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A/N: A big thanks to my wonderful beta d767468

Xander opened his eyes blearily and actually managed to recognize the room he found himself in. There was only one place he recognized that readily, his room at Headquarters. That thought sent the memory of the past few days echoing through his head. He groaned, sleep had been so nice, a long period of time in which he hadn't had to think about what any of it meant.

He had two brothers, two half brothers, and another dead father. Oh yeah and another dead half brother, he had forgotten about Adam. His brothers were Sam and Dean Winchester. Couldn't he have found less complicated siblings? He pulled himself into a sitting position resting against his headboard. He looked at the red numbers on the alarm clock, it was 7 o'clock in the morning.

They were brother's. What did that even mean? He had never had any siblings, although he always considered Willow and Jesse to be like his siblings, but they hadn't spent time together 24/7. Of course now that they were adults, what did being siblings mean for adults? Especially ones that hadn't grown up together?

Not to mention the fact that they all hunted. Would that give them a common bonding ground or would it create more friction? Then there was the fact that Sam was completely and utterly obsessed with finding Dean. It was all a little too much for him think about. He thought knowing would making it easier. It didn't. Only time would tell him the answer to all his questions, that, and actually talking to Sam. He caught sight of Sam's bag and grimaced, it seemed like such a good idea yesterday but now it seemed like something he really didn't want to do. He got up from the bed and stretched a bit keeping his muscles looser.

He blinked a few times then decided to procrastinate a little longer over the conversation he needed to have with Sam by having a shower first. He stripped off all his clothes and got into the shower. Man he loved his shower, it had the exact amount of pressure he wanted. The shower experience as a whole was pretty much only a 15 minute distraction, and then he was fresh and cleanly

dressed, right back where he had been before he started.

Xander figured that Sam would be up and about now and if he wasn't then he could just give Sam his duffel and they wouldn't have to talk until later. He went to the elevator, slowly walked in and hit the 15th floor button. He actually wanted the elevator ride to last longer. and he was pretty sure that the elevator ran faster than usual just to spite him. The elevator doors opened and Xander walked onto the floor. It had been several years since he had been on the 15th floor which was for visitors. He walked purposefully slow until he came to the right room number and knocked.

Sam opened the door slowly and saw Xander there.

"Got your bag for you." he said lifting the bag up a little.

"Thanks..hey...do you want to come in?" Xander wasn't going to lecture him on the come in part, mostly because the entrance is where the vampires would be weeded out and these were temporary rooms anyways and as such had no protections.

"Um..sure." he stepped into the room. It was very much still like a hotel room complete with bed, table with chairs, tv, dressers and sink outside the bathroom.

"Do you want to sit down?" Sam asked gesturing to one the chairs at the table. Xander sat down and saw Sam sit down on the bed facing him.

"I've been thinking about it this morning...been thinking about the fact that we're brothers and I'm sorry that I didn't say anything yesterday...it's just...I don't do well without Dean. I found that out the last time when Dean went to Hell after he sold his soul to save me after I had died. I made a lot of bad choices then, and I don't want to make bad choices now, so I've just been trying to get Dean back because I need him and I can't leave him in Purgatory."

"Yeah I know kinda of sort of know what you might mean. One my best friends died saving the world and we were afraid that she was in hell. We hated to think that after all the good she had done she was there suffering. So my other best friend said that we would save her and take her away from it. We

were wrong of course, we pulled her out of heaven. We were just so sure she was in Hell, but I think it's because we missed her so much and wanted her back. We were just best friends though, not brothers."

"I need Dean back and I know he's in Purgatory because Crowley practically

told me."

"Crowley isn't he King of Hell right now?"

"Yeah we kind of have a long history with him." Xander noticed he kept on

saying words like we and us, he wasn't used to using the singular term.

"He's also the bastard that didn't tell us that using the weapon we used to kill Dick had the nasty side effect of blowing anyone standing too close into Purgatory as well." Sam said with a voice full of loathing.

"I was going make another weapon until I realized that Cas was the only fallen angel I knew since Gabriel and Balthazar are both dead." Xander felt totally out of the loop. He knew angels had something to do with the apocalypse Sam had started but he had never actually met one. Sam seemed to have met a lot of them. "Not to mention Crowley probably wouldn't give us his blood again. So I

was back to square one, only with Bobby and his house blown up and Bobby really dead this time around. I only had the books that Bobby had in storage."

"Yeah I heard about that, I'm sorry, I know you guys were close. I worked with him once a few years ago."

"Yeah it's seems to be something that happens to people who get close to us. You should probably stay away for your own safety." Sam said bitterly.

"Oh I'm a demon magnet myself, all the demons seem to find me very attractive." Xander said with a smile, like he was boasting.

"Well that proves that all Winchesters are cursed. Adam died when he was 19 just for being a Winchester. We didn't know about him until after a ghoul already ate him and pretended to be him to try to kill us because our Dad killed a family member." Sam bit his lip.

"Anyways, I'm sorry."

"It's no big deal. When I first figured out I was possibly your brother I kind of freaked out a little too, but I got to do it in private." At least for a little while until his mom had died and Buffy and Willow had come. He shook his head, he didn't want to think about his mother right now.

"I just...I need my brother back."

"Then let's go find something to get him back."

"You're going to help?"

"He's my brother too." Sam smiled. For the first time since Xander had met Sam, it wasn't a sad smile. Sam looked different like that, younger and less burdened, as he realized he wasn't alone, and Xander was glad to see it.

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