LEXA

Clarke has left Polis this morning and I'm already worried about her wellbeing. It's late at night and I find it hard to fall asleep. It's the first night without her and it feels weird. I've slept on my own for so long… But those few weeks with her made everything different. I can't stop thinking about all the things that could have happened to Clarke and the army during their trip to Camp Jaha. And I'm surprised, because the thing that worries me the most is Skaikru. There are dangerous animals in the woods, other grounders, even reapers… But nothing scares me more than Skaikru, when it comes to Clarke. They are different from us, they treat life in a way that it's hard to understand for us. Life means nothing to us. We live to fight, to survive, to serve our people. This helps us to avoid being scared. Sky people fear death, we do not. For us, death is not the end, because our spirit will continue living once our human body dies.

Life has no meaning.

And this made me understand that Sky people are essentially good. And harmless. This new chancellor, though… He's different from them. He doesn't treat life the way they do. He wants what's best for his people, like I do. Like Clarke does. Like Kane does. The problem is that he doesn't know what's best for his people. He wants to eliminate us, wipe us off. Like a disease. He burnt down an entire village, without even flinching. He did it as a warning, to show us that he's not scared.

To show us that he has no regrets.

And no heart.

"Heda, Heda !" I hear Titus yelling while banging on my door. I'm suddenly incredibly worried and I get up.

"Titus, come in !"

He opens the door and looks preoccupied. "Heda, Indra and the army are back."

What does he mean ? Indra ? And the army ? They can't be back yet. It's too early. She said two days. "Where's Clarke ?"

He doesn't even get to answer, because Indra comes running and says : "She said she was going to get inside the camp and that we had to wait, but she never came back. We waited and waited for hours till Octavia came to tell us that they're keeping her as a prisoner."

My heart stops for a second.

I can feel my skin turn pale.

I can't believe I let her go there without me. I would have never let this happen. I would have protected her. I wouldn't have let her go alone, even if it was to talk to her people.

They wouldn't hurt her. They can't hurt her. Her mother wouldn't let that chancellor hurt her. Octavia wouldn't let them hurt her. I honestly think Bellamy wouldn't let Pike hurt her. Not her.

Not my Clarke.

"Heda.."

"Shof op, Indra ! I told you to keep her safe ! You were supposed to protect her !" I yell.

"I made sure she was safe, Heda. Octavia promised to keep her safe, they won't hurt her." She replies, trying to keep calm.

I feel rage boiling inside of me. But I need Indra. "We're leaving, now."

I won't let Skaikru hurt Clarke, I need to go there. I made a mistake by letting her go on her own, and I can't let her pay for this. I promised peace to her. I promised I would stop seeking revenge. But if they hurt her… If they hurt her, all my promises will be shattered.

Jus drain jus daun.

The trip to the Skaikru camp feels endless. I didn't take many soldiers with me, because I know this might result in a suicide mission. Right now, they're stronger than us. We are going to their camp, which puts them in a position of vantage. What makes me a bit less worried about this is that I know that Pike and his soldiers are not there, they were seen near Azgheda.

"This fight might kill many of us." I state. "But don't be afraid, we'll make Skaikru pay for what they've done. Remember who the good Sky people are. We don't want to hurt them.

And we won't."

Not many of the Sky people will survive this attack, if they don't let Clarke out. If their mission is to wipe us out, they'll see what we're capable of. We wanted peace, we were trying to live in peace, but they ruined everything. We're grounders, we need vengeance. I tried to change this, but when it's enough, it's enough. I'm not going there with the intention of killing them all. I'm going there to rescue Clarke and I don't care about what I'll have to do to get her out of there. I was trying to change years and years of mentality and now they're ruining everything. Again.

We're almost there, I can see their lights and I can hear their voices. The plan is to look for Octavia and Lincoln and ask them about the secret passage to get inside the camp. Luckily for us, we find them near the gates.

"Lexa !" Octavia whispers. "What are you doing here ? "

"I'm here for Clarke, Octavia." I whisper back.

"If they see you, they'll shoot you all." She says.

"They won't see us. And if they do, we'll fight." I wait for a moment. "We need to save her."

She looks at me for a second. "You need to wait."

"I won't wait anymore ! She's one of you ! Why are they holding her prisoner ?" The anger inside of me keeps growing and growing.

"Because she was asked to choose between Skaikru and Trikru. She chose Trikru."

She chose Trikru ? Why would she do that ? It doesn't matter now. What matters is that they're holding her prisoner and I need to get her out of her.

"We're going in."

Octavia looks at me, aware that nothing can change my mind. I know she's a bit like me, so I'm hoping she'll understand. I can't have her against us tonight. I can't let her stop us. "Let us help, I have a plan."

I can't let her fight with us. I can't let her be one of us. Because if I do, she'll end up like Clarke.

A prisoner of her own people.

But I'm pretty sure she won't change her mind. She can fight, Indra taught her to. But Clarke would never forgive me if anything were to happen to her. I know nothing is going to stop her, because nothing is going to stop me. And I'm sure Lincoln will be important in this fight.

"Follow me." She says.

We silently follow her, but our caution ends up being useless. As we're running towards our safe passage, I hear a distinct voice yelling :

"Grounders !"

And I know we've been spotted.

Time to fight.

I hear gunshots going off and I can see bullets flying all over the place. I see my soldiers falling to the ground and some of theirs falling from the walls. Some of my soldiers are shooting arrows to protect us. The gates are now open and there are Skaikru soldiers running towards us. We can't use the tunnel now, or they'll see us.

We can't get in.

I'm holding tightly my sword in my hand, while Octavia is bracing herself next to me. There are some of our soldiers shooting arrows and spears at them, while they have soldiers on the walls with big guns aimed at us. I hear men shouting as I'm slashing a soldier's throat and I can hear Octavia fighting next to me. I turn around and see a soldier running towards me, with his gun pointed straight at my chest. My eyes meet his and I realize I've met him before. His eyes are fixed on me as he squeezes the trigger and shoots me. I fall to the ground, my chest feeling suddenly warm.

I know what you guys are thinking... But I wrote this fanfiction before 3x07 aired and I feel the need to keep working on it. Don't worry, though... I have a pretty different ending planned out. I promise you, this won't make you suffer. I didn't write this fanfiction to make people cry or suffer, I wrote it because I had this idea in mind and I wanted to share it with other fans. Hope you guys will keep reading it !