A/N: Just so you're aware, it was like 3 in the morning when I wrote that last chapter. Currently 7 in the afternoon and I'm listening to emo music to write this chapter.

When I was finally able to open my eyes, I was in a white room that looked extremely familiar. I looked around, spotting the Director, though his image was distorted. It seemed as if the entire room was moving, everything was blurry and I was seeing doubles.

I groaned, trying to touch my head, but soon realizing my arms were strapped to the table/bed I was lying on.

"What the hell.." I mumbled, really trying to figure out what the fuck just happened. Had all those people really died?

"Wh-what happened. Director, Alpha, please, anyone. Tell me what happened."

Alpha was floating next to me, panicking just as I was, though showing much more distress.

"No! No, what happened? Please, I just needed a little more time, tell me what-tell me what happened!" he demanded.

The Director stepped towards us and placed a sympathetic hand on my wrist. "I'm deeply sorry, we've lost two this time."

"What? No!" Alpha cried.

"Who?" I asked shakily, praying the images I had seen weren't real.

"Agent Washington, and Agent Texas," the Director finally answered.

"No!" Alpha and I cried at the same time. How could I be so stupid? I had just gotten him and now I've lost him! I wasted all this time and now my carelessness- I just-no, why, why, why?

"No," Alpha sobbed. "I'm sorry, just a little more time please, I can-I can- just some more time, is all I need!" he begged.

I couldn't really focus on his voice though, I couldn't focus on anything but the feeling of my heart shattering into a million pieces. This was my fault, all my fault. I'd had him, I had finally gotten what I wanted - and he was gone.

"Now, Counsellor!" the Director suddenly yelled.

I didn't know what happened next, but the pain I felt was nearly unbearable. I couldn't do anything but pull against my restraints, and scream through clenched teeth.

David. David, I'm so sorry, I thought, before the room went dark once more.

Waking up the second time wasn't as bad for Agent California. She was in a lot less physical pain, though the emotional pain was at an all time high. She didn't even know if she truly believed the Director, but just the thought of David's death was enough to make her want to scream.

So she did.

She screamed, and cried, and sobbed for as long as she could. She screamed until her body was numb, and her head pounded. Her eyes had shed their last tears and she just stared at the ceiling.

"Hey Cali, I've gotta talk to you," Alpha spoke in her mind, sounding tired and defeated.

"Hnm," she grunted in response.

"Listen," Alpha appeared, sitting on her abdomen. "I overheard a conversation between the Director and the Counsellor. Something happened with Wash."

Cali's eyes flickered to him, mouth opening slightly. "Is he...alive?" she croaked.

Alpha shrugged and looked down. "I'm not sure. But, well, the Director assigned him and A.I. - Epsilon. It...didn't work out really well and he practically went insane."

More tears swelled in Cali's eyes and Alpha felt a pang of sympathy for her. She'd gone through so much shit and didn't deserve this. Neither of them did.

"He- I don't know. But everybody - including Wash - thinks you're dead," Alpha explained.

"What?" Cali sat up a little and scrunched her eyebrows.

"Yeah um, well, you actually did, ya know, die."

"What the hell," Cali mumbled. "How can I die and not even know?"

Alpha shrugged again and shook his head. "I-I don't know? Something about too much strain; when Epsilon was created I was nearly destroyed, as were you. You're heart was stopped for a good 10 minutes."

Cali didn't say anything, she just slumped back on her bed and sighed. She attempted to rub her eyes, but her arms were still strapped down.

"Argh," she groaned. "Well what now? I have to go see David, I- they need to know that I'm okay. I need to know that he's okay."

Alpha nodded and stood up. "I understand, but, you can't do that."

Cali scowled. "Why not? Other...than the fact that I can't actually get up."

"The Director is planning on erasing your memory," Alpha said suddenly. "Which actually the original reason I came to speak to you."

"What the actual fu-!" she shouted but Alpha cut her off with an attempt to cover her mouth with his tiny hands. His arms went through her face instead, which worked just as effectively.

"Sh!" he whisper shouted. "I'm not supposed to be in here!"

"Well it's not like I'll remember any of this anyway!" she whispered back.

Alpha groaned and rolled his eyes. "Okay listen. So, they're planning on taking me out of your head and then erasing your memory. Soo, while I'm still in here, I'm going to do everything I can to block it."

"Will that even work?"

"I'm not sure," Alpha admitted. "But we're going to try anyway, right?"

Cali shrugged, "Worth a shot."

"Okay," Alpha said. It was silent for a moment before he spoke up again. "So um, I think that this is it?"

"Uh yeah, I guess it is," Cali said, swallowing awkwardly.

It was quiet again, neither one knowing what to say.

"Um, Alpha, just - thank you. For everything. You were my first real friend, like ever, which is kind of sad. But you...still mean a lot to me, and I'm really going to miss you," Cali said, eyes watering once more. "You know, if I remember you."

Alpha nodded, "Yeah, m-me too. I've never really been good with this kind of stuff, but um, well, yeah. I'm not even sure if an A.I.'s feelings count but, you mean a lot to me too, Lily."

Cali smiled, the tears finally spilling over.

"What if it doesn't work? If I do end up losing all my memories?"

"Um well," Alpha frowned, "I guess...I guess you'll get to move on and live the life you always wanted."

"Yeah," Cali muttered. I love you, David.

"Still inside your head," Alpha teased, causing Cali to give a small smile. "But hey, if I see him, I'll definitely tell him that."

"Thanks."

They fell into a comfortable silence, until footsteps were heard approaching the door.

"Okay, uh, good luck?" Cali said, unsure. "Um, please work."

Alpha chuckled before disappearing. The door opened and the Director walked in, followed by the Counsellor and a few medics and doctors.

"Don't worry, Agent California," the Director spoke. "We're going to make this as painless for you as possible."

She ignored the rest of his speech, closing her eyes and putting all her focus on the memory of David smiling brightly at her.

'Goodbye, Lily,' Alpha whispered.

Cali smiled to herself, ignoring the pinch in her arm from the needle.

Goodbye, Alpha.

A/N (again): okay that was really difficult to write? like my eyes are really watery and yeah my hEART.

Anyway, this is it I guess. I wasn't really sure how to finish this and I'm gonna be completely honest with you guys, this was just me trying to hurry and finish this story so I can start the sequel.

I really enjoyed writing this and I really hoped you guys liked reading it just as much.

So, yes, I'm actually working on the sequel right now? I already have the first chapter done and it's like sort of what happened to Cali after all this mess, but before her arrival at Blood Gulch. So that should be out soon.

So, thank you guys so much again and just yeah, I don't really know. But please keep an eye out for the sequel! I'm not even 100% sure on the title yet but it will most likely have something like 'lily yang' or 'blues' or 'outpost alpha' in the name or something.

Well I guess this is it now! Review, please (: and tell me how horrible this was really (cri).

Goodbye.

(for now)

~Saammmm ;-D

AUGH HEY LOOK

bc I forgot to mention this before I saved it...but remember that time I said I'd have a female oc for red team? Yes, it's true and if anyone wants to, they can submit and oc. Like name, armor color, appearance, if you want them to be in a relationship, etc. So do that yes please, thank you, you're welcome (sorry I just rewatched season 12 and I'm feeling very Felix-y right now)

~Saammmm :-D (for real this time)