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Chapter 5

Dear Logan, Logan, Hey you.

I'm writing this letter, not knowing why, it's not like we are friends or even dating, hell we never talk to each other anymore. Well, we do but when we 'talk' you usually insult me. I've decided to move away from Neptune, away from you and away from some memories which hurt, it's time for me to start a new life and to move on.

I was packing my belongings when I realized something, you were with me because my best friend is the only girl you love, I was the second choice, the girl who said yes when Lilly said no. I know I should be angry, but I can't, I don't know how to hate someone I love, I've accepted it, you can't control your feelings.

I was happy with you but that was before Lilly's death, you lost the girl you loved, but I lost my best friend, a sister, the only person who could understand me. Someday I will eventually forget you and the pain that is always associated to your name, for months I thought no one could hurt me more than my mother but you did and that what kills me. I trusted you and I needed my boyfriend to help and support me, but you did none of these things, instead you tortured me and made my life a living hell. I should hate you for letting me down, for breaking up with me without even telling me we were no longer an item, learning you had asked another girl out the way I did was just horrible, I was already suffering because Lilly was gone and you added more pain. I remember thinking that I should have been the one who died that day because she didn't deserve what happened to her, she had so many things to live and you loved her.

I'm sorry for telling you all these things, I just hope this letter will be burned and you won't read it so I can take my secrets to grave, unless my aunt makes me go to her shrink.

Someday, we will forget each other and the relation we had, when that day will come I might finally feel happy or fall in love again, I can't let you ruin my love life again. I need to be happy and feel loved not used. Hope you will find what you really want and a girl who will understand you and help you to deal with Aaron, I'm just sad to know I will never be that girl again. Despite the pain you've caused me, I hope you will find what you are looking for and finally be at peace with yourself.

Veronica.

Logan read again the letter until he knew it by heart, he knew Veronica was hurt but he didn't know she was that hurt. How could she think he was in love with Lilly, he loved her, not her best friend, she was not this second choice, Veronica was his first choice. She was the girl who saw the real Logan, not the king of the 09ers or Aaron's son, he was just a normal guy who fell in love with the cutest and kindest girl he had ever met.

"Logan, dinner is ready." His mother said, walking into his room.

"I'm not hungry."

"You need to eat something."

"I don't want to eat, mom please."

"What happened?" she asked him, sitting on the bed next to him.

"Veronica and the truth happened."

"What?"

"I ran into Veronica at the beach and we had a small chat, she also gave me a letter. Mom she thinks I didn't love her that I was in love with Lilly, but she is wrong, I love her, I've always loved her. She is the only girl I fell in love with, Lilly was just a friend, nothing more."

"Why would she think that?"

"I don't know, I've hurt her but I love her, why would she think that. I've lost her!"

"Honey, don't say that, maybe…"

"Read her letter, it's obvious, she wants me out of her life, she wants to hate me and kill all the feelings she has for me."

"Logan, such feelings don't die overnight. She needs time, give her time and space so she can see things differently."

"I don't know if I can do that, I love her, it's going to kill me if I don't see her. When I broke up with her, at least I could still see her at school and I knew where she was but that won't be the case anymore. What do you think I should do? Go to her home and try to convince her to stay with me or ..."

"No, like I said you should give her time and space, she needs to mourn Lilly and your relation, if you want to date her again, you should give her these two things."

"It's hard, I can't imagine a life without her in it."

"I know but there is nothing you can do about it, Logan let Veronica go, you never know what might happen. She could realize that she loves and wants to give your relation another chance."

"I don't think so, listen mom I have to go, she gave me a letter for Duncan and I will go to his house to give it to him."

"Okay, don't do anything stupid."

"Of course, you know me." He said with a smile, he got up and kissed his mother.

The next chapter is going to be pretty interesting... Believe me, a fight and some blood and also a secret will be revealed...