Author's note: Here is chapter 7, as promised. I hope you'll like it :) Thanks for every read, comment, follow and favorite you give me, I really appreciate it :)

I still felt guilty towards Dimitri. It feels like I abandon him, because I asked for a few days alone. I was glad it was time for him to leave the next day. I really hoped these few days would help me to cope with the memories. I really hoped he wouldn't ever know.

Dimitri sat in the plane and I had a day alone. I really needed to think about everything what happened, but I couldn't arrange my thoughts. I wrote down everything I thought, every single thing. I wrote about Novosibirsk, about Russia, about Dimitri, our relationship, the nightmares, everything. I even thought about how life would be without Dimitri –a disaster. I felt empty after all that writing. I knew the memories could cause a break up, but I didn't want to let him go. I couldn't.

I was angry. Why couldn't I just have a simple life for once. Is everything okay with Lissa, do I have problems with Dimitri… Again. When everything is okay with us, there is always trouble with Strigoi or with Lissa. I couldn't live without Dimitri, knowing I still would see him almost every day and knowing we would have to work together. I hoped these days without him would reload me. While I was thinking I got a message.

Dimitri: I'm back at the academy. Sleep in one of the guest rooms now. I almost walked to my old room ;)

Me: Haha, I could do the same ;) I miss you…

Dimitri: Miss you too.

Me: Do you already know what you can teach the Moroi kids? Have you seen Jill already?

Dimitri: No, I'll let the others teach, I'll just show some moves that could help them. I already saw Jill, she didn't change a single thing ;)

Me: How are the others?

Dimitri: Fine, Christian is always with the Moroi. Eddie and Mia spend a lot together.

Me: Haha, good ;) I bet that was why Lissa gave him the choice

Dimitri: I need to go… One day here and they already gave me a shift…. Sleep well Rose. Xxx
Me: You too, love U 3

Dimitri: Love u 2 3

I couldn't miss Dimitri. I needed to keep the nightmares a secret. I only could hope they would stop in a while.

I decided to go to the shopping mall in Court. I wanted to buy myself some new clothes. I also wanted to learn how to make the Russian bread Olena always made. I searched for some instructions and tried to make one. It was hard to make. Thankfully I had a few days to practice. The first one was a failure. I didn't even dare to try it. The next one was better, but still not good enough. I baked the rest of the day. Each bread was better than the one before, but it still was a disaster. Maybe Lissa could help me.

Me: Lissa, when are you done with work?

Lissa: Just an hour, why?

Me: Can you come to my house?

Lissa: Of course I can

Me: O btw, I hope you can help me with something :P

Lissa: with what?

Me: I want to make some rye bread, but my first few tries are a mess

Liss: Of course I can try to help you ;) See you

The last bread was ready, but it didn't look good. Maybe the Belikova's could help me with the bread, they definitely could bake the best bread ever. I didn't have Olena's number, but Viktoria gave me hers.

Me: Hey Viktoria, how are you and the others?

After 5 minutes I had an answer.

Viktoria: Everyone's fine, I'm back at St. Basils… How are you and Dimka?

Me: Fine, I think. Dimitri is back at the academy for a few days and I will go to Europe in a few days.

Me: How are you and Nikolai?

Viktoria: He's sweet. I really love him :)

Me: good to hear :)

Me: I've a little question, maybe you can help me?

Viktoria: What's up?

Me: I'm trying to make rye bread for Dimitri, but I failed several times.

Viktoria: What did you do?

I sent the recipe and a picture of the breads.

Me: I followed the instructions and this is what I made :$

Viktoria: The recipe is good. I don't know what you did wrong if you followed all the instructions…

Me: hmm, well, Lissa comes and she'll help me. Maybe she can do it better, I can't even bake an egg :P

Viktoria: Haha, good luck

Me: Thnx

After a few minutes Lissa came in. She helped me with the bread, it was better, but not as good as Olena made. I gave up my tries, maybe Dimitri could learn me.

The nest days went by so slow. Most time I had to work, because I needed to guard Lissa. Europe was nice, but I missed Dimitri. Today was the last day of the trip; Lissa told us that we would go back this evening.

Me: Comrade, I'm heading to the airport. I'll be home tonight :)

Dimitri: I thought your flight was tomorrow?

Me: Lissa was done early

Dimitri: Better, I've missed you, I still miss you

Me: Me 2…

The plane landed after a few hours. I saw Dimitri and Christian, who were walking towards us.

'Comrade!' I yelled and I ran towards him. Our lips met. I missed him so much and I didn't had any nightmares the last few days.

'I love you so much Roza, The last few days were like hell' he whispered.

'I love you too. How was everything at the academy?'

'Fine, the Moroi who learn to fight have good lessons. The novices still are better, but they fight their whole life. Alberta asked how you was.'

'How was she?'

'Fine, she told me again not to ever hurt you. She knew about us like always and she risked her career for us' he smiled.

'She's amazing' I said.