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Two days later...

Kelly's POV

I was perfectly aware that Matt needed to externalize all his feelings from these recent days. Orlovsky had tried to make him get them all without any success. He was even out of ideas. Everything was overwhelming us. But I had an idea and I wanted to have his approval. So I went to see Orlovsky between two of his sessions.

"Chaplain Orlovsky?"

"Kelly! I didn't have a session with Matt today right?"

"Uh no. Actually I wanted to talk about Matt. It won't be long. This is an idea I had and I need to know if it will help him. To get better".

He wasn't necessarily happy, but he closed his eyes and turned his head toward a patient.

"It doesn't bother you if I take five minutes of your appointment?"

"If it helps you, no".

"Thank you".

Immediately after, he sognied to me to go into the office and sit down.

"Good. What is this idea?"

He sat down and took a cup of coffee.

"As a firefighter, we have exercises outside our work. Gym, bowing... And... When I wasn't good, I boxed to relax. I think it can somehow help Matt with his feelings. Especially his anger".

"He is angry?"

"You... Well, you're the shrink, sort of, I thought you had guessed".

"I know that in such a situation, we have the right to be angry, but your friend never showed an ounce of anger during our appointment. Although I don't have the right to give you details, confidentiality, but he has not say a word in this office".

"I see. In this case, I can tell you that he is angry. Because what he experienced, you don't even know 1% of his story. I don't know everything myself, and I discover some sotries every day. Some days ago, I caught him with a piece of glass in his hand, but he did nothing. Apart from the strong shake and therefore cut his hand deeply. I saw that he was angry against himself. Because he had to let himself go, and... Well it's complicated. I think it would be better if it was the one who says this to you. But I think a boxing session could help".

"To not let himself go then..."

"It's the idea".

I sighed. I could see in his eyes that was between two sides, the idea to make him feel violent.

"I'm not 100% sure, but you can try a session to see if this helps a little. And you come back to me after this to give me your impressions, right?"

"No problem".

I smiled. He didn't totally agree, but I was going to be fixed.

Matt's POV

Kelly had come back home a few minutes ago and asked me to get dressed. I didn't want to get out, but he insisted, so I didn't fight. He was there for me, and if he wanted to take me out, it had to be for a good reason. My injured hand bothered me a little but it was not very serious. He loaded two large bags in the car while I finished to get dressed.

"Come on Matt".

"Almost done".

I actually finished. I was mentally preparing myself just to go out. It was a little hard for me to do this.

"Matt?"

I jumped when I heard a knock-knock on the door and Kelly's voice.

"Sorry, but we really have to get out".

I smiled slightly and went out with him to get in the car. The road was not very long, but I felt like I know the place.

"Kelly..."

"I know Matt, I know. But you need to let go off a little. While regaining the strength to come back at 51. So we're going down the car, prepare our bodies in the locker room and join the ring".

I couldn't say anything. But I agreed. Kelly had a good idea, but I don't know if I really wanted it. The preparation took longer than usual because of my hand, but according to Kelly, Bennett had allowed me to box under certain conditions: if I felt my hand hurt, I had to stop immediately. This was according to him, but I don't know if it was true or not, and I didn't care. There was nobody in the training room. Except the boss, who taught us to box. It was the ''official'' firefighters from 51 coach.

"Kelly!"

"Kurt! Thank you for all this. I know I warned you at the last minute, but this really had to be done as soon as possible".

"No problem ! I was off today, but it gave me an excuse to not fight with my wife!"

Kelly talked with Kurt while I inspected the area, as usual. Then they came to me.

"Well, Kelly said you had to get your feelings out. I have an idea for you, and I hope you'll like it. Come into the ring with me please".

I didn't know what idea they had, but knowing Kurt and Kelly, I wasn't going to be disappointed.

Kelly's POV, at the same time

I had to talk to Kurt before Matt can't do any exercise. I tapped his arm, wanting him to understand that I wanted to talk to him in private, and he followed me.

"What is it Kelly?"

"Listen, Matt lived a hell these past few days, and I would like it to externalize all these feelings".

"A hell like?"

I didn't wanted to tell him what he had endured.

"You... Do you remember that ten days ago, a firefighter was kidnapped and found after four days?"

"Yeah... Vaguely".

"Matt is this firefighter. I won't go into details, but he needs to unwind and feel free again".

"I have to expect to be beaten?"

"If he has a lot on his mind, yes. He already beated you once, so why not twice!"

"Kelly... I ask to find out what training I can give him. If he isn't able to box against me, then I can't work properly".

Damn... I took a deep breath.

"Matt had to renovate one of the strip clubs of a former firefighter of Chicago. Cops took the opportunity to make him work undercover and get information about a human trafficking led by this men. He was caught. During four days, he was tortured by this crazy son of a b*****. And his only way to stay alive was to let himself go".

"God.. I see, so... You want me to help him externalize his feeling by boxing?"

"If you can, you'll be my genius".

Kurt sighed and crossed his arms.

"I have better than boxe for this. Follow me".

"Uh, Kurt? Don't be so... Strong with him. It'll only make things worse".

"Understood".

We approached Matt.

"Well, Kelly said you had to get your feelings out. I have an idea for you, and I hope you'll like it. Come into the ring with me please".

Matt followed Kurt into the ring and I stayed on one side.

"I'm not going to make you boxe today. I'll teach you another sport. But first I want to know if you're following me before continuing".

Matt's POV

Another sport? I had struggled to learn how to box, it wasn't to learn another sport. But if we had stepped into the ring, it meant that it looked like boxing. No more thinking, Kelly took me here, so it was to help me feel better. I nodded.

"Very good! This sport I hope you know it, it's kickboxing".

I knew this sport, but in name only.

"In name".

"It's a good start. This is somehow a sort of boxing. Some say it'ss American, other Japanese. I say it's both. Anyway. The fact that you know how to boxe will help me to teach you more easily this sport".

I agreed that I was a little scared. I didn't feel good at all. It was not my hunting ground.

"Don't worry Matt, it's okay".

Kelly encouraged me. Kurt took the boxing pillows.

"You know boxing punches, and that's already a great start because they are the same in this sport. To simplify, we add kicks and knees, they are just more regulated. It's good for now?"

"Yes".

"Good. Each shot, whether kicks, knees and punches are allowed at all three levels. It's okay?"

"Yes".

"Not very talkative uh!"

I offered him a slight smile. It wasn't the fact I didn't want to talk, it was the fact that I was afraid. It was stronger than me.

"Don't worry, I'll train you. It will come. So when I say fist, you give punches when I say foot, you'll kick, knee and you'll strike. If I really want to be specific, when I'llthink you have the basics, I can say other words, but in this case I will explain them to you".

"Be careful with your right hand, Matt".

I nodded. I knew I had to be careful to not reopen the wound.

"I'll show you the moves and when I'll tell you, you set them out, okay?"

"Okay".

I set up next to him while performing the movements. I tried to reproduce them, but I was really scared.

"Matt".

Kelly came to the ring and faced me.

"Here, you have nothing to fear about. We are alone, and no one can go inside okay? Trust me, okay?"

I closed my eyes. I trusted Kelly, but it was stronger than me. After all he had done to me, I owed him that much. So I moved my head to tell him that I agreed with him. He smiled and lightly tapped my shoulder.

"We can continue?"

"Yes".

I focussed again. I was ready.

Kelly's POV

I was a little worried about Matt. But the fact that he wanted to try this method said everything: he trusted me. The opposite would have really hurted me. But seeing him on the ring, listening Kurt, letting him approach him without a panic wave, reproducing his movements... That made me happy and smile. Kurt remained a statue, and continued to perform all the movements while Matt reproduced them. I knew Kurt well, long before Matt knew him by the firefighters Academy. Sometimes I came here to boxe before the academy, and Kurt was already there. He was the son of the former owner and we trained together. Kurt was rarely impassive. Generally, this meant that he was impressed.

"Okay Matt! You're impressing me I must say! I would like to try something... More energic".

Matt inhaled, but didn't exhale. My first action was to go to him and lightly grip his right arm.

"Matt, breathe Matt. Listen to me! Breathe!"

I took his wrist to take his pulse. It was fast. He still didn't exhale.

"Matt, listen to me".

He fell to the ground, breathed, and let some tears escape his eyes. I understood. I knew Matt better than anyone.

"That's... That's word Matt, isn't it?"

He took his time, but nodded. Kurt looked at me strangely.

"This is... The word ''aggressive'' is blocking him. Matt, look at me please. Kurt meant a slightly more challenging training".

Matt's eyes were wet with tears still streaming down his cheeks and falling to the ground. He closed his eyes.

"I... I know. It was stronger than me".

"Your body and your brain are still reacting to all this. That's why I had thought to take you here. Help you overcome these past few days and start your life again. I wanted to help you to externalize your feelings on the ring. It might be a bad idea".

"No!"

I jumped.

"I mean... I want to try. When... Hallie died, I came to boxe several times... And kicking a punching bag made me feel better. It helped me a little to forget. I want to try".

Matt was determined. And I could not stop him. He stood up, wiped the tears that were still on his face and began next to Kurt.

"Like I said, I wanted to move to the next phase of our training. You're still with me?"

Matt nodded. He wanted to do that. To feel better.