Author's Note: Hey everyone I am going to upload as much as I can every weekend but this weekend (and a few more days) I got distracted by the anime/manga FAIRYTAIL it is just so lumping epic and Loke (pronounced like Loki as in the Norse god if that clears anything up *sweatdrops*) anyways he is so amazing he and Lucy would make an amazing couple! Every time I see a chapter or episode about them I get a fangirl attack! They are just too cute together AHHHHHHHH! (fangirl shriek) Sorry totally got off topic my bad. Sorry once again for being super late. Okay this chapter was going to be the trial, but I the trial scene is hella long so I'm just gonna cut it a bit short and upload the inbetween chapter sorry folks.

Chapter 13: Marshall's Secret

Fionna's P.O.V.

"Hey Fionna! That is a wondrous outfit your wearing today." I heard Gumball's irritable voice and sighed heavily

"Looks like I was right." I whispered to Marshall Lee and he smirked down at me

"Thanks Gumball even though you find my style distasteful." I said rolling my eyes. Apparently he decided to compliment my outfit. It was and black sweater where the sleeves went up to the elbows only with the inscription 'Death to the Color Pink' in the color pink ironically. With short shorts with thigh high striped black and grey socks along with my Mary Janes which I'm surprised still fit me.

"How could I find that distasteful? Its a lovely sweater." he said "But the inscription could use a little work." he said then turned to Marshall Lee "Lee you need to stop poisoning this girls mind and leave her in more capable hands" he said sneering

"Nah," he put an arm around my waist "I think that I'm capable of handling my own girlfriend" we then proceded to laugh as Gummy Bunns dramatic as ever fainted. We walked away leaving Gumwad to his fangirls.

"Hey Marshy," I said looking up at him

"What's up, Bunny?" he asked

"Nevermind it's not a big deal." I said quickly averting my eyes. I was happy and I wasn't about to let a stupid worry get the best of me.

He studied my face for any sign of distress before letting out a sigh.

"Fine, but if you have something on your mind just let me know okay?" He said in defeat.

"Thanks Marsh, that means a lot to me." I gave him a quick hug and continued walking.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw him shaking his head but following anyway. This whole thing was going to eat me alive, I have to talk to someone. Simone my therapist/mom duh.

"Hey Marsh I'm gonna go talk to mom see you at home." I started walking but felt two arms snake around my waist.

"Okay, be careful." he said into my ear. I blushed his breath was hot on my skin, and he gave me a kiss on the cheek and let go.

"Don't worry I will." I rolled my eyes trying to mask my blush, and seeing a smirk play onto his lips I knew I had failed again.

I walked all the way to Simone's office and when I walked in she was sitting at her computer typing something about one of her patients as usual.

"Hey mom." I said hugging her.

"Hey Fionna. What's on your mind?" she asked hugging me back and shutting off her computer

"Oh just stuff, with the trial coming up and junk." I say and I see her face turn sour

"Are you sure your okay to go? You really haven't told anyone the details of what happened are you ready to tell them to a court full of strangers?" she asks me

Gee thanks Simone that helps a bunch

"Sorry not helping am I." she bites her tounge

"No no it's okay I was just wondering the same thing." I say collapsing on the couch "What if I mess up or if they don't believe me?"

"Hon, I can't promise anything but all you have to do is believe that they will and that you won't and know that Marshall Lee and I will always be here for you." she pulls me into a warm hug and I feel loved both her and Marsh have a way of making me feel better and I will never be able to thank them enough for it.

I hope I can be strong enough to face him and everyone else in that town.

Marshall Lee's P.O.V.

Something was bothering her I could just tell. She was distant after school today, I'll ask her about it when she gets home.

"Hey Marshall Lee." I heard an annoying girl voice I already decided to ignore it but before I could I heard the click of heels on the pavement behind me.

"In case you didn't hear me the first time. Hey Marshall Lee." she said again

I sighed "Go away Ashley."

"But why?" she whined

"Because your annoying me." I spit this girl can go to hell for all I care she gave my little bunny a black eye, sure she landed in the hospital because of it but still.

Ashley stopped right in front of me and put her hands on my chest.

"Why hang with that low-life when you could have all this." she gestured to herself and I wanted to puke. Oh yeah she doesn't know Fionna and I are dating does she.

"Sorry Ashley the only low-life I see is right in front of me." I smirk "Hey aren't you supposed to be in the hospital still?"

She glares at me but keeps going "Nope they let me out and I decided to come see you first." she puts her hands back on my chest

"If you touch me again I will break your arms." I say darkly and she steps back a bit but doesn't go away.

"Come on Mar-Mar, let me in." she stamps her foot "I want you and I intend to get you."

Yep I'm gonna puke, better tell her now so she leaves me alone.

"Name's Marshall Lee bitch, and I am currently in a relationship with the most beautiful girl on the planet so you can go now." I start walking and I give her a wave without turning around.

"What's her name." she seethes and I know she's not asking she's demanding "No girl is prettier than me and I won't have it."

"Fionna Mertens." I say and walk away smirking to myself

~ Time Lapse ~

Kyle's trial is three days and Fionna is scared out of her mind. We are heading up to her old town tomorrow and she is totally flipping out, even though the band and I are going to she is still a nervous wreck.

"Hey Fi!" I called. I wanted to see if I could get a response ever since she got the reminder in the mail a couple days ago, she has been avoiding me. I am worried about her.

"Yeah." her voice is barely above a whisper but I still hear her.

"Are you okay?" it was a stupid question but I didn't know what else to say I wanted to ask her about everything but I knew that I shouldn't.

"Yeah I-i'm f-fine." I couldn't hear her that well so I decided to try and find her.

I walked up to the second floor into her room only to find it empty of human life. I checked my room, the bathroom, the closets. I had pretty much searched the whole house.

"Where are you?" I asked softly more to myself than to anyone else. Then an idea hit me. The attic.

I face palmed and ran up the ladder that served as our way into the attic, the attic where all of her past was kept. Why wouldn't she be up there when we both knew the memories were painful for her.

"Fi..." I saw her wrecked state and it broke my already shattered heart.

Fionna sat in the middle of the attic floor wrapped up in a small blanket with the name 'fionna' stitched in cursive with blue thread, she was wearing clothes I didn't even knew she owned anymore the only time I saw them was when I saw her old pictures. A sky blue top the had sleeves that went to her elbows, and a short blue pleated skirt, knee high socks with black flats. Instead of her black bunny eared head band she had on a white bunny hat, I wondered how she fit all of the hair into it. I silently chuckled to myself, she was just so damn cute even though she was a complete and utter mess. She was crying softly, her mascara was smudged from crying her book was open and you could see the tear stains. Papers were all over the place and the pictures that I saw earlier that had parts of it covered up were fully exposed, I saw a young woman not much older than Fionna maybe about four years older, laughing and looking at Fi in a motherly/sisterly fashion. In a few other pictures Fionna, this woman, and what appeared to be her boyfriend were all enjoying a picnic the man had a tanned skin tone a lot like the woman and he had gray hair, and a serious composure, deeply contrasting to the woman who seemed very carefree and she was tanned with white/blond hair with carmel highlights. She appeared to be halfheartedly scolding the man laughing along side Fionna who was pointing to him with tears in her eyes and holding her stomach with her free hand, the man had a large amount of strawberry cake on him nose and a half eaten cake to the left of him. Cake, why does that name seem familiar. Cake that was the woman, then who was the man.

I turned my attention back to my little bunny who was now sobbing uncontrollably. I walked over to her scooping her up careful not to damage anything. She clutched my shirt like it was a life-line and if she let go she would be swept away by the memories of the past. I carried her down the ladder making sure we would fall and down the other stairs till we got back to the normal couch where we spent a lot of time watching movies, playing video games, crying, and having mini wars. This is our special spot the only spot that she would reach out to me when she was vulnerable.

"M-m-marshall L-l-l-lee." she sobbed trying her best to continue but found she was unable to utter another word as I cut her off.

"Shhh. Fi it's going to be okay, okay. We are going to get through this so go ahead and let it all out, you need to or else it's going to eat up at you and take you away from me forever. We can't have that now can we." I smirked trying to calm her down. She started to sob into my chest.

"W-what if they don't believe me?" she asked struggling to get the words out but determined to do so.

"Shhh. Bunny calm down. I am sure that they will believe you. They have evidence, a witness, and they know he has a history of violence. That should be enough." I stroked her hair and tried to sooth her and help her calm down. I felt her body shaking as she tried her best to stop crying. I had comforted her more times than I can count but for some reason this time I was scared to, this is the first time she hasn't bounced back she has never been this vunerable, it's killing me.

"I-I-i'm s-s-so-so sorry." her lower lip quivered as she pulled away from me "This is all my fault if I wasn't so weak then I wouldn't be crying, and then you wouldn't have gotten hurt, and you wouldn't have to deal with me. I'm sorry." she stood up to leave "I'm going to the trial alone." she started too walk away.

I grabbed her wrist and held it tight but not tight enough to hurt her. "Fionna. If none of this happened I wouldn't have met you. If none of this happened I wouldn't have fallen in love with you. And if none of this happened I would not be alive right now." I looked into her eyes "I Love You, and even though this is hard and I know you are hurting, nothing will ever change that and I will stand by you whether you like it or not." I gave a soft tug and pulled her into my lap. And held her tight.

"I love you too Marsh." she snuggled closer to me and after a while I felt her breathing even out into a slow lull. I kissed the top of her head and closed my eyes feeling drained.

I drifted to sleep as I was thinking about my life before Fionna. Would I really have had the guts to do it?

~ Flashy Back ~

I sat in the bathroom with my blades I didn't know what the hell I was doing with them. They disgust me but I need them to ease the pain.

"Marshall Lee." I heard Simone call.

"Shit." I cursed under my breath I couldn't do this not with Simone in the house I would have to do that therapy junk with her if she caught me.

"Coming, just give me a second." I yelled down

I had been cutting for a few weeks now only when Simone wasn't in charge of me. I could cut as much as I wanted as long asI was at mom's I liked Simone too much for her to find me it would destroy her. I doubt my real mother would care.

"What do you want." I spat just because I like Simone doesn't mean I'm nice to her or anything

"Just wanted to see what you wanted for dinner. You shouldn't be rude to the person who takes care of you, you know." she chided

"Whatever, just order pizza or something. Or make pasta." I said walking back upstairs

"Okay see you later hon." she said

Out of the corner of my eye I saw her shake her head and mutter something about me being too distant.

I dashed up the stairs, as soon as she leaves in a few weeks I'm going to do it for real. Not simple cuts, I'm going to kill myself.

~ End Flashy Back ~

I woke with a start, why was I remembering that it was a stupid decision. That I never followed through with, what happened that stopped me.

Oh yeah, I looked down at the sleeping girl in my arms. It was her that had stopped me.

~ And Another Flashy Back ~

Simone had finally left and I would begin preparations for my upcoming death. I went and looked into places to do the deed, I didn't want it to be in my house cause I wouldn't be found for weeks so that's out of the question. I couldn't do it at my mom's cause she has camera's and shit everywhere. I could do it at school, then someone is bound to find the dead vampire king. School it is, but not in the janitors closet it has to be somewhere special. Bathroom? Hell no. Music Room supply closet? Yes. People are most likely to go in during lunch so that's perfect. I don't know why I'm so excited about this, it's a pretty morbid subject. Whatever.

"Marshall Lee." I look up from my bed to see my mom. Wait my mom. Why the hell is she here?

"Go away." I turn and bury my head in my pillow and turn my body away from her. I feel a sift in the bed and I know she's sitting next to me and I groan.

"Marshall Lee, that is no way to talk to your mother." she says in her demanding tone.

"Whatever birth giver. You can leave now as you can see I'm fine." I let the sarcasm sink in and I hear her sigh then leave. So predictable.

I go back to planning my demise after I hear the front door shut. Okay location: check. Method: Cuts. Remorse: None. Date: Not determined.

The day needs to be planned. Hmm. I can't do it this week or next week. Maybe in three weeks cause Simone will be back that day, and so she will be sleeping most of it. My mom wouldn't care. And I have next to no friends and I don't think they'll mind. It's settled three weeks from today. I won't cut until then so that way no one will suspect a thing.

~ Time Lapse ~

First Day Of School

Today's the day. I get up and brush my teeth and wore my usual clothes I packed my favorite blade in my bag and went on my way. As I sat down I turned on my iPod to my favorite Skillet songs staring out the window looking like the bad ass I was then something happened. I felt something next to me. What the hell. No one I mean no one sit's next to me.

"Hey dude, name's Fionna. S'up"

~ End Flashy Back ~

Fionna's P.O.V.

As I was falling asleep something Marshall said haunted me.

"If none of this had happened I wouldn't be alive right now."

Did he really mean that? Was he really thinking of ending his life before I came along? What if...

I stopped myself I did not want to go there. I did not want to think about him not being here. With me.

I drift off to sleep and the whole time I have dreams of a reality where Marshall Lee is non-existent. I hadn't met him on the bus. I sat by myself. I spent the day pretty much alone except for Bubba's pestering. I went home and to therapy to a different therapist because the one I was supposed to have was grieving over the lose of a loved one. In my dream I lived a lonely life and eventually Kyle came and killed me. Leaving very few to mourn my death. In another dream I had met Marshall Lee and fallen in love with him. But Bubba intervenes and stops us from hanging out and getting together, and then Marshall commits suicide before I can admitt my feelings and in his suicide note he says "Fionna Mertens, I wish I could have had the chance to love you." I cry for days and I know that this is all Bubba's fault. One day he comes to console me and try to get me to date him again but when he get's to my house he finds Kyle and runs leaving me to defend myself but again I end up dead with only Bubba to feel guilt for leaving me.

I wake up in a cold sweat and see Marshall Lee holding me in his arms, it's just a dream I tell myself over and over again, but I hate how I had such morbid thoughts over one sentence. I decided to go back to sleep seeing as we don't have school or anything tomorrow. I have fallen into relapse as Simone has said but I will do my best to come out of it. For Marsh.

My slumber is uneventful this time around and I wake up to Marshall Lee staring at me.

"Hey dude, s'up." I say and I see a smile from him. Then I silently laugh to myself. I had repeated the words that had begun our friendship and eventual relationship and he must relize that too. If I had known that these simple words, leaving out the part where I introduced myself, would lead to this I would have laughed at this craziness that is our lives, even with everything we've been through I wouldn't change a thing.

"The ceiling." he says with the same soft smile and I slap him lightly across the face

"You know what I meant you poo-brain"

"You sure I'm the one with poo-brain your the one staring at me like a creeper." he said poking my cheek

"It takes one to know one." I say holding his palm to my face

I missed this, just being able to be me around my Marshall Lee. I hated avoiding him but I had to I didn't want to pull him into anymore of my problems, but now that I know how he feels about this situation I don't have a choice in the matter.

"Hey Marsh..." I say hesitantly

"Yeah"

"What did you mean when you said 'I wouldn't be alive right now'?" I didn't want to bring this up but I had to.

He sighed deeply "I was going to commit suicide the day I met you."

I went numb. He was going to commit suicide that day. My body shut down in that moment I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest and then places back inside with little care.

"What?" my voice came out shaky and my mouth went dry

"I was going to kill myself after school that day, but when you sat down next to me I knew I had to find out more about you so I put it off and to this day I haven't touched a blade or thought about cutting. With the exception of explaining this and remembering what would have happened." he explained softly seeing my shocked expression

"I'm so happy I chose you over the gum wad!" I cried jumping up and wrapping my arms around his neck I felt tears rolls down my cheeks.

"Me too, me too."

We sat there just holding each other until I fell asleep again, honestly at this rate I'll be out of tears before I hit 18.

"I love you Bunny." was the last thing I heard before letting the arms of sleep take me away again.

Bunny, a cute nickname that I hated and adored at the same time. Marshy, a nickname as well but never has the oppurtunity to surface.