We finally sat in the plane. It was a mess at the airport. There was storm so the flight is running out of time. I finally haven't that crappy headache in a plane, one of the two positive things about the disappearance of the bond. Because my body had the strength to heal itself from the bullets Tasha shoot I'm not shadow kissed anymore.
I fell asleep, leaning on Dimitri's shoulder. I felt he leant to me too and he fell asleep too. After a few hours did we land at Moscow airport and did we take the flight to St Petersburg.
After a few hours did we arrive in Baia. I saw the Belikova's were waiting for us. 'Dimka!' Viktoria, Dimitri's youngest sister yelled. We walked to the house and everyone hugged us. 'I can't believe you aren't a Strigoi anymore Dimka' Sonya said. 'Rose?' Viktoria asked. 'I'm sorry for my reaction before you left. You were right about Rolan. I'm sorry for what I said to you now I know you only wanted to protect me.' She said. 'It's okay Viktoria. I understand your reaction, I'm sorry too. I had to act different.' I said and I hugged her.
We all went into the house. 'Which room will we have?' I asked Olena. 'You can take the same room as before Rose, and Dimitri, you can take your own room of course.' she said. 'Why don't we get the same room?' Dimitri asked. 'It's not that we don't sleep together back home'. 'Okay, you can sleep in Dimitri's room too Rose, but you have to go to the guest room too. I'm sure you left some clothes when you left.' She said. Dimitri and I left our stuff in his room and went back downstairs. 'You must be hungry' Olena said. 'I made some rye bread, I know how much you love it Dimka' she said. We went to the dining room and the bread was delicious. 'It was delicious Olena' I said. She smiled. 'Why didn't you say goodbye when you left Rose?' Paul asked. 'I'm sorry, I didn't plan to leave before I left. I had to' I said. 'What did you do after you left?' he continued. I glanced to Dimitri, knowing he wouldn't like the subject. 'Uhm, I went with Denis and his friends after the Strigoi. I had to leave because 'Zmey' told me to leave and I didn't want to go back to the academy. I told you that I was here because I needed to tell you… you know… But I actually was here because I wanted to hunt Dimitri and I needed to kill him. I failed and went back to the academy to graduate. After graduation, I returned Dimitri with help from my friends and the rest of the story do you all know I think.' I changed the subject. I told Dimitri how it was here a few months ago. I didn't told him much about the funeral, but I told him about the warmth of the house, the love I felt when I was here. I told him how everyone seemed to know we were together, but everybody accepted it. I told him how I touched the walls because I knew he had done it before. I told him what I thought when I saw the bookcase and how I understood his partial to his Western romans. I told him how much I missed him while I was here, especially while I was there, because I missed him every second he wasn't there. His family told him stories about everyone he knows, about everything what happened here the last few months. It was a perfect evening with his family.
I saw in Dimitri's eyes how hard it was to be back, even when he want to hide it. I know he just wants to enjoy being with his family, but I can see he has also memories about what happened when he was a Strigoi. He missed Baia so much and is glad to be back, but he has also those feelings of guilt again. I took his hand and told the Belikova's that we need a little moment together. I took Dimitri outside. 'Comrade…' I started. I was worried, but didn't know how to start. 'I'm fine Rose' he said, but he had to know that I knew better. 'Dimitri, I can see it…' I said. 'What would you think?' he snapped. 'Being back feels so good. I missed my family so much so I'm supposed to be happy. I am happy, I think, but, Siberia is also the place of my nightmares. It's the place where I have hurt you so much. You must know that…' he continued. I hugged him. I knew. 'I know that you still feel guilty about that and I'll keep saying that I forgive you. I always forgave you and I will always forgive you. I know it's hard for you and I know you'll enjoy this trip. I know you also enjoy it now' I said. It was hard for me to see him this broken. 'Comrade, please try to forget it for a moment. I'll be here when you need me, you know. I'll always try to cheer you up… ' I was looking for the right words. '… And if this trip is too heavy for you, for now, we can go back home. We can return another time. The others will understand. Your family would understand' I continued. 'I don't want to go back' he said. 'And I don't like to see you like this and I will do everything I can do to help you.' I whispered in his ear. 'I love you comrade; I said. 'I love you too Roza and I can't believe you're here with me. Thank you for being there when I need you. I know I don't say that often, but I'm so thankful for that' he whispered. 'Hey, you were always there when I needed you at the academy. I promised I'll be there for you too. I'll never break with you, whatever you might think' I said and I kissed him. 'We should go back. I'm okay again, thank you… Thanks that you noticed and talked to me' he said. 'No problem' I said, still holding his hand. We walked back to the house, where Olena was making the dinner. I asked if I could help her and Dimitri went upstairs. I helped with the dinner and talked with Olena and Viktoria, who also was helping. Dimitri walked in after a few minutes. I saw he wore his mask again, but maybe that's all good.
After dinner we went to bed soon I was tired and had a jetlag, and, however I tried to hide it for Dimitri, it's also hard for me to be here. I have the memories too.
I fell in sleep soon. I dreamt. I was back in Novosibirsk. Dimitri, Strigoi-Dimitri, took me away. It was the same as what happened then, but I choose to become also a Strigoi. I was weak and I knew I wouldn't go away. I was a Strigoi and was near the academy, waiting for Lissa to go away. I didn't care about friendship anymore. I only knew about what the others will say if I kill the last Dragomir. When Lissa went out of the academy, I woke up.
It was hard not to scream. One look near to me and I knew I had to walk away for a moment. I needed to clear my mind, but I didn't want Dimitri to know. I called Lissa. I wanted to know if everything was okay over there and I wanted to know what she would think about the nightmare.
'Hey Lissa, how's life back there?' I asked. 'Fine. It's quiet without you and Dimitri. Is everything okay there? You are with Dimitri's family, aren't you?' she asked. 'Yes, we are. It's good to be back. It felt wrong to be there without him and I missed them. They are practically my own family. But being back brings memories with it. I have them, but Dimitri has them too. I'm scared to tell him. I'm afraid he'll feel too guilty and will leave me.' I said. 'Do you think it was too soon to go back?' she asked. 'For me? No, but I can see it's hard for Dimitri. He's happy to be back, to be with his family. He missed them so much, and I can see that, but I also see that he feels so guilty again, about what happened when he was a Strigoi. He's hurt again and we both have the nightmares again. About what happened, or what could have happen, if I had acted different.' I said. 'Rose, he loves you. You both have gone through so much, I'm sure he won't blame you for having memories' she said. 'That's the point. I don't think he'll blame me. I'm afraid he'll blame himself, but he isn't the one to blame. He shouldn't blame himself' I said. 'I still think you should tell him. He deserves it to know.' Lissa said. 'Hmm, maybe you're right. Next time I'll tell him' I said.
Author's note: Thank you all for the views! I'll continu writing, I'll try to update each week. I have a little writers block, but thankfully I have written a few more chapters.
What do you think about the story? Do you think Rose will tell Dimitri if she has more nightmares? Do you think she even will have more nightmares?