Chapter 3
Sirius Black.
She ignored me for the rest of Tuesday.
Didn't even look at me on Wednesday.
But at breakfast on Thursday I see her glancing at me again and again. Prongs is watching me too. I really want to turn and tell them both to stop looking at me. But I don't. I don't need to snap at neither of them right now. They're the only ones that will always come back, even though McKinnon is trying not too, it's just a matter of time. I know it, she knows it… Hell, almost everyone in Hogwarts knows it.
In Potions I work with Prongs and watch McKinnon with one eye, she's working with Evans. I wonder if it's time to tell her that to meet me tonight.
"What's up with you?" Prongs asks me when he notices how off I am.
"Tired." I tell him honestly.
"You been tired for two days," Prongs says "Who is tiring you out Padfoot?" he smirks.
"More like who is not tiring me out." I scowl.
"No action from McKinnon, eh?" Prongs ask me and I wonder why he's "so okay with it" now.
"Do you really want to know?"
He thinks about it for a moment, "I don't know. I don't like how it breaks her Sirius," Oh, great he's calling me Sirius now.
"But I don't like you grumpy as hell either" he continues.
"Well James" I spit out "it's none off your business if McKinnon and I like to shag once or twice."
"If it was only once or twice Pad," he tells me "you're using her."
"She comes willingly." I try.
"Don't they all?" James asks.
"Shut up," I tell him and stand up as Slughorn tells us class is over.
– Hunting for Happiness –
Prongs keeps whining about McKinnon all the way down to the Great Hall and Moony and Wormtail keep agreeing with him, but I only listen with one ear, half ear to be honest. I've heard the speech and I know if I just don't answer they stop.
All eyes are on us – as usually, when we walk into the Great Hall, okay maybe not all eyes but plenty of lustful girls stare at me – and maybe James, I don't notice. It is goo-hood to be popular, but it can be hell as well, sometimes – and I mean only sometimes – it's annoying how much attention from desperate little schoolgirls I get. Sigh. And most of them seem to want more than just to shag, and that is definitely not what I want.
I roam over the room, ignoring Kelly Meester as she walks past me grabbing my ass on her way as she giggles "Sorry, my hand slipped."
She doesn't seem amused when I just out blank ignore her and keep on walking, but she quickly disappears.
"What was Meester apologizing for?" Prongs asks and I notice he seems to have stopped rambling about my sex life.
"Groping me," I answer blankly and James snickers.
"Why did ya let her walk away? Usually you would make her do something to "make it up to you"" he smirks at me and I can't stop myself from smirking back as I take my seat at the almost empty Gryffindor table.
"Maybe later,"
"Maybe later what?" the curious voice of Macdonald asks us as all girls except Vance takes their seats versus us.
"Maybe later you'll meet me in a closet for a quick snog?" I offer her – to be honest, it was the first answer that came to my mind – it's not my fault my mind works like this.
Macdonald rolls her eyes, used to my 'crude' comments, or whatever.
"Disgusting," Evans – surprisingly barks out, I had suspected that from Prewett or even McKinnon, but the latter one seems to be back to 'ignoring me'.
"What? Are you sorry I didn't ask you?–" Okay, the question was so not worth it, I yelp in pain as James punches me in the shoulder, rather roughly – common I was only joking! And on top of that Evans throws a potato at my head.
"Disgusting," she comments again
"Sorry," I laugh and rub my head,"I forgot you're saving your self for James over here,"
"Both of you can dream on, I wouldn't touch neither one of you," she says.
"Pity," I comment sarcastically as James continues the subject
"Oh, common LilyPads, you know you not-so-secretly want me and imagine me touch–"
"I do not!" Lily cut him off, and to my joy, James also gets a potato to his head. "And don't call me LilyPads."
"You told me not to call you LilyPadsure I can call you LilyPads" James argues.
"You don't get to call me anything, Potter." Lily grits out, and that is the point were I get really bored with their always-the-same-bicker.
"Ohm, Sirius?" A very, very girly voice sounds form behind me and I turn around, so do Remus, Peter and James who seems to have stopped rowing with Lily, but before I turn fully, I get a glimpse of the girls' faces, they all have either disgust or annoyance spread over their faces. And when I turn around fully, I understand why.
Rebecca Hallyberry (a.k.a. the third most hated girl by the Gryffindor girls, and called by them 'The whiny Ravenclaw bitch') stands behind me batting her long eyelashes at me. I'm not annoyed seeing her, it has been my goal since... the beginning of this year to get her into bed with me, seriously, she got so hot over the summer – McKinnon and Macdonald always tell me I'm being ridiculous and she probably had a boob job, but I don't listen to them and don't really mind.
"Yes?" I ask her, when I finally get my head out of my thoughts, "How are you Rebecca?" I flash her my famous smirk.
"Just fine," She says back "What about you?"
"Just the same…" I drawl "Was there something you wanted to discuss with me?"
"Well, there is this Hogsmeade trip –" Haha, no. I'm not taking her to the Hogsmeade trip, I don't feel like waiting for days and then have to go on a date with her – she is known to whine – just to get her into bed, but still I play along.
"Oh? I guess it is,"
"Anyways, I was just thinking… there is also this transfiguration test coming up you know…" That's more interesting, the word "transfiguration" is the closest we have to "chemistry," here, if you catch my drift.
"I know," I tell her with my smirk still printed on my face.
"I was just thinking maybe you wanted to meet up later… you know at the library or anywhere you want … and we could study together." I immediately perk up when I hear her place emphasis on the word 'study'.
"When?"
"… Today… I mean if you aren't busy or something –"
"Library at 5?"
"Yeah, Library at five," she smiles before I turn away for her (Guessing she'll just walk away, which she does).
Macdonald (who used to be a close friend to mine, because she was the best friend of McKinnon, but now seems to don't give a fuck – like everyone else) stares at me with a disgusted look.
"Rebecca Hallyberry? Seriously?" She growls out. "She is the most awfully bitchy whiny person ever! You don't want to get into anything with her."
"But that's where you are wrong, Macdonald" I tell her, taking a bite of my lunch and then pointing my fork at her. "I do want to get into her pants."
All four girls (including Marlene) groan out something like disgusting or pig and Lily shakes her head muttering "I knew you weren't going to really study with her…"
James and I just laugh and even Remus snickers, while Peter just keeps on eating – I'm not even sure if he heard half of the conversation, he was probably still stunned over seeing Rebecca Hallyberry up close.
– Hunting for Happiness –
So in the end I found out that Rebecca Hallyberry was indeed an annoying whiny (but slutty) Ravenclaw bitch.
"Back?" Prongs asks as I open the door to our dorm.
"Obviously,"
"Had fun studying?" Moony asks and looks up from his book.
"Rebecca is an annoying bitch," I answer simply and Prongs laughs
"Why do you say that?" Moony asks
" – but she is so hot!" Prongs adds
"She's hot, but still a bitch."
"So you didn't sleep with her?" Prongs asks and seems a bit disappointed.
"I never said I didn't" I smirk back and he laughs as he holds his hand in the air so I can slam mine against his.
Moony just rolls his eyes "Sirius, why do you make so much effort to get many different girls, when you already have the only girl you want?"
"I don't have anyone, and don't want just one." I answer "and if you're thinking off McKinnon, she is making it clear she doesn't want this anymore, so why wouldn't I find me some other girl?"
"So you're actually saying, you're moving from Marlene to Rebecca?"
"Not a chance, I'm never ever talking to that whiny girl again," I give away a dramatic sigh and they both laugh. "and besides, I'm not one hundred percent sure McKinnon has left me for good," I laugh as I cock my eyebrow up, "But let's go down stairs, nothing to do here."
– Hunting for Happiness –
It was obvious that no one really wanted to be here, but we're all dreading to go to sleep. We sit all nine of us in the Gryffindor Common Room; Prongs, Mooney, Wormtail, Evans, McKinnon, Macdonald, Vance, Prewett and I. No one really talks, Prongs and Mooney are discussing something and McKinnon is helping Macdonald paint her nails. I sigh. I really don't get girls and how they feel like wasting their time painting their nails, especially toenails – mean what is the use? While shagging them I only hope the guy wont be staring at their toes – or I at least do not stare at Marlene's toes, even how bright painted they are.
"So when is next the next Quidditch practice?" Prongs ask me and look at him and shrug my shoulders.
"I don't remember what Gideon said," I answer "ask him."
It's fairly obvious James was trying to get rid of the awkwardness that filled the room. It was like they thought McKinnon and I couldn't be in a room together. Geez.
"Saturday," McKinnon suddenly says
James nods "Right, I remember now, thanks" he says and leans back on the couch and sighs "Has anyone of you already done their Herbology essay?"
Once again McKinnon has the answer "Alice let me copy her so I have, if you want it." She ignores the dirty glare's Prewett sends her and James laughs.
"Sure thanks, but you know I'm gonna let Padfoot borrow it when I'm done?"
"Doesn't matter," she answers and looks at me "It's not like he isn't already using me anyway," she says it just above a whisper and I'm sure James doesn't hear it, but I do and wince, and by the look and Evans and Macdonald they do too.
"Time for bed?" Evans stands up and Macdonald nods.
"Not me," Marlene says and sits up "I'm gonna stay here and finish my potions review. Not unless Alice-"
"Do your own homework, Lene." Prewett tells her and McKinnon rolls her eyes.
"You can help me though?" she asks and stares at Prewett as she hands her Herbology essay over to James, who smirks thankfully at her before, putting it between me and himself so I can also write it down.
"Just remember to change it and make it sound more… you-ish." McKinnon reminds James, or us. I'm not sure.
Another hour goes by and then James is done, he's a fast writer. He stands up, but quickly sits back down when he realizes if he leaves, because Alice left ten minutes earlier for prefect duties, there would only be McKinnon and I and left in the Common room, and they never let us be alone in a room. Afraid we'll kill each other or shag on the table, I'm not sure which.
"Done yet?" McKinnon asks me and I shake my head without looking at her, I hear her frustrated sigh from the other end of the table and it annoys me.
I sigh as I scribble the words down so harshly that my quill brakes. "Great" I blame McKinnon.
James looks at me and I growl at him "Will you go and get me a new quill?"
Honestly, I just want him to leave so I can jump on her for Godric's sake, but James shakes his head and hands me the quill he was using. "Here, use mine."
"What if I break it too?" I ask him but take it.
"I'll buy a new one." He answers and I roll my eyes.
"Will you ever be done?" McKinnon pats on the table tiredly "I have to have it tomorrow you know." She says at the same time as Evans walks down from the Girls Dormitory and walks towards us, probably checking if someone was thick enough to leave McKinnon and me alone.
"I'm finishing" I bite out at Marlene who scoffs;
"I wonder why it takes you so long, usually you're done quickly." She bites out.
Ouch, McKinnon, ouch. That girl must really be annoyed and hurt with me of she has to go and insult my stamina.
I only smirk at her "That's not what you say every night."
McKinnon opens her mouth to retort back but Evans interrupts us. "Are you guys almost done with your homework? I think we should all get some rest…"
McKinnon stands up and looks at me "Just give me my essay tomorrow-"
But I cut her off by saying "Four words left."
She sighs and drops back on the couch. I take Prongs quill back for the table but instead of writing my paper, which I already finished, I rip a little bit from my parchment and scribble few words down on it.
Room of Requirement, 30 minutes.
And then I put it into the middle off her homework and hand it too her, she rips it from my hands and then follows Evans up to the girl dormitory.
– Hunting for Happiness –
Thirty minutes later on the dot, she's here. She opens the door to the Room of Requirements and slips in and closes the door again.
"Hi," she says awkwardly as she looks at me sitting on the bed.
"Hello," I respond to her and she walks towards me.
"I missed you," she admits.
I look away, not knowing how to respond, "Prewett's essay better be good, I don't feel like failing Herbology…"
I watch as her eyes narrow for a second before she mutters something like 'arse'.
"I know," I respond and suddenly I grab her and push her on the bed and kiss her roughly.
Because that's what we do.
Between kisses I hear her whimper 'I'm Sorry'.
I'm not sure if she's apologizing for what she said to me earlier or for those days we spent apart. I'd guess the latter one; we both know the first one was just a stupid lie to try to show me that she was fine without me. Which she clearly is not.
I kiss her again and listen to her whimper, knowing it really should be me apologizing for what I do to her.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sor-
– Hunting for Happiness –
I don't really feel like standing up, getting dressed and walking back to the Gryffindor tower. It also makes me feels like an asshole to always leave McKinnon behind when we're done. But I guess that is what I am. An asshole.
McKinnon – I really should call her Marlene – shudders beside me and I do something really un-McKinnnon-and-I-ish, I put my arm around her and pull her closer to me, I owe her that much to make a her feel comfortable, I know that. I owe her more than I could ever possible give to her. But hey, she the one who always comes back.
A/N: Okay. So this was supposed to be a short chapter but I added like two scenes to it, anyways, hope you like it.
And yes, I realize I haven't got many reviews, but there were plenty of people that put the story on story alert so I decided to update.
I hope you liked Sirius's pov, but I've got to admit it's really hard to write! And yes, I do realize this story seems to just be about Marlene/Sirius but I promise soon enough there will be some Lily and James! And if you review asking for them or Frank/Alice (or whatever couple you like) I will be sure to add a scene for the couple you ask for into next chapter!