Hello everyone! This is my last 'free day' before returning to university, so I decided to post this chapter. I keep hoping you still love this fanfiction.

Enjoy! :D

Matt's POV, three days later

I was still weak, but I was better than a few days ago. I no longer had fever, or sometimes just a little, and I was still mostly asleep. Sometimes I tried to get up, but I was too weak to do it alone, so Bennett, Sonia or Kelly helped me. I was allowed to eat chicken soup each time I woke up, and drink water too. I also knew that Gabby was in the apartment since day one, but every time she was in the same room with me, I was asleep or too groggy to remind me of anything. Kelly had assured me she didn't blame me for my behaviors, but I doubted about it. It was hard for me, but it was also hard for Gabby. After all that had happened, it was logical for her, the opposite would have surprised me. Even Kelly: sometimes he was uncomfortable with me, trying not to do some things, not rush me or even speak with me. And I understood: the slightest gesture could bring me pictures I didn't want to see or scenes that I didn't want to relive. But that was against me. Bennett said it was my subconscious which reacted. I had a syndrome of I don't know what but he said it was common after this type of case. That scared me because I didn't want to hurt anyone, but I was doing it unconsciously. Kelly, Gabby, everyone I knew. I wasn't the same and I knew it.

"Hey! You're awake!"

"Yeah Kelly, I'm awake. I want to get up but I think I'm not strong enough to do it."

"I'll help you. Where do you want to go?"

"Uh... Living room?"

I needed to do it: go where everyone was, facing Gabby again, this time trying not to cry. This was going to be hard, but I had to. I loved him too much and I didn't want her suffer because of me.

"So is the living room."

"I need to go to the bathroom before... Sorry."

"Oh, don't worry! Wrap your arm around my neck."

I did it, then he grabbed my waist and helped me to stand up. My legs were shaking, I thought my knees were going to give away in any time.

"One step at the time Matt. The flu made you really weak."

"I know. Thank you anyway."

"Ah, don't. You're my brother, you would have done the same for me."

"Of course."

"So don't. It's a pleasure to help you."

I couldn't help but smile. Five minutes later, Kelly helped me to get out of this room for the first time in days.

"Hey, look who is here!"

Sonia laughed a little while Bennett helped Kelly to sit me down. This journey from the bed to the couch in the living room had exhausted me.

"Do you want to drink or eat?"

"Yeah, why not?"

"It remains soup!"

"Uh... Can I try something else? If I can of course."

"Sick of it?"

"Kind of."

"French toasts and eggs?"

"That seems good."

"I'll call Gabby. She is doing some errands."

I closed my eyes. Her name...

Matt's POV, flashback

Hallie? This can't be possible...

"It's your subconscious which is using my voice to help you."

This doesn't help me. I'll prefer to kill myself to be with you.

"No... No I can't let you do this."

Why? Why Hallie?

"Because it's not you! I didn't see you give up since I know you! Each time you were breaking down, I saw you reacting. I saw you backward, turn, and move forward. You managed to get out of it! You will do this again."

How? I'm stuck, bounded, probably being tortured soon, maybe to death, and you want me to get trough this? How Hallie I can get trough this!

"Gabby."

What?

"Gabby helped you after my death. Kelly helped you too. They were there for you. And I think no matter what, when, how or why, they will be there for you. Anytime. You can't give up."

Hallie...

"What made you hang on after my death? If you are still alive today, it's because you hold on to that. So hang on to that thing."

Okay... I will try.

End of flashback

Kelly's POV

"Matt. Matt? You're with me?"

Matt startled on the couch. During these last minutes, he wasn't there, his gaze lost.

"Sorry what?"

"Dinner is ready. French toasts and eggs."

"Right. Thank you."

He smiled. Something was in his mind for sure.

"Something is bothering you?"

He turned his gaze to me.

"No. It's just... From the bed to the couch was exhautive. It's nothing."

I wasn't convinced.

"Okay. Here."

I tended him his plate and a fork. He looked at the plate, his eyes lost again. He worried me again. Something had to back him in the head. A memory of that time spent in that room. Something he would not want to talk.

"You still have enough energy to stay conscious a few more minutes?"

"I think so. You... You need me for something?"

"Actually... We would like to talk to you five minutes."

"We?"

"Gabby and me."

"What? What is it?"

He began to be on the defensive. Once again. Each one they approached the subject, he became almost violent. On edge.

"Nothing We... We just want to talk to you."

"Okay."

His fists were clenched, as if to avoid his anger to burst. I was worried. Gabby was in the kitchen and heard what I said. I signed to her, telling her it was the good time. Later would be catastrophic for him. So she sat near me, facing Matt for the first time in days. She took a deep breath and grabbed my hand.

"When... You disapeared, I-"

"Don't!"

Matt tried to stand up, but fell on the couch almost immediately. He put his hands on his face.

"I... Don't want to hear it!"

"Matt I-"

"NO! Please, no! Leave me, please!"

He was crying. As well as Gabby. She clenched her fists and stood up suddently.

"You know what? I will tell you, even if you don't want to hear it!"

Matt tried to cover his ears.

"When you disapeared, I found Katya's Body in the kitchen. I tried CPR, even if I knew she was already dead! I wanted to talk to you! And now, you don't want to face me! I don't know what I've done, but here what I wanted to tell you this night! Do you remember when I said my system was down when we left our shift? Do you remember? I discovered later that I was pregnant! I am pregnant, and it's yours Matt! But I think I can handle this without your help! I'm tired of all this! I'm tired about hearing Kelly telling me it's because you're damage and you need time! I'm sick of it! I wanted you because of this child! But don't worry, it will be fine! I'm done!"

She left the room, grabbed her bag and slammed the door. Matt was there, completely numb, trying to face what Gabby said to him, crying and shivering. Poor Matt. This isn't what I wanted to him to find he will be a dad.

Matt's POV, flashback

The door opened and Nesbitt appeared with a man.

"Have you thought about what I said earlier?"

Hell yeah! And I will say nothing to you. I faced them, raising my head and being on my feet despite the pain.

"Alright. I presume you don't want to talk. But here is Oleg. You know him do you remember?"

How could I forget him?

"So, because you don't want to talk, I will let him have some time with you. I need these informations, you understand Matt?"

I didn't move an inch.

"Oleg will make you swallow your pride, believe me."

He put his hands in the other and cracked them. I expected that. I knew perfectly well they were going to torture me.

"Matt. Try to think about what I said earlier. Don't give up. Otherwise, what you did to save Katya and the other girls would be in vain!"

I know! I'm not stupid! But Katya is dead!

"But not the other girls Matt. You have to save them! And for that, you must not, and under any circumstances, talking! You have no right."

Then I have to do what?

"Endure. As you have always done. You did it when your father abused you, when he abused your mother, you did it when your mother killed your father, you did it when we broke up, you did it when I died, when Andy died when Shay died when Kelly needed you. And you always hold on and moved forward, so don't give up. Please. If you don't do it for yourself, do it for these girls. To Katya.."

"Lets start Matt. It's time to speak."

End of flashback

Matt's POV

It couldn't be true. There was no way she toldme the truth. No way...

"Is... Is this real?"

I didn't want to hear Kelly's voice. Or any voice.

"When the hospital exploded and I was badly injured, you had sex with her. So yes... It's true. She's pregnant."

I couldn't stop but cry. I ruined everything. Everything. The person I loved hated me, and she was carrying my baby. This child I wanted for so many years. I really ruined everything.

"So six weeks..."

I couldn't breathe anymore. I was in total panic.

"Matt, hey stay with me man! Breathe, in and out. Breathe... Sonia!"

My vision became blurred again. For the umpteenth time. Kelly spoke to me, but I could only hear whispers now. My eyes closed, my head was so heavy. So heavy...