Lily sat down at a table where York, North, and Carolina were already seated. The two latter agents mumbled a 'hello,' and York was barely able to stifle a yawn, resting his head on the table.
"Rough night?" Lily teased, buttering her pancakes. "How late did you keep him up, 'Lina?"
North chuckled and Carolina's face went nearly as red as her hair. "I didn't-" York cut her off when he snorted, causing the redhead to blush even more, if possible.
Wash returned shortly, two cups of coffee in his hand. He handed one to Lily and slid next to York, who mumbled something incoherently.
"You're not hungry?" North asked, shoving scrambled eggs into his mouth.
Wash shrugged in response, but stole a piece of toast from Lily, who stopped eating to give him a look.
"Not cool dude, not cool."
Wash didn't respond, instead asking North where his sister was. The blond swallowed before answering, saying she was still in bed, and probably would be for the next few hours.
Carolina had to stop herself from making a comment, instead asking anyone if they wanted to train with her.
York slowly lifted his head up and grinned lazily at her, "I would, but I don't think I can walk on my own."
"And that's what you get when you leave recovery a day early," North sighed, standing up. "C'mon, I'll walk him back to his room, you go on Carolina."
She stared worriedly at York for a moment, while he grinned back. Letting out a sigh, she nodded reluctantly, placing a quick peck on his cheek before rushing out of the cafeteria. North chuckled and shook his head, slowly following her with York.
As Wash grinned after them, looking around to make sure no one important saw the not so subtle kiss (it was against protocol for freelancers to date, though literally everyone knew about York and Carolina), Lily glared at the table. Next to her were three other trays, two empty and one with half eaten food left.
She silently groaned and angrily stood up, grabbing the trays and storming to the trash, quietly mumbling to herself the whole way.
"'Clean up after us, Cali!' 'Watch us fight until we can't walk, Cali!' 'Do this, do that, Cali!'" Her voice differed from each, imitating different freelancers, such as North, York, and Carolina (in that order).
She slammed the trays down, and continued to grumble. "'Agent California I'm going to tell you everything is alright, but really I'm just going to use you for my experiments and slowly rip apart your mind because I can't get over something that happened like a million years ago!'"
When she plopped back down in front of Wash, who looked very confused and slightly scared, she seriously hoped he didn't hear what she just said.
"Cal, are you okay?" he asked hesitantly, eyes filling with concern.
"No David, I'm not okay. My head is pounding and I'm going to undergo surgery in a few hours so the Director can torture my poor little Alpha to get whatever the fuck it is he wants, and I'm going to wake up tomorrow, in a lot of pain but forced to hide it all and if you ask me what happened I'm going to have to lie to you, causing the guilt to eat away at me more than it already is."
Of course she only said that in her mind, so only her (and Alpha) could hear it.
Instead, she gave her best fake smile, and said, "Yeah, I'm okay."
He looked at her skeptically, but nodded anyway. "Uh, wanna train?"
Lily sighed and shook her head, "Um not right now, I have to...talk to the Director later and I don't want to be late."
"Oh, okay," Wash looked disappointed, and Lily bit her lip, looking down. She really did want to hang out with him - train even. But she had surgery later, and the Counsellor encouraged her to take it easy on surgery days.
'Which do seem to be getting more frequent,' Alpha commented. Lily agreed.
"Um, hey! I don't want to train, but we could still hang out, maybe," she mumbled out awkwardly, face burning as she turned away.
Wash looked back at Lily and smiled, face turning slightly red also. "Y-yeah, yeah okay," he chuckled, literally feeling the awkward leave his mouth. "Um.."
"I dunno, maybe we could...take a walk? I mean I know walking around the ship doesn't seem that spectacular or anything, but-"
"Yeah! No, yeah, we can," Wash nodded, smiling softly. "We can also...hang out in one of our rooms! Because, that's literally the only other thing to do here."
Lily giggled at his sarcastic excitedness, and agreed.
He picked up her now empty breakfast tray, and she took the now empty coffee mugs, and they walked out of the cafeteria (after placing the items down, of course).
"Okay, but you've seriously never seen The Empire Strikes Back? That's the best one!"
"Well, I haven't seen any of the Star Wars movies, so I wouldn't know."
"How could you have not seen them? That's like - that's like not reading Harry Potter!"
"Never rea-"
"If you finish that sentence I will end you."
Wash broke out in a fit of laughter, eyes shut and head thrown back. Lily noticed his right eyebrow raised slightly above the other when he laughed, and he had a small dimple on his right cheek - hardly noticeable. Lily bit her lip to stop the grin spreading out on her face, it was weird enough to stare at him. Though she couldn't deny that there was something a little more than friendship between them.
Wash's laughter finally calmed down to a faint chuckle before responding. "Okay fine, sorry. But I have seen the Harry Potter movies."
Lily rolled her eyes and let out a breathy laugh, "It's not the same!"
Wash smiled and, without thinking, took her hand in his own. Suddenly, her smile disappeared from her face, and he froze, hoping she wouldn't kill him.
Then, slowly, as if the world wanted to mess with Wash, Lily breathed in. Suddenly feeling very nervous, Wash winced, praying to not get yelled at.
And suddenly she let out the cutest sneeze he had ever heard, and he let out the breath he didn't realize he was holding. The breath turned into an airy laugh, both at the thought of him being ridiculously frightened, and the sound of her sneeze.
"I don't think I've ever heard your voice go that high before," he teased, grinning.
"Shut up," Lily mumbled, rubbing her now red nose, before falling back into conversation about some character he's never heard about.
"...still talking about the angry ugly one that was in that house? Or-"
"No, no, that was Kreacher. I'm talking about Winky."
"Never heard of him."
"That's because she wasn't in the movies! Now, in the book..."
"Do you think they realize?"
Carolina glanced at her boyfriend, who stood in the doorway of his bedroom, seeming now well rested as he stared at Wash and Cali.
She looked back at the pair, who were walking towards Wash's room, which was down a few doors from York's. Taking a peek at their laced fingers, she smiled, looking back up at the two, who were still conversing absentmindedly.
Carolina turned back to York and shrugged, before answering, "They look pretty lost in conversation, but it seems like they're holding hands pretty tightly, so they must realize."
"What? No, not the hands. I meant do you think they realize that they've fallen in love?"
Carolina scrunched her eyebrows, turning back to the two. They stopped walking now, Cali had one hand on the doorknob, and the other intertwined tightly into Wash's. Her brown eyes seemed to brighten with every word she spoke, and Wash stared at her with the softest eyes. The way they were facing caused Carolina to only see his blue eye which kept glancing from her eyes to her lips, and flickering over the rest of her face (though more often than not, they locked on her lips). It was a look as if he wasn't really listening to her, but still taking in each and every word. A look she recognized quite well, having been on the receiving end of it from York multiple times.
Carolina's own faced softened as she turned back to York, who was already looking at her, smile small and eyes (eye) soft. Carolina gave a small smile back, before turning to walk to her own room, being pooped from training.
As she did, she passed by Wash's door, which had now been opened and was starting to close. As she passed, she heard Cali giggle and Wash's voice, a bit too soft for her to hear. Cali began to mumble something back but was cut off by something, and gave a small gasp.
The red head smirked as the door shut fully, and she turned around to spot York, who was still standing there.
"Told ya so," he winked at her.
"Oh please, anyone could see it from a mile away," she laughed, and walked off to her room, actually making it this time.
When Wash kissed her, she wasn't really sure how to react. The first thought she had was, 'I should buy him some ChapStick.' Her second thought was, 'Oh my gosh! He's kissing me!' And by the third thought she had, she was kissing him back.
Lily wouldn't really be able to describe exactly what she felt when they kissed. Well, she was happy, and she felt warm, like joy had spread all over her body. She felt all tingly too, as if she were a firework and Wash had just lit the spark. She felt like there was fire where Wash's hands touched her skin, one trailing from her arm up to her cheek, the other down to her waist.
She wasn't sure what to do with her own hands, so Lily placed them on his chest, where she could feel his heartbeat beating just as erratically as hers. In truth, Lily wasn't sure where to go from there. The only thing kisses had led up to for her was a much more intimate act, and she didn't think David was quite ready for that, so she awkwardly stood there, hardly moving her lips. Thinking about her past relationships, made her stomach go from lovely butterflies, to being filled with dread. What on earth was she doing? Her one rule was already broken, and she was making it worse buy kissing him!
But she couldn't stop, this was all Lily ever wanted. When they first met, and she slowly realized her feelings, she wanted this. And ever since she was a little girl, all the way up to a grown woman, all she'd wanted was to be kissed by someone she really cared for, and someone who cared for her. This was the one thing Lily wanted the most in the universe.
And she knew she couldn't have it.
When Wash pulled back, he was grinning as he caught his breath. He knew it was a bold move, but she just looked so beautiful standing there, and he had to take his chances. And she actually kissed him back! He looked up at the ceiling, closed his eyes, and took a deep breath, letting it out as he looked back down at the girl of his dreams.
He wasn't expecting her to start crying.
But there she was, beautiful brown eyes staring up at him, filled with so much pain as they filled with tears.
"I-I'm sorry, David, but I - we, can't do this," she choked out.
David never really knew what it felt like to have his heart broken. Yeah, all his past relationships didn't work (obviously), and he's been rejected by his fair share of ladies (and one guy, but it was on a drunk dare and the man turned him down in an instant). But when the feeling of disappointment, fear, and straight up cold washed over him, filling him with an indescribable ache and pain, he figured this is what heartbreak was.
"What do you mean, 'we can't?'" he asked, running a hand through his dyed hair.
Lily sighed and shook her head. "I mean, this! It-it's against protocol! And it's dangerous-"
"York and Carolina are in a relationship, no one's said a thing about them! We can keep it a secret, we can-"
"No, it's not only that, I mean, our jobs are dangerous! And, I mean if we were together and you got hurt - or killed - ...I just, I can't bare the thought of it."
Wash took her hands in his own, trying to get Lily to look up at him.
"You just said it would hurt. Like, if I were to die right now, while we weren't in a relationship. So wouldn't it hurt worse now? Knowing that we could have been something, but you didn't?"
She sighed and pulled her hands away from his, "No. I mean yes? I don't know, just - I can't okay? I promised myself I'd never do this-"
"Do what," Wash demanded, "Do what, Lily?"
"Fall in love!" she blurted, more tears spilling down her face. "I promised myself I'd never fall in love! It would hurt me in the end too much, and you! Just leave me alone please, before it gets worse!"
"What?" Wash felt panic rise in his throat. This woman just admitted she loved him and she's walking away? "No, no I love you too!"
Lily glanced back at him, from where she was making her way to the door. She shook her head, "No, David, please don't say that-"
"Lily, listen. We can make this work, just-"
"David, please-"
"Agent California, the Director wishes to see you immediately."
Wash flinched, not expecting to hear F.I.L.S.S.' voice.
"I-" Lily cleared her throat. "Yes, F.I.L.S.S., tell him I'll be right there," she said, voice cracking.
She rubbed her eyes and nose before glancing back at Wash, and leaving his room.
David slowly sat down on his bed, putting his head in his hands, flinching once more when he felt wetness on his cheeks from tears he hadn't realized where there. He's been alone in his room plenty of times before, but this was the one moment where he truly felt alone.
And for the first time in a long, long time, Agent Washington cried himself to sleep.
A/N: Haha what is this. I wanted it to be really cute but then my brain was like 'actually fuck you' and I made myself really sad by writing this but hEre ya gO!
Honestly at this point, I'm kinda just writing. I know how I want the story to end, but I'm not really sure like how to get there, I'm sorta hoping it all just falls into place.
I also know what I want for the sequel, like when Lily is in Blood Gulch with the guys. Expect another OC, and hopefully less angst? And expect a really motherly Lily, you see how she acts with Alpha, imagine her with three tiny blue babies she has to take care of. And then when Tex comes, *sigh* those two are like wine mom and vodka aunt.
Anywho, review? let me know what you think pls I love getting reviews! I hope you enjoyed this chapter!
~Saammmm :-D