CLARKE
I asked Octavia to go tell Indra that they're keeping me imprisoned in here. I also told her that I will find a way out on my own. I don't want Lexa to come here to save me and possibly get hurt. She's the commander and Pike knows that. If he sees her, he's going to kill her. I've been sitting on this damn cell for hours now, basically just screaming my heart out and thinking about how to get out. I need to get out. I came here to make my people understand that Grounders are not our enemies, and look at me now. In a prison cell, once again, looking for a way to escape. I feel like I've been imprisoned for treason again. Is this my life now ? Getting imprisoned every now and then because I decide to help my people ? Is trying to help considered treason ?
I'm pretty sure Lexa won't let me handle this on my own. She gave me my chance and I failed. I know how hard that was for her. Letting me go, once again.
I don't even know if it's night already, but I can't sleep. I'm too angry and upset. Now I hear one of the guards screaming :
"Grounders !" And then guns going off. Bullets being shot. War cries.
I can feel my heart actually stop in my chest. And I can't control myself anymore.
She's here, I'm sure she's here.
"No ! " I start screaming "No ! Please, stop ! Don't hurt them !" I keep screaming and screaming till I finally see Octavia running towards my cell.
"Clarke ! Be quiet, I'm getting you out of here."
"What happened ? Please tell me that Lexa's not here." I feel so dumb by asking this. Of course she's here.
"She is, we were trying to get in, but they saw us and I thought she was behind me… Apparently she wasn't. I'll get you out of there so you can go do your thing and stop them."
Yes, I need to go do my thing. How do I do it ? Pike's not here, maybe they'll listen to me. I honestly think that most of the people who follow Pike follow him just because he knows how to manipulate people. Or he knows what people want to hear.
Okay, Lexa's fine. It's all that matters. I can breathe.
Octavia opens my cell and we both run to the secret tunnel to get outside. She hands me a gun and I feel lucky to have her next to me. We jump out of the tunnel and see what looks like a massacre. I should be used to seeing this. There are both Grounders and Sky people on the ground, blood everywhere. There are people shouting and guns going off. How many more people are we going to lose because of this war ? I was sure the alliance was going to put an end to it. I thought becoming the 13th clan was going to make things right. Apparently, I was wrong. I'm so tired of having to see this, I'm so tired of having to think about a way to end this damn war.
I see someone standing motionless in front of the gate, holding a gun.
It's Bellamy.
He has his foot on a grounder's body. The grounder is shivering profusely and hardly breathing. It's a grounder with a lean body. And long, curly hair.
No.
Not her.
"Lexa !" I start screaming. "Lexa !"
Octavia and I start running towards them and I can hear Octavia screaming next to me.
"Move your damn foot, Bellamy !" I can hear her voice loud and clear, even if I feel like I'm in another world. When we get there, Bellamy still has his foot on her chest and I push him out of the way. I kneel next to Lexa and move her hair from her face, checking her pulse and he breathing. I can see Octavia stopping Bellamy from getting up with all her strength as I put pressure on Lexa's wound. He shot her on her chest. Why ? Why would he shoot her ? He knows her, he knows that she's with us. He knows that she's good. He knows..
"It's okay, I'm here, it's okay." I start whispering.
I don't know where I find the strength to do so, but I pick her up and start walking towards the entrance of Arkadia, screaming my mom's name. My mom sees me and starts running towards me, with Kane by her side. Kane helps me carry Lexa inside the medical compound, where my mom can finally work on her.
"Don't let her die." I say, or rather, I order.
I stand motionless next to her body, holding her hand. She has her eyes open and her whole body his shaking. "It's okay, I won't leave you."
I can feel her squeezing my hand, but her strength is slowly fading away. I'm crying and shaking.
"Otaim en feva." I whisper to her ear.
Always and forever.
Her eyes are fixed on me. "Ai gonplei ste odon."
No, no, no. Her fight can't be over. Her fight is not over.
"No, yu gonplei nou ste odon."
I look at her, her face is sick pale. She has tears running down her face, I've never see her like this. I never thought I'd see her like this. It was my fear when she decided to fight against Roan, but then I thought it'd never happen. She can fight, she can defend herself. I was impressed by Roans fight skills, but Lexa… Lexa fights like everything and everyone depend on her fighting skills, she fights like nothing matters. Now she looks so defenseless and so terribly scared.
Before closing her eyes, she whispers : "I love you."