Chapter 4

Logan parked his car in Veronica's driveway; he watched her move in her house, carrying boxes after boxes. He felt like a stalker, sitting here in his car and watching his ex-girlfriend, as much as he wanted to prove his mother wrong about him looking like Aaron, he had realized that she was right. He had hurt what he reconsidered for a long time, and still does, the love of his life and now he did not know what to do to make things up with her. He did not even know if there was something left to save, he had made sure to destroy her and turned everybody against her do so.

He got out of his car and walked toward the house, but when he came near the trash can he stopped when he saw what was on the top of it. Logan kneel and took the picture to look at it, when he did, he realized that it was too late, his Veronica was gone, and so were her feelings for him. He took the pictures with him and carried them to his car, trying not to cry, as hard as it was. If he did not cry when Aaron beats him, why should he cry now?

"So how did it go?" his mother asked him as soon as she saw him walk into the room.

"I didn't go in."

"Why? What happened?"

"I found these in the trash." He said giving her the pictures. "I took it as a sign that she didn't want to see me or even want me to be a part of her life. I guess you were right, I'm like Aaron, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree

"I'm so sorry Logan, I wished things had gone differently between you and Veronica. Why don't you try to talk to her, maybe …"

"Mom, please don't. I've fucked up every chance I had with her, now it's too late and I have to deal with the consequences of my idiocy. I had an amazing girlfriend and I broke up with her because of something her father was doing, and I'm starting to think he had good reasons to go after the Kanes, but by the time I realized it it was too late. I came here to drop these pictures, I'm going to the beach and surf a little, I will try to be back for dinner."

"Okay." Lynn replied, knowing there was nothing she could to help him. She took all the pictures he had bought with them to his room. She sat on his bed and looked at them, one by one, she could see on them how happy they were, it hurt to see how broken they had become.

After hours of surfing, Logan threw his board on the sand and sat on it, he was too tired to move again, he had done all he could to take Veronica out of his mind, but that did not work, the more he tried to forget her, the more he thought of her, his sweet and innocence Veronica. Even if he was sure, she was no longer innocent thanks to him, he had really messed up. He was still watching the sea when someone sat next to him.

"Are you here to make fun of me? Because if it's the case, your friends aren't here to witness you taking my head off."

"Veronica…"

"I don't want to listen to you." She said getting up. "Forget I even said that, I don't care anymore. I wrote you this stupid thing, I should have thrown it as soon as it was written but I didn't. So take it and do whatever you want to do with it, you can burn it or throw it, it won't change anything. Duncan also got a letter."

"Why are you leaving, Neptune is your home."

"Not anymore, it's time to move on, I'm sure you know what I mean, you were the one who started to date a girl three hours after you broke up with me. With Lilly gone, you breaking my heart, Duncan turned into a zombie, my mother who finally took off, my father who started his own business and spends more time at the office than at home, there is nothing left for me here."

"There are people who still love you."

"Really? Well, one of them is dead; the other is my father and Duncan when he is not on drugs."

"What about me?"

"You?" she said with a sad smile. "I'm sorry, but you are just a mirage, something illusory like our relationship. Things between us were never really true, we made them up and when things fell apart it fell like a house of cards. Our relation was based upon lies, we should have stayed friends, we would have been better off than girlfriend and boyfriend."

"How can you say something like that?"

"It's easier now that I've realized that our relation was never true, you wanted Lilly and you settled for the second best, me. I should be angry at you for using me, but I can't, I've learned from my mistake and I have to thank you for that. You taught me a lesson, never trust people who say I love you and never believe again in love because it will always end up bad. If my first love went bad then it means only one thing, I'm not made for love, I should go to Vegas and try to play poker."

"Veronica, things between us were true, I loved you…"

"No, you didn't. Your actions prove it; you know it and if you are trying to hurt me then let me tell you it's useless, nothing can hurt me anymore."

When she stood up, Logan did the same thing and grabbed her by the arm to prevent her from leaving him. He could not let her go without talking to her first, he could not let her go thinking he was in love with Lilly and he used her to replace her best friend.

"I love you Veronica, remember forever and a day, you have to believe me."

"I'm sorry Logan, I don't believe you anymore, I don't even trust you."

"Please." He said, begging her with his eyes, he felt tears roll on his cheeks. She brushed them away and kissed his cheek.

"I don't believe you, I know you better than anyone, I know how you use fake tears to get what you want, and it won't work with me. You broke me, I let you in my heart and you broke me by using some of my secrets to do it, it won't happen again. I will never let you near me again because you might be the one who kills me." She said sadly. She began to walk away when she heard him shout.

"You are going to kill me, I love you but you are breaking my heart! Damn it Mars, I love you, only you, not Lilly!"

"Good bye Logan, I wish you the best."

Logan let her arm go but he ran after her and stopped in front of her.

"Please don't leave me, I need you, I will make it up to you, I promise. I will do all you want, just ask and I will do, please give me another chance."

"It's too late; nothing can be saved between us. I don't trust you anymore and I don't want to love you anymore, I want to stop having feelings for you."

She kissed him softly on the lips before running away from him. Logan carried on crying, he looked down and saw the letter he had in hand.