Disclaimer: I own nothing except the lie I told in the last chapter.
Ben's Note of Sheer Awesome: Yeah, so… remember how I said the last chapter was the last one of this story arc? Ben might have lied… But aside from that, if you are still reading this, the cliff hanger did not tick you off and you want to find out how this could possibly be the darkest chapter of the fic. Look down at the prompt. You'll put two and two together pretty quickly to make four. Twenty-four in fact, which is this chapter's number. I can't believe I got this far. Normally I gimp out at about chapter 15. I'm doing amazing!
Oh, and thanks for supporting me KCL. Your love for this ship is what keeps this functioning, you know. I wouldn't be so happy and inspired if you didn't support me 100%. And I'm glad you enjoy the fact it isn't all romance. Sure, it's the major theme, but there are other things that I find need to be looked at as well, which can build and make the couple better and closer. (That and Maddie said she had to cameo, otherwise this fic wouldn't be 'mad'.)
Prompt 24: Suicide
Alistair and Maddie had made it back to her dorm room. They looked around to find nothing out of order, but Kitty was not present. Maddie took a look around, but found nothing to indicate that Kitty was there.
"That's odd. The author told me she was going to be here," Maddie said, rubbing her chin.
"Well, whoever this 'author' is, he's clearly wrong," Alistair said. "I have to head out. I'll see you later Maddie."
Maddie continued to rub her chin, not noticing that Alistair had left. Maddie rubbed her chin harder then looked up. "Mr. Author? Why isn't Kitty here?"
Maddie, you know I'm not supposed to tell you.
"But it doesn't make sense! Why have me leave to get Alistair only to bring him back here?"
It's called building suspense. Alistair's going to be encountering something to further the plot right about… now.
Alistair was making his way back to his dorm room when he heard inside his head, "She's on the roof."
Alistair blinked. What was that? It was in his head… but not his voice. He shrugged it off and continued forward.
"Kitty's on the roof, Alistair."
There it was again. He didn't know why that thought was in his head and why it was being persistent. So what if Kitty was on the roof? She could do whatever she wanted in her free time.
He turned the corner, only to be knocked off his feet. He fell to the ground, moaning in pain, and looked up at the person who knocked him to the ground. And he froze. It was a man in a black suit with a pale white slate for a face. The man seemed to be looking at Alistair.
"KITTY'S ON THE ROOF!" the voice shouted and the man vanished. Alistair blinked. That was odd. And if he wasn't mistaken, didn't that guy look like…
Something clicked in his head. Kitty was on the roof. If that was who he thought it was, and he went to visit Kitty… and Kitty was in an extreme emotional state…
"Oh no," he said and ran to the closest stairway he could find.
"Come on Mr. Author! Why can't you tell me!"
West side of the school, in front of Professor Nimble's window. Stand there and don't move.
"Is Kitty there?"
Go there and find out.
"Ok! Off to random spot, ho!"
Tears splashed from Kitty's face. This was it. This would end the suffering of the world and be rid of the worthless piece of crap she was. All she did was make things worse. She was a monster, and abomination.
A mistake.
Kitty was standing on the ledge of the roof. One step. Kitty found it funny. Only one step and she'd be over. Done. She wondered why she didn't think of it sooner. Everyone would celebrate her death. Everyone cheering that she was dead.
Her father most of all.
Kitty took a breath. She was actually going to do this. She was going to kill herself. Kitty was fearful… but her nightmares flooded her head. She was evil. She would kill everyone she loved. She couldn't do that. This was for the best.
"Kitty Cheshire don't you dare take a step off that ledge!"
Kitty twitched and turned. Alistair stood behind her, looking worried. Kitty's heart twinged. Alistair Wonderland. The one person she loved. She saw the terror and panic in his eyes. More tears spilled form her eyes. She knew this would hurt him… but he'd get over it. Everyone would. They'll realize it's for the best.
"Kitty, please," he begged. "We can talk about this. We can help you. Don't do this to yourself. Please, step down and talk to me. I can help you."
Kitty's tears grew in number. She knew Alistair wanted to help. He always did. But…
Not this time.
"I'm sorry Alistair," she sobbed. "I love you."
Kitty took a step back and fell.
"NO!"
BN: I'm not evil. I'm not. I hate bad endings. The next chapter will wrap up this arc. I will post it tonight. I'm not a complete monster.
Also, everything Kitty is doing is from personal experience. Not necessarily everything is the same, but I've been (several times) where Kitty is. I want to be strong in this statement: Kitty's thought process is the real deal. She's not thinking straight, and this is what happens when you can't think clearly. I know this is super dark, but this is real. I've been there, my best friend's been there, and I'm sure a lot of people have been there too. I wanted you readers to know that you might joke around about suicide, but this is real. People listen to your crap you say to them. Everyone in this world deserves to live their life. They matter in this world. People love them too, like Alistair to Kitty. I want to make this clear: stop it. Stop insulting people, even jokingly. Stop joking about death of others and who should die because they're 'annoying' or 'different'. I understand that Kitty's circumstance is different, but the message is still the same.
Sorry this chapter was deep. I just know about this topic a little too much.
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