
Nick lays it out flat, and he looks at me with a smile.
"You didn't know there was a bed did you?"
"Nope... I really didn't."
Nick then grabs something out of his jean pocket, which mysteriously looks like... a condom.
"Nick! How could you not tell me you had that?"
He giggles and smirks at me.
He takes my hand again and takes me onto the bed.
"Are you just going to be quiet for the rest of our time here now?"
"No. The beatlab is soundproof and no one is really here. The blinds are down on the window, and this room already looks seductive so you know... I can't... I can't resist you any longer Demi."
"So you really wanna...?"
Nick sighs, "I'm pushing this too much aren't I..."
"No Nick, you're not. I wouldn't have my breasts out if you were pushing this."
"But you're reluctant... admit it. This IS too fast."
"Nick I don't even fucking care anymore. We're already halfway there and I need to find some way of relieving this sexual tension that my hormones won't just stop from happening. I can't say no to you Nick when I'm not only emotionally attached to you, but physically attached. I find you VERY sexually attractive and I can't wait any longer for you to just have sex with me!"
I gasp. Looking at Nick, my eyes widen.
"Shit... I wasn't even meaning to say all that!"
"Ohhh but you said it." Nick is smirking at me slightly.
"But I didn't mean to!"
"Ohhh but you did." Nick steps closer to me and I step back.
"No no I didn't... I didn't."
He's giving me a huge smirk and he jolts towards me. He grabs me and picks me up and places me on his shoulder.
"No Nick, no! No I can't no..."
Nick puts me down on the bed gently.
"If this feels wrong to you Demi... why do you want to be right? Right is where we don't do anything, we ignore our feelings for each other and we break up. Can't you see that now it shouldn't matter whether what we're doing is right or wrong? I don't want to lose my virginity to anybody BUT you. From this point on I have no more experience. This is probably going to be bad and not good because if you're a virgin like me then we're going to mess this up but who cares because I love you and you love me. We aren't going to get any better at sex until we actually try it and I don't want to have sex if it's not with you because you're the only girl in my life right now that I truly truly trust and you have been someone I've thought of day and night and I can't ever get you outta my head. You're truly branded on my heart and I can't even think of anyone else that I want to spend in bed with. It sounds stupid yeah, it sounds corny and maybe I'm the millionth fucking guy who has said this all, but I'm the one guy who actually means it and is pouring out his heart to the one girl that has truly changed him, made him more confident and brought out the best in him. I can't spend even one more day not knowing what it is like to have you wrapped in my arms, to feel the satisfaction of feeling connected to a beautiful girl that I thought I'd never be able to feel or touch. Please Demi... just... accept what you know in your heart you feel too."
….
….
Shit.
Holy...
how can he say just beautiful words?
How dare he do this to me!
My god I can't...
I don't even know what to think!
I guess I don't think... I just... do.
I take myself off the bed and turn round to face him.
He's looking at me still in bewilderment.
Time has gone slow again, and it feels like whatever I do maybe a mistake.
But I have to forget what is right or wrong, I have to forget how long me and Nick have been together.
We're making for lost time.
The fact that we could have been together a year ago, 2 years ago or 3 years ago no longer matters because we're here now and we can be together now.
I unbutton my jeans and slide them off my legs.
I'm now nearly naked, my legs bare and my panties being the only thing left on me.
I then step back towards Nick again, and I start to unbutton his jeans. He lefts me do it and I slide off the jeans, to find Nick wearing a nice clean pair of black boxers... which err, don't actually make any difference to the size of him.
Well, this sure is going to be a hell of a ride.