Chapter Forty Five

Jasper

I realized that I had lost control and it was Bella's scream that brought me out of it just in time. When her hands went up under my shirt and touched my bare skin my instincts took over and I had pushed her against the door too hard. Realizing the situation I quickly let go of her and backed up.

I was horrified that I had hurt her and I wanted to run away from her. But I also knew that it would hurt her emotionally and I couldn't do that to her, so I just stayed where I was waiting for her to recover. She was clearly in pain but I could tell that it wasn't as bad as it could have been.

After a minute she stepped towards me and spoke up, "Jasper I'm sorry. I forgot. I just got caught up in the moment and I wanted so badly to feel your skin against mine. I'm fine, you just pressed me a little too tight against the door and knocked the breath out of me. Please go on, I still need you."

I have to admit to being unwilling to make the first move. I had already hurt her and yet I could feel my instincts trying to take over again. She came forward and touched my face and whispered, "Please Major, make love to me."

There was something about the way she called me Major and I growled low. Quickly picking her up I carried her to the bed. I laid her down and then joined her on the bed kissing her the whole time. Then I said, "Remember to let me know if I hurt you again, and please darlin' don't move except to move with me."

She smiled and then asked, "Can I at least hold on to you when I need to or should I just keep my arms down by my side until you're done?"

"Bella, when I said not to move I guess I should have said that you can move your arms and legs as long as it's to help me do what I need to do which is take care of you and make sure that I have covered you in my scent. You've already seen that I lost it and all you did was touch my stomach. Just let me do what I need to do now and I promise that you'll enjoy it and you will be satisfied. You may even scream again but it will be my name and it won't be from pain but ecstasy." With that I kissed her and then started to push up her shirt.

Bella

Jasper didn't waste any time and soon had my shirt up and over my head and I was glad that I had put on a bra. His hands were touching every part of my body that was bare and instead of feeling cold it was like fire trailing up my body. Although I wanted him to touch me, I still felt a little inadequate. I mean his past relationships were all vampires and they are perfect.

He quickly undid my bra and removed it but as he laid me back I covered my breasts which caused him to growl. He took my hands and pulled them up over my head holding them there with one hand while using his other to pinch and pull on one nipple while kissing the other. Then he used his tongue to tease it until I was moaning from the pleasure.

His response was to push his erection into my leg as he growled very lowly. It wasn't a growl of warning but of desire growing and it made me even wetter than I already was. There was just something about that sound that had me wanting more friction. My need for him growing by the second.

After a few more minutes of him ravishing my breasts I felt his lips kissing his way further down. Suddenly I felt a stinging and then air hitting my bare skin. He had ripped my jeans off as well as my underwear. I had been so aware of what he was doing with his mouth that I never realized when he let go of my hands and used his own to remove the rest of my clothes.

I had found myself arching my body up as he did his magic on my breasts but now I felt a little self conscience because he was staring at me and not hiding the fact that he was looking me up and down like a hungry animal. He looked me in the eye and said one word, "Don't!"

He got up and I felt the loss until I watched him as he removed his clothes until he was standing before me naked. I did take time to look at him and he was beautiful in spite of the scars that covered his chest, stomach, arms, he even had some on his legs. I have to admit to wondering how in the hell he was going to fit as he finally came back to the bed and joined me.

He spent several minutes kissing my legs going down one side of my body and coming back up the other side. He finally settled in between my legs and I felt his tongue licking my core. My body practically jerked up into his face and I was slightly embarrassed but that didn't last long as it felt so good.

He used his tongue to work some magic until I was moaning loudly. Then he used his fingers starting out with one then adding another one after a minute and continued until he had at least three. I'm not really sure as I could feel my lower belly tightening and I reached down and grabbed his hair and pulled him closer to me and then exploded. I did scream out his name then.

I didn't really have a chance to come down from my high before he had pulled his body up and I could feel him line himself up. He kissed me and thrust in at the same time. I felt the pain of my virginity being taken, and he did stay still but I could feel his whole body shaking. This scared me as I've never known a vampire to shake before. I was about to ask if he was OK but he kissed me.

I started to feel the pain flow away and then lust hit me. I bucked my hips up into his and he started to pump in and out but he was still shaking. He grabbed my hands with his and intertwined our fingers together and started a rhythm that started the coil in my stomach to tighten once again.

It only took a few more pumps before I exploded again and while I was still in the throes of orgasm I felt him stiffen and I could feel his seed shooting inside of me. It made me have another orgasm on top of the second one.

The strange thing was that at that point I could swear that his soul touched mine as we both came. I felt a connection with him unlike anything I've ever felt before. His hands tightened almost to the point of pain but then he eased up and suddenly I felt almost as if I was now a part of Jasper and he was a part of me. It was more like our souls had joined just as our bodies did.

Neither of us moved and not knowing exactly what was going on I decided that it would be best if I just let him lead. He was still shaking and although this was my first time I did understand that it seemed to have happened too quickly, at least for him.

"Are you alright? I didn't hurt you did I?"

"No I'm fine, only the pain I expected. Better than fine."

He didn't say anything else and just stayed like he was. I could feel that he was still hard which I had no clue if that was normal. Another minute passed and then I felt lust again and then he started up again. Surprisingly I had three more orgasms before he came again.

He never said anything just stayed like we were and then he pulled my legs up around his waist and we had our third round. It was taking longer each time for him to finally come and I understood that he needed this. I was exhausted after this time and he seemed to understand and pulled out.

I felt the loss but I was so tired and my back was hurting. I wasn't going to say anything and it was my hope that he would think the pain I was feeling was from this being my first time. I had a feeling that when he pushed me hard against the door that my back had been hurt by the knob.

He was still shaking and I was about to ask if he was alright but he said one word, "Sleep!" I don't remember falling asleep but I woke up a couple of hours later feeling the lust heavy in the air and he took me once again.

This went on for the rest of the night and I finally fell into a deep sleep as the sun was coming up. I was exhausted but very happy and satisfied. Jasper had finally stopped shaking and he explained right before I fell asleep after the last time that the shaking was from him trying to maintain control as well as the need to make sure that I was soaked in his scent.

He promised that there wouldn't be any more problems as his vampire instincts told him that I was thoroughly smelling of him and he would be more himself now. He also promised that the next time we made love that I would be able to participate without fear of him losing it. I made him promise that he would teach me what he liked having done to him.

I was woken up several hours later to his very loud hiss. I had moved to my side as I slept, and I opened my eyes to see that he was staring at my back. It must have been worse than I thought.