77. Clock
Why is it when you're with someone you are head over heels in love with there just never seems to be enough time?
Reyna's not a philosopher. She doesn't spend time thinking about deep meaningful things or trying to figure out the purpose of life. Nothing like that.
But lately whenever she's with Leo it's like she can just hear a clock in the back ground going tick, tick, tick. Lately she's realized that no matter how much time she spends with Leo it will never be enough for her, she'll always want more, and if this is what love feels like, if it comes with realizations like this and painful emotions, she knows now why Eros is feared by everybody, even the gods.
She's not sure what brought it on. Lately since the baby was born she's had time to watch TV and it might be the latest episode of Sherlock, or How I Met Your Mother. She's taking it all to heart which she really shouldn't, and she's scared because in TV people die all of the time and she sees the other characters reactions and she's scared of that every happening to her.
She can just hear it, no matter where she is or what she's doing. Tick, tick, tick.
She has to learn to set it aside but it's hard. Now they have a baby and she has two people it would destroy her to lose and-
"Rey?"
She looks up and meets Leo's eyes. He's staring at her worriedly and she sighs.
"Sorry, what?"
He frowns. "What is it?"
She shakes her head. "What do you mean?"
"Rey."
She's being silly, she's not usually like this but gods, she can't help but just be worried to lose their family.
"Nothing." She says, trying to mean it.
"What?"
It takes her a while to respond, enough time for Leo to stand up from the dinner table and pull her up from her seat only to wrap her in his arms.
She melts against him, resting her head on his shoulder.
"I just realized," she says into his neck, "that I am absolutely terrified to lose you."
Leo stills. It doesn't reassure her.
"Hey," he pulls away just as she takes a deep breath, trying to calm down because gods, what is wrong with her? "That will not happen."
"Leo," she reaches a hand up to frame his cheek. "You can't know that."
"I can." He says. "Because I would never leave you. And I have the most bad ass wife here to protect me from anything that might try to take me away."
She looks up at him.
"There's no way you'd let anything hurt me." He says, eyes searching hers. "You don't have to worry."
"Do you?" She asks. "Ever worry, I mean."
"All the time," he replies. "But then I remember- there has never been anything or anyone on this earth that has defeated you Rey." He smiles. "We both know you can handle yourself."
She sighs. "Do you know," she says, "that you are my biggest strength and my biggest weakness all in one?"
Leo laughs. "Oh Rey," he says, "I'm pretty sure that's what love is meant to be."
Somehow, Gods know why, that manages to reassure her.