Many thanks for your Generous support and Patience...
To Tayjj44:
She will forgive him ...eventually and Sam does have a part to play
To Serenity 1006:
You're right, Bella is acting Childish and she should give Jake a chance to explain himself. But in her current state of mind, she's lost faith in everything she once believed. (His betrayal was the final straw that broke the camel's back.)
To Stephanie MRV:
Thank you so much for the complements. I'm glad you like it. Bella has had it at this point and it seemed like the right time to her reconnect with an honest parental figure. Sam is in for a surprise in this chapter that will make him more understandable to Jake's plight. As for Billy and Jacob? You'll just have to stay tuned.
To SilentMayhem:
Affirmative on the conversation being relayed to the pack. I like Bella not being weak either, Billy's involvement will come later.
To Sarahmicaela88:
I wouldn't say that, but they sure have a bumpy road ahead of them.
To Rosefrost16:
Why thank you and I hope it will continue to appeal to your interests.
To Mandy:
You'll just have to read on and see. Anything not answered here will be in the next one.
To Astibe:
Your three point mistake tally is right on.
To May:
They ARE failing, hopefully this chapter will be a step in the right direction.
To Melodia:
Thank you, it's nice to be back. It was good that Bella finally let it out instead of bottling her feelings up.
To Rose:
Yep it has been quite a journey that's not over yet. You can bet that now Charlie knows. He will back her up and be the voice of reason.
3rd Person POV:
It was a rainy morning in La Push, but the heavy water drops weren't what awoke the big reddish-brown wolf which laid below a huge cedar tree.
It was the howls and very human thoughts of his pack that got his attention.
'Jake! Oh there you are?!- Sam's been having us search the entire reservation for ya' thought his best friend Embry as his wolf form came up to sit beside him.
'I guess things didn't go so well last night at Bella's huh?'
'-Just terrible! I didn't even get a chance to talk to her'
Jacob answered miserably. 'And I learned somethings that-'
He broke off into painful whimpers.
'It made things more clearer of exactly WHAT I'm dealing with here: I SCREWED up BIG time!'
–'Yes you did! And Sam wants to clean up YOUR mess. So move it to the pack meeting at Emily's, BOTH of you!'
shouted Paul impatiently as he came through the bushes growling.
'Alright,!" the wolves gave in as they got to their feet with Paul herding them.
"What do you want Sam?" asked Jacob, charging into the clearing in his jean short cut offs.
Finally fed up with everything that had been going on since he first shifted (and the last ten minutes with Lahote hadn't helped matters one bit.)
"Now Jake," scolded Emily as she came out on the porch placing a calming hand on her imprinter's bicep "There's no need for that kind of tone."
But he ignored her, "Just tell me what you want me to do, so I can get the hell out of here."
Sam glanced a sparing gaze at Paul before remarking,
"I need you to show an interest in the pack to start with"
"The Pack, the pack, the Pack…Every day for the last damn month, it been nothing but that!"
Jacob exclaimed, throwing his hands up in the air in exasperation. "You know, I wish I hadn't turned cause it's made me turn my back on what matters the most- My FAMILY!"
Embry came up and put a hand on his best friend's shoulders.
"You haven't abandoned your family Jake. We- the pack ARE your family, Billy knows everything and is in full support of your actions in the pack as we work together to protect our families from the Cold Ones."
The others nodded in agreement, as Sam complimented "Well said Embry, thank you."
Jake sighed,
"You forget Bella and the Baby are my family too. She and Charlie have been a part of my house long before the pregnancy. Maybe if she had stayed and grown up in Forks with Charlie at full custody? She would have developed a true sense of Family and Self-Worth. Instead of going through life seeing herself as a mistake caused by her parents for not using protection. With that in mind, I ask you. Is it any wonder she fell for the Leech Family's imitation of love and compassion then have it destroy her when it was taken away?"
They were silent then Lahote spoke up:
"She's not an imprint, your soul mate could be still out there and you're wasting your time on the Le- Isabella Swan"
Jake raised an eyebrow incredulously "Oh and I suppose Leah was a waste, Right Sam?"
The alpha's face darkened, "You don't know anything Jacob Black! Our situation was different!"
"-How? Because she was a native of our tribe? Doesn't change the fact that she was pregnant when you imprinted on Emily!"
Sam Uley was in shock as he involuntary backed up in disbelief.
"Wh-What? You're lying? She's p-? I'm gonna be a-? She nev-?"
Emily came over to him. Trying to offer support while still dealing with her own surprised feelings.
Since the imprint, it had really drove a wedge between the two cousins. Sam and Emily both knew they had hurt Leah and were sorry for it. But this was a whole new level.
The alpha broke away from her embrace "I- I need to go and talk to Leah"
"It won't do any good now…" Jacob warned, now filled with compassion for his broken leader.
"What do you mean Jake?" asked Emily, fearful of the next sentence.
"-She got rid of it,"
"NO!" shouted Sam, "She wouldn't! She said she always wanted to be a mother!"
Jacob dry swallowed, "My father spent a lot of time on the phone counseling Harry and Sue on persuading her keep the baby. But Leah said It was her body and she could do whatever wanted. Plus, she couldn't stand to be reminded that she's forever tied to a man who broke her heart to screw with her cousin."
Emily gasped while Sam squeezed his eyes shut in shame.
" Then according to the last phone call about two months ago. She got up early and drove into Seattle on some Tuesday morning and had it done." Jacob finished.
Time ticked by and the whole pack was deep in thought. (Even Jared who'd been sitting on the porch listening.)
As they mourned the loss of who would have been a future member of the tribe or even their pack.
When Sam finally spoke again, it was clear he was not the same man that he'd been ten minutes ago.
"I'm sorry Jacob… I'm sorry for the pain I've caused for you and Bella to be apart. I was so busy trying to protect the tribe from the red haired leech and train you all. That I forgot about the heart and how painful it is when it's broken. Only to be damaged further by lies…I'll never be able to tell Leah the truth about me and Emily and what happened. So says the Council law and my child paid the price of those actions!" he cried, "But you Jake are different…
Bella had the guts to come and tell you about your baby and she later saw us as wolves so leaders made an exception. So for today your orders are: To do whatever it takes to make things right before-"
He couldn't finish his sentence but everyone knew.
"Oh Thank You!" said Jacob, relieved and yet concerned about Sam. "Are you sure you don't need any-?"
"Go to her Jake, we've got this" assured Emily. With one last shrug he took off at wolf speed for the Swan residence….
Return to BELLA's POV:
Smelling the salt sea air and feeling the wind blowing my face as I walked down the boat dock in Port Angeles turned out to be a nice refreshing break from my lately everyday chaos.
Feeding the birds soda crackers from my pockets,
I had just gotten through with my Gynecologist. It also got me thinking:
Maybe I did over-react yesterday?
I'm just so tired of dealing with Jake and this supernatural bullshit. Now, I'm going to have a baby and this situation is hitting way too close to home.
I stand by with what I said to Charlie last night and he gave me some of the best advice I've ever gotten-
"Good parents put their children FIRST Bells" and "To give the baby its best chance it is better to place it with somebody who's READY to BE a parent. If you feel that you can't…I will help you find someone who is."
Should I even consider such an option?
I must admit, it does seem the most favorable.
My peace is interrupted by the sound of a motorcycle engine revving up as it sped around the corner into view before parking at the Marine Office.
"Bella!" shouted the familiar voice of the rider as he made his way down to where I stood. As the hood of my coat flying back with the wind whipping my hair in all directions.
It was Jacob, I inwardly groaned.
"What do you want Black?" I asked in the same condescending tone he'd been using on me for weeks.
He stopped where he was and winced,
It's not nice when the shoe's on the other foot now is it?
With a heavy sigh Jake resumed walking but thankfully kept his distance. "Isabella Swan, I know you're not happy with me. After the way I've acted, you have every right to be mad. I treated you like-"
"Dog shit? A toy that you lost pleasure in?"
"Bella! I have never thought of you that way! Sam ordered me to stay away from you for your safety!"
I laughed in disgust, "I've heard that one before"
His eyes widened. "Your blood sucker?"
Nodding stiffly, I then said. "Enough excuses Jacob, we can't change the past. Our reality is I'm going to have this baby and must ultimately decide: What is his best chance at life? Being co-parented by us? Me- a broken late teen with self-esteem and trust issues. You- a newly turned Werewolf whose first loyalties are to his Alpha.
Neither of us is currently ready for parenthood – I want to give him up for adoption."
End of Part One