A/N: So you all probably got a mail saying this chapter was already up.. woops, my bad. I was fixing a chapter and somehow ended up posting like chapter 6 as chapter 15 and it was all a mess and BLAH.. so yeah, forgive me? Anyways, this mess is the main reason why I'm updating so soon and the LOVELY reviews I have gotten, siriusly they are amazing! You guys are amazing!
Chapter 15
Flashbacks.
"Mary, Mary!" came the familiar soft tone that belonged to her mother through the crowd. "Mary! Mary Macdonald, where are you?"
"Mother I'm right here." The eleven year old rolled her eyes and tucked a stray of brown hair behind her ear. "I was just asking for some help with my trunk."
"Well, you almost game me a heart attack, you cannot leave without saying goodbye to your parents."
Mary rolled her eyes again. "I know mum, I'm sorry." she said before giving her mother a hug and then also her rather quiet father. "I'll write you, I promise." She wowed before grabbing her bag. "Love you!"
She almost missed her mothers sob as she pushed her way through the crowd, she wasn't tall so she had no idea where she was going, it wasn't until she bumped into a boy and fell backwards that she started to get nervous.
"I'm sorry!" The boy said as he helped her up again.
Her heart was pounding in her chest as she found tears trying to force them self out. "N-No…" she stuttered. "I'm sorry, I'm so bloody short, I didn't see –"
"It's okay." The boy said, "Are you looking for the train? You can't see anything with all the people here."
"I am." Mary said with a smile "Its ridiculous, having to look for a TRAIN."
The boy laughed. "Common, we'll find it together." He smiled. "What is your name?"
"Mary. Mary Macdonald," she said and blushed. "Don't laugh, it's a weird last name I know."
He shook his head. "No it's nice. My name is weird, I'm Reg." he said as he took her hand and pulled her in a direction where he had seen the train. "Or actually Reginald Cattermole. But you Mary, can call me Reg."
- Hunting For Happiness -
"Those boys are awful." The petite redhead stressed as she followed her dark haired best friend up the train's hallway.
"Hmppft." Was the only sound she got from him.
She grasped for his hand and forced him to stop. "I'm sorry Sev." She looked down. "I shouldn't have let them join us, I just didn't know they were this foul creatures-"
"Lil, it's okay, you couldn't have known." Severus said quickly "Just now we have no where to sit."
As the last word left his lip a compartment door next to them was opened and a blonde head stuck out of it. "I'm sorry, I couldn't help but over hear, because honestly you people talk LOUD!" the girl exclaimed in such a loud voice Lily could never imagine her self talking that loudly. "Need a place to sit?" she asked, gesturing her hand into the almost empty compartment, in both corners sat two girls apart from the cheery blonde. "We have ze room." She laughed and flung the door fully open.
Lily looked hesitantly at Severus who shrugged before they both stepped into the compartment.
"Great." The blonde smiled as they all took their seats "I'm Marlene, by the way. Marlene McKinnon and that is Emmeline Vance –" she pointed at the red-brown-ish haired girl that looked rather shy "and that's Alice Prewett." She then pointed at a light browned hair girl that held a book in her hand and smiled at them both. "And you two are?"
"I'm Lily Evans." Lily said with a smile.
"Severus Snape." Said Severus silently.
"Great!" the girl beamed again. "So, we're all first years right? And how come you were so late finding a compartment? Have you guys just been wandering around for the past hour?"
"We had a compartment," Lily said rather darkly "But some stupid mean boys threw us out."
Marlene raised her eyebrow "Why and who?"
"I have no idea why. Their names were James Potter and Sirius Black."
"Oh, I have heard of them." Marlene nodded "Or I have heard of their families, the Potter are supposed to be great wizards but the Blacks are known for being a bit…dark."
"They both just seem outright mean to us." Lily narrowed her eyes and sighed. "Good or bad families, I don't like them."
- Hunting For Happiness -
"You are the kid that was mean to Lily right?" Marlene put her hand on hips and stared down the shaggy haired boy with the grey eyes.
"Lily? The redhead?"
"Yes, the redhead the one that was sorted in Gryffindor just like us-"
"The one that's friends with the creepy Slytherin right?"
Marlene pursued her lips but nodded, she understand why the boy didn't like Severus Snape but still didn't find it fair to like him.
"Lily!" she twirled around as she noticed the red head they had just been discussing walk past them, but Lily didn't stop she was busy talking to Snape. "Lily!" Said Marlene again but again there was no answer.
"See? She and him are best friends, she doesn't even hear you, she's too busy with him. Don't waste your time on her, make some friends that are friends with good people not people that only care about dark things." The boy rolled his eyes and so did Marlene.
"Your name… it's Sirirus right?" she said "Like the star?"
"Yes." He said and looked at her "I'm Sirius Black, and you are?"
"Marlene, Marlene McKinnon."
"Remus! James! Sirius! Peter!" Alice cried out as she found her friends on the platform.
"Hey Prewett." All the boys greeted back.
"Where is Lene?" Asked Alice smiling "didn't she stay at yours for like almost the whole summer James?"
"She's finding her sister." Said James and shrugged, Sirius eyed him suspiciously.
"Why did Mars stay at yours?"
"Still with the nickname?" laughed Alice "you know she hates it."
Sirius rolled his eyes as he waited for an answer.
"Her mum and my mum are friends." James explained.
"Oh." Sirius said and nodded his head. "I understand."
Alice laughed "Alright guys, I must go find Mars then –"
"I have told you guys not to call me that!" a familiar cheery voice sounded behind them and they all turned around.
"Marlene!" five different voices shouted as they all lounged forward to give the blonde a hug.
"Heya guys!" she smiled.
"You are Mars." Said Sirius firmly after a short silence.
"I am not mars, I aint a planet dear." The twelve year old blonde stuck her tongue out.
"Mars is a pretty nickname" said Alice.
Marlene rolled her eyes, but deep inside, she loved the nickname. Her eyes met with Sirius' for a second and her smiled brightened.
- Hunting For Happiness -
Remus entered the Library with a smile, he found the book he was looking for quickly and sat down at the nearest table.
Suddenly he jumped up in pain as a book connected with his head and then fell on the floor, rubbing the sore part of his head, he bent down to grab the book.
"Oh Godric!" a voice sounded behind him and he looked up, noticing a girl with reddish brown hair. "The book – its enchanted or something it just totally flew from the –"
"Its okay." Remus said quickly and looked at the girl better and realized he didn't really know her "Are you a first year?" he asked.
"Yes," she said with a small blush. "I'm Blaire, Blaire Vandever."
"I'm Remus Lupin." Remus said and gave the girl another smile before handing her the book.
"Are you okay?" she asked. "I sure know how to make a "good" first impression on people," she laughed.
Remus laughed again "No worries, you've done just okay." He gave her a small wink, which was rather un-Remus-like.
"You sure? You don't want to hit me with a book? Because, I'd totally understand."
"I don't hate you." He laughed. "The book though, I hate it. Its horrible." He pointed at the books in her hands.
"It is! Isn't it? I told my friend it sucked but she didn't believe me so I was going to borrow it and MAKE her read it." She giggled. "Thanks for agreeing with me."
"No problem, warn your friend from me, it really is awful." He smiled.
Blaire smiled back "I will..."
Remus watched as the girl turned away, never before had he seen such beautiful hair, there was something about it, not just hair, about the girl. He had no idea just what it was, yet.
"And then he was all –" Mary stopped in mid sentence as the door to the Third year girls room was opened and in stepped Lily Evans.
Alice, Emmeline, Mary and Marlene all looked up at the girl. She had been their roommate for a while, for three years, but still it felt like they hardly knew her.
"Hey…" Lily said awkwardly "Am I… interrupting something?"
"We were just talking." Said Alice.
"Why.." Marlene hesitated. "Why don't you join us?"
Lily's eyes grew big. "Really?"
"Well, you hardly ever do, its okay if you don't want to be friends with us just –" continued Marlene but Lily cut her off.
"Oh, but I do! I do wanna be friends, I'm sorry." She said silently
"Are you and Snape going out?" Mary said and Marlene hissed out
"Mary!"
"What? I needed to ask." Said Mary and made a face at Marlene.
"Uh, no." Lily said.
"Then why do you just hang out with him?" Mary threw a piece of gum into her mouth.
"I don't.. I don't have many other friends," Lily said silently.
"Well, you don't talk to anyone except him so –"
"Mary hush," said Emmline and rolled her eyes.
"Sit down Lily, its time for you to make friends." Said Alice with a wink and the red head sat down. They were into a long, long night that was going to forever change their lives. But of course, in a good way.
The fourteen-year-old James Potter walked lazily around the train, his three best friends trailing behind him.
"Where are we gonna sit?" asked Sirius a bit annoyed.
"I have no idea, lets find the girls shall we?"
Sirius scowled "Why? Only person I like there is McKinnon and sometimes even she is annoying, Prewett and Vance are just to damn uptight and annoying most of the time."
"Someone is in a really good mood." Said Remus sarcastically and Peter looked around confused.
"I want to say goodbye to Evans, and ask Marley if she's coming for summer, you do want her to come don't you?" he asked Remus, Sirius and Peter the all nodded. They all liked Marlene and had she become a big part of their group. She and James had especially gotten along well and did they already feel like brother and sister.
"Good." Said James and smiled as he quickly opened the door to one of the compartments and they all entered.
"Hello boys," greeted Alice without even looking up from her book.
"Jamie! Rem! Pete! Star!" greeted Marlene with an extra grin at Sirius' nickname,
He scowled. "Well hey Planet."
Marlene scowled back but laughed.
"Hey Marley," said Potter before dropping in the seat next to Lily. "So Evans," he drawled out and the red head looked up annoyed and at him.
"What do ya want?" she asked.
"Well, now we are going home, but I find it only fitting to ask you out –"
"No!" said Lily quickly "Once again, it's a no!"
"Oh common Evans," smirked James "I can come to your town and pick you up, its no –"
"NO."
James sighed and stood up "One day you are going to say yes to me."
"And on that same day pigs can fly." Lily rolled her eyes.
"Actually," said Emmeline from the corner "Pigs technically can fly, you know with a simple spell-"
"EM!" Lily called out and Emmeline shut her mouth, James smirked happily and smiled at Emmeline.
"There you have it Evans, the day will come."
- Hunting For Happiness -
The five McKinnon siblings all sat in the big red sofa watching the TV while the waited for their parents to arrive home, their oldest brother Max wasn't home.
"How long until mum and daddy will be home?" the youngest girl Marionette whined from where she sat in her oldest brothers, Matthew's lap.
"Soon." Marlene said and continued to paint her one year younger sister's toenails purple.
"Maybe we should've made them blue," said Melanie and wiggled her toes.
"Be still!" Marlene laughed "You're gonna make the polish go all over. You look fine."
They all stopped talking as they heard a car stop in the driveway.
"Mommy!" Mike the youngest said and rose up.
"Yes, mommy is home." Said Marlene with a laugh and stood up and and gathered Mike in her arms.
"We shall go down and see them," Matt nodded and stood up with Marionette in his arms.
Melanie rolled her eyes but followed her siblings down the stairs. They stopped as they heard a weird noise coming form the kitchen.
"Sit down." Ordered Matt.
"Why?" asked Marlene but did as she was told.
"I'm listening," he said with a mischievous glint in his eyes.
"We're spying on them now?" giggled Melanie.
Both her older siblings hushed at her as they continued to listen.
There was another big bang, like something had been thrown to the floor and broken.
"FINE!" the familiar voice of their mother sounded from the kitchen "TAKE THIS. TAKE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE AND JUST –"
"JUST WHAT?" their father was the one yelling now.
"LEAVE." Their mother's voice hiccupped. "LIKE YOU'VE BEEN PLANNING TO DO! YOU ARE SUCH A COWARD. TAKE THIS AND LEAVE."
Marlene's mind froze and she couldn't hear more of the argument her parents were having, it was clear enough for her, it was over. Her mother was throwing him out.
Matt seemed to also have realized what was going on.
Marlene quickly stood up as she heard doors slam, she dropped Mike in Melanie's arms and ran into the kitchen ignoring her siblings screams at her to come back.
"MOM! DAD!" She yelled, her mother was currently lying on the floor sobbing. "MOM?"
She didn't look up so Marlene ran out of the kitchen and out the front door.
"DAD DON'T!" she said as she spotted her father with a briefcase in his hand. "Dad! Please, no don't go." She chocked out and got a hold of his bag.
He turned around and looked at her "Marlene –"
"No, daddy please." She begged, tears flowing like a river down her cheeks. "She doesn't mean it-"
"I want to leave."
The words made her whole world slow down and then fall. She vacillated. "Please-" she tried to grasp him again but fell forwards. He was gone. Disappeared. Disapparated. Gone.
Crying. Screaming. Begging. Wishing.
Marlene entered the living room where her mother lay on the couch, head in her hands. "Mom," she breathed out, her voice breaking. "Mel, Mike and Maria they are all crying" she said, trying to hide the fact that she was also crying form her voice. "Matt and I can't handle it on our own."
Her mother didn't move, the only thing that made it clear she was still alive were her steady sobs.
"Mom." Marlene said again. "You have to come, now."
No answer.
"Mom, I know this is hard but he didn't just leave you –"
"Marlene." Matt's voice came from the door. "Leave her alone –"
"No!" Marlene said and twirled around to meet her brothers gaze "She wasn't the only one he left, she is our MOM she's supposed to care about us and make us stop crying, not us Matt-"
There was till no answer from her mother.
"Marlene, don't." Matt said again and that was enough for something inside her to snap.
"I'm leaving." She said, more to Matt than to her mom. "Going to the Potters." She said as she exited the room before adding "I'll see you in September."
And then she left.
- Hunting For Happiness -
Sirius sat in the shadows of the Potter's living room. The letter he had gotten earlier that day still in his shaking hands. He threw the glass in his other hand towards the nearest wall and listened as it shattered with a thrilling sound in the wall.
Sirius.
While you have been staying at the Potters –which we still don't approve of – your cousin Bellatrix has got amazing news, she has finally been admitting as his follower.
You must understand the pride our whole family feels and your father and I hope you will attend her celebration party. Being admitted like that is a rather big deal and will you not be any more disgrace to the family by not coming.
The words played over and over again in his head. He didn't want to believe it. His cousin Bella was now a Death Eater. And everyone was proud of her. Normal families would not like this news but of course his family loved it.
Earlier that summer he had left home to spend the summer with James (much to his parents annoyance) because at James he was free from them, but even though he was supposed to be free, they still got to mix in his head and make him feel like… this. Weak and … out of hope.
Marlene wrapped the blanket tighter around her body as she walked out of the kitchen in the Potter's house. She walked into the Living room were she knew the big Potter's bookcase was. She couldn't sleep, the nightmares haunted her every single dream and she couldn't take it anymore. She didn't want to see him leave her again. Awake or in a dream.
She jumped up as something was thrown to the wall and glass flew in every direction.
"Sirius!" She breathed out as he noticed him. "What are you doing up so late?" she asked softly.
He didn't answer, he didn't know if he could make out words right now.
She sat down on the cough next to him, nervously breathing.
"What are you doing here?" he finally made the words out.
"I had nightmares." She whispered. "About the day he.." she trailed off, because she knew he knew, James had told him, to make sure he didn't say something upsetting.
"Bella is a Death Eater." He mumbled out and she froze next to him.
"What?"
"My cousin, Bellatrix." He said grimly.
"Oh, Sirius… I'm sorry." She mumbled out awkwardly and stroked a hand over his cheek.
"Don't."
She sighed and turned his face towards her own. "Let me, let me make you feel better," she said soothingly and went to hug him.
But instead he pushed her back on the couch and hovered over her. "Want to make me feel better?"
She bit her lip and nodded. "I do." She breathed out and suddenly his lips crashed down on hers. The kiss went on for what seemed forever, getting deeper and deeper with each movement.
When they in the end had to come up for air he lowered his mouth down and started kissing down her neck.
"Sirius-" she said warningly.
"Please Mars," he said, "I need you, I need someone to care. Please."
That was it. "Okay," she breathed out, just the sound of her nickname was enough. "I care." She promised. "I care so much."
A/N: Pretty dark stuff eh?
So there were so many scenes I wanted to add, like when Marlene stumbles into the Potters and all the stuff, but well it was getting so long and I was sooo tired, so yeah, if you guys are interested to read that I might write it some time ;)
Anyways, so there were like many people that favorite my story after the last chapter and it made me really happy, but I want to be rather selfish and ask: Why do you favorite if you cannot take one minute of your time and also review? If you are writing fanfic on here you understand what it means to us to get reviews, so yeah, please try and take a moment ot tell me what you thought, even though its just one word.
To you guys who did review: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!.
p.s. Did you guys notice that I think (almost) all the flashbacks are in past tense, not present? You have to forgive me, I HAD to write this this way, I tried the other way and failed.
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