hey guys i am back with a new chapter ! this fic is getting way lot of view than the rest of my fics , so i am going to finish tis first and fast.

jack will come into it soon , but not in this chapter maybe in the next ? well hope so !

so r & r ,

enjoy !

I have never actually been on a train before. It was taller than I thought , with a second –"story" windows that I guessed were the sleeping cars. Inside it was dimly lit , and most of the people stuffed in there looked catatonic.

I expected the train to steam and shoot off like a rocket ,because I watched a lot of cartoons in my misspent youth and that's how the cartoon trains work .

This train however glided off indifferently , as if it had gotten bored of standing around .

Naturally I called Tadashi the moment we set of. this was a slight violation of the Im-going-to-be-slammed-until-six-so-ill-just-see-you-at-the-party no call policy , but never has situation been so understanding .

When he answered there was a cheerful clamour in the background. I could clearly hear carols and the clanking of dishes, which was dipressing contrast to the claustrophobic muffle of the train.

"El" he said. "Kind of a bad time to call . See you in an hour ?"

I heard him grunt like he was lifting something heavy ,

"um ….thats the thing I am not coming" I said then I explained the parents in vacation , sister broken , cousins parent out , alone in the train , going to Burgess situation.

Another grunt ,

"it will be fine" he said "I mean Anna is with her right ?"

I was about to tear up at his light voice but managed to say "if you consider crying with Punzie alright"

"As I said El itll be fine"

"Yeah but it is Christmas ," my voice got thick and I choked back a tear. He gave me a moment .

"I know its hard El" he said after a pause ,"but it will be fine , its just one of those things"

I knew he was trying to calm me down , but still. One of those things ? this was not one of those things!

Those things are like ,your car breaking down or catching a flu during holidays or faulty lights burning your hedge ! I said as much, and he sighed, realizing I was right. Then he grunted again.

"whats the matter ?" I sniffed

"I am holding a huge ham" he said, "I am going to have to go in a minute. Look , well do it when you come back, another Christmas. I promise , I ll find sometime. Don't worry call me when you get there k ?"

I promised I would , and he hung up and went of with his ham.

I stared at my now silent phone . I understand that when you are carrying a huge piece of ham to your mom, for instance for more than sixty people coming down for Smorgasbord. It just has to be done. The rough must be taken with the smooth. I took out my ipod and used the remaining to flick through some of my photos. Then the power died.

I felt so alone on that train…. a weird , unnatural kind of alone bore into me. It was feeling just beyond fear and somewhere to the left of sadness. Tired but not the kind of tired that sleep fixes. It was dark and gloomy , yet, it dint seem it would get any better if the lights were on. If anything I wasn't even feeling up to calling my two left alone sisters.

They had a lot on their hand , than to console me about my boyfriend.

I like to think of myself as a problem solver. I would distract myself out of this funk. I dug into my bag to see what I had managed to accumulate before leaving, I discovered that I grabbed bare essentials some clothing , my glasses , contact case , my ipod was out of power, and a book , NORTHANGERS ABBEY, part of my winter break reading list for English.

It was a good book but not one that can make me feel happy in this train. so for two hours I stared out of the window as the sun set and darkness fell.

People were coming down the aisle with box of food – chips sodas and prewrapped sandwiches.

So I guessed there was a food cart , feeling that I had nothing better to do , I got up to get something to eat, so I made my way to the snack cart , where I was promptly informed that they were out of stock.

So I took a pizza disk , two candy bars, a muffin, and hot chocolate , the only things that they had to offer.

I thought it was clever to stock up a little , as the food supply was over, and suppressed the urge to compliment the waiter for being so well prepared but the poor guy , looked as if he could do with out it.

I took one of the empty seats, at the table. The train was shking a lot now, but as long as my hot chocolate did not spill I did not care.

'Mind if I sit here ?' a voice asked

I looked up to find an exceptionally good looking guy standing over me. Again I noticed and again I dint really care. But he did make more of an impact on me than the everlasting snow.

His hair was dark and he looked like an American, with high cheek bones. The denim jacket he was wearing wasn't really enough for the cold. He had just gotten himself a coffe , which he was clutching quite intently.

"sure" I said , and shifted a bit to make space for him. "have some" I offered him some of my food , he looked more hungry than me. "I was just stoking up a bit"

There was some sort of resistance, but I pushed it forward.

"I realize it looks like a pizza coaster" I added "it was all they had. Really. take it"

He smiled a little and said "I am Eugene"

"I am Elsa" I answered, I wasn't in the mood to be asked was I the student council head or something. Moreover most people call me Elsa, Tadashi calls me El.

"where are you headed?" he asked .

" burgesse" I answered ,

He looked taken aback "mee to" he replied smiling again, as he finished the pizza.

I offered him the food box again, "that's okay" he said "but thanks for the pizza I was kinda starving. We picked a bad day for travel, I just had to do something…"

"Who are you going to see?" I asked putting the box aside

"my girlfriend" he replied " I have being trying to get a signal , but I don't get one."

"I have one" I said offering him my phone , which he gladly excepted and excused himself while he called.

After a few moments he came back " dint pick" he replied shortly. "so this is kind of your girlfriend ?" I asked.

I remembered those times when I was not exactly sure that Tadashi and I were dating.

" we broke up" he said plainly .

"oh" was all I could say before the door flew open and a dozen of cheerleaders flooded in , all 12 of them shrieking and squealing at the top of their voice .

All I could think of was,

This was going to be a long trip.