Hey there readers!

Sorry, we're late in updating, but we have a lot of things to deal with (work, school, other fanfictions,...), so be nice with us (please).

So here is the first flashback (first of many of them), tell us what do you think about it in a review. It will help us to improve our story.

Time to read! Enjoy!

External POV

The next day, Kelly was still there, in Matt's room. He didn't want to leave him like this. He had been there when Kelly was bad after Shay's death, he just wanted to stay here for him. He tried to call Gabby, but she didn't answer his call. Maybe she needed time he thought. But Matt needed more help than her. He knew why it was hard for Gabby, but he didn't know why Matt reacted like this when he saw her. He freaked out without warning... He knew. He knew Matt knew.

Flashback, external POV

Gabby just discovered Katya's body in the kitchen of the appartment. Instinctively, she tried to find Matt in reaching every rooms, but there was nobody. Panicking, she grabbed her phone and dialed Antonio's number.

"Antonio? Can you meet me at Matt's appartment please?"

"Sis? Is there a problem?"

"Please Antonio..."

"I'll be here in ten minutes."

She hung up and cried on the couch. Without thinking at all this, ten minutes passed and Antonio arrived near the door of the appartment. He grabbed his gun and made his road slowly.

"Gabby!"

He lowered his gun and ran. We was worried about his little sister.

"Gabby, are you okay?"

She startled and looked at her brother, her eyes were still wet.

"Yeah... I'm okay."

"So what?"

She watched everywhere, then Antonio did the same. He understood. And sighed.

"I'll call Voight."

He stood up and called Voight. The appartment was a mess. In five minutes, the appartment was full of police officers and all the Intelligence Unit was there. Gabby hadn't move an inch, and stayed on the couch. Voight approached her.

"Gabby, I need to know what happened here."

"I... I don't know", she said finally. "I knocked to tell something to Matt, but... The door was open and... And the appartment was a mess like this and I found this... Girl dead in the kitchen!"

She cried all the tears she had.

"You didn't touch anything?"

She just shook her head.

"Where is Kelly, sis?"

Gabby looked at her brother.

"I don't know. I saw him sooner at Molly's when I worked."

"And, um... Why you wanted to speak with him? You told us you wanted to tell him something."

"Yeah. Um... I... It's not related with what happened here."

Antonio suspected something. He knew his sister, she was hiding something.

"Antonio? Tell me it's not about Matt's work with you..."

Antonio sighed and sat near his young sister.

"It is. This girl... His name was Katya, and she worked in the striptease club. Matt told us she wanted to quit this job and begin a new life. She helped Matt to find some informations about the work Matt had with us."

She looked at her borther, with an angry look.

"So... This happened... It's your fault..."

"Gabby..."

"No! You said to me you had his back. You said that! And now, he's missing! It's your fault! Both of you!", she said, pointing her finger to Voight and her brother.

She was angry at them.

"Gabby... We need to call Kelly."

She closed her eyes and nodded.

"Yeah. I know."

She grabbed her phone again, this time to call Kelly.

"Severide."

"Kelly, it's Gabby. I need you. Now."

"Gabby? What's up? What's happening?"

"Just... Meet me at the appartment. Please."

"Okay, I'm here in five minutes."

"Oh, and... Don't freak out when you arrive."

She hung up before having an answer. Five minutes later, Kelly understood what she meant on the phone. When he saw cops everywhere near the appartment, he knew something was going on. He ran on the appartment and found Gabby and the Intelligence Unit.

"Kelly..."

Gabby stood up and hugged Kelly, as strong as she could. And cried. Kelly didn't know what to do or to say. But his look... He was worried, and looked at Antonio.

"Antonio, what is it? Why are you here?"

Anotnio's eyes said everything. It was bad.

"Matt is missing. And Gabby found one of the strippers' body in the kitchen."

"Oh... Man..."

He passed his hands on his hair and closed his eyes.

"Tell me it's a joke. It's a joke, right?"

"I would love, but... No. It's real."

He shook his head. He didn't want to believe this.

"And, um... Do you have any... Clues? Anything?"

"Not for now. But we'll find him."

"You better! Matt worked for you, because he wanted to help this woman!" he said, pointing at Katya's body. "She came one day, and she wanted to speak with Matt when he was doing a construction job. So she spoke to me. She said she didn't want this life anymore and she knew that Matt was working for you! She knew! She wanted to help him because Matt promised her to help her to have a new life, far away from this!"

"Kelly, try to stay calm."

"YOU don't have the right to say to me to stay calm! YOU sent him in this undercover job! If something happened to him..."

"We'll find him. In one piece and alive. We promise Kelly."

He closed his eyes again and sighed deeply. He wanted to believe them... But in his mind, he knew something terrible happened to his best friend.

"We...We had an argument last night... about one of our colleagues. I told him he was wrong, but in fact he was right..."

"Kelly, we'll find him. Don't worry."

"And if he's already dead, huh? What if... What if we never find him? You'll have thought of that!"

"Kelly, we just told you. We will do everything to find him. We will appeal to all our troops", confirmed Antonio.

"As for me", began Voight, "I will walk my business. Casey and I were not on good terms, but it's because of me that he was undercover, so I'll get him out. I owe him that much, after all that I could make him suffer."

"Your ''business''? You mean the one for your dirty things?"

"We will talk a source of information if you will. I'm not going to appeal to them for dirty business, just know what they know about Jack Nesbitt and his men, as well as any information that would be helpful. I make it personal. I will also appeal to the firefighters headquarters. From what I understand, Nesbitt is a former firefighter and stopped to ride his striptease club. Any information about him or his men could help us back up to Matt."

Kelly didn't say anything. He couldn't. He just nodded.

"Do you know where to sleep tonight? You can't stay here for now."

He shook his head. Gabby grabbed his shoulders.

"Come with Brett and me. We have a couch. It's not really confortable, but his better than stay homeless for now."

"Thanks... Can I just... Grab some stuff?"

Antonio agreed and let him go to his bedroom for five minutes. Some minutes later, he arrived in the living room with some clothes. Antonio and Voight allowed them to go, but they will need a statement the next day at the police office. The nightmmare was just the beginning...

End of flashback

Kelly's POV

"Come on Matt! Just a spoon!"

But after five minutes, Matt didn't want to eat or drink. He still shook his head. So I sighed.

"You know bud', I know you hate hospitals. But if you're not eating, they don't let you get out of this room."

Matt stopped his movements and closed his eyes.

"I know. But it hurts."

"What hurts? Swallowing?"

He shooked his head. He lifted an arm just on his stomach.

"Ah... I see. Matt, you didn't eat during more than four days. You stomach and your muscles need time to adjust again."

"But I do eat! With that... Damn thing!" explained Matt pointing his feeding tube.

"I know bud', but if you want it to go, then you have to eat. With your mouth. It's just yogurt for now. Please, only if it's just a spoon."

Closing his eyes again, it took at least thirty seconds for Matt to finally open his mouth and let the spoon hit his teeth. I was glad. Only if it was just a spoon, Matt began to eat. It was a huge step.

"I took one with vanilla. I know you love these."

Matt tried to smile, but instead of that... A violent spasm ran his spine. I just had the time to grab a trashcan and he retched all the content of his stomach. I tapped the nurse button and within some seconds, Sonia came to the room. Matt had tears in his eyes and clutched his arms to his stomach.

"Matt? I need to know: in the scale of 1 to 10, how is the pain?"

Matt was now in a fetal position and continued to cry. He couldn't speak.

"I think it's a ten, probably more."

She nodded and left the room just a few seconds. I tried to help Matt but I couldn't. Sonia came with a serynge and emptied it in Matt's IV. I didn't know what was it.

"It's nexium IV 40mg powder with saline. It will relax Matt a bit for the next hour."

Matt began to relax a little but he still had his hands on his belly.

"Why when he eats, his body reacts like this?"

"I don't think it's a good idea to tell you."

"Please. I want to know. I need to know to help him."

"Maybe... I'll call Dr. Bennett, he will tell you. I think it's better."

"No, I ask to you."

I grabbed her left arm, but I knew it wasn't a good idea. But she seemed to understood. So she grabbed a chair and sat down next to me. She sighed.

"As you know, your friend was... Tortured in different ways. He didn't eat or drink during his four days of captivity, so his body needs time to... Regain balance."

"So, it's... Normal?"

"I didn't say it was normal. I just said his body needs time. Later I'll give you some soup to feed him. Maybe a liquid diet can help him. But right now, he needs to rest."

I nodded and when I turned to the bed, I saw that Matt was already asleep. I couldn't do a thing but smile.