"Is it just me or is there something going on between Uncle and Bilbo?" Kili suddenly asked as they were coming back home.
"Well, I'm not sure." Fili replied. After a moment he added. "However I've never seen him with any woman or in any relationship. So I'm not really sure what his preferences are."
"I don't know him all that well, but he seems formal and reserved but he's unusually friendly towards Bilbo." Kili summed up.
"Does it bother you?" Fili asked and saw a very surprised glanced at his direction. "Does it bother you he might prefer men?" Fili clarified.
"Of course not. Does it bother you?" Kili replied with a question.
"Not at all." Fili replied. "It would be nice to see him happy with someone for a change."
They entered the house and went upstairs to their rooms.
"We'd better get ready for bed; it's an early morning tomorrow." Fili told Kili and went into his bedroom. Kili stood there looking at the closed door, he had no idea what those last words meant, and deep inside he was wondering if Fili would come to him again later.
Kili retreated to his room and took a shower and dressed for bed. He set an alarm on his phone, and sat a bit with his new laptop to write an e-mail to his foster family. He missed them a lot, he missed Alaska, but he wasn't home sick anymore.
A longer time passed when he went to bed alone. He thought he would be forced to spend the night alone when the door opened and without turning on the light Fili snuck into his bed.
"Did you set the alarm?" Fili gently asked as he took Kili into a warm embrace.
"Six thirty." Kili replied.
"We should have enough time to get to school." Fili told him. "I'll be running around you all day, so don't you worry we'll eat lunch together and spend all breaks together."
"Wouldn't you rather spend some time with those girls?" Kili asked almost silently.
"I thought I made it clear to you, I hate those whores." Fili replied firmly. "I'm really not interested."
"I just don't want you to hate me for becoming a burden." Kili mumbled.
"You're not a burden. You're my brother." Fili replied.
"I was wondering..." Kili slowly began speaking.
"About what?" Fili insisted worried about the tone in Kili's voice.
"When you said you won't mind uncle's preference in men..." Kili began slowly uttering what his heart really wanted to say. "I mean, I wanted to ask, do you already know your preference?" He finally managed to squeeze out of his throat.
"No one has ever asked me, but yes I do know my preference for quite some time now." Fili didn't elaborate; his heart almost stopped hearing the question. "Do you know your preference already?" He asked back not giving a full answer.
"Yes, I do." Kili replied not answering fully as well. "I was just wondering what it felt like..." He slowly began speaking but stopped in mid sentence.
"What feels like what?" Fili insisted.
"To be close with someone." Kili asked hesitantly.
"I have no idea." Fili admitted. "I don't have much experience." He finally added. "There was a girl in school called Sigrid, and we kissed several times, but I wouldn't call it a relationship and then she transferred to a fancy school in Switzerland."
Kili's heart dropped hearing about a girl in Fili's life. Suddenly he lost all hope and the idea of touching upon this topic seemed like a horribly bad one. At least he didn't make a fool of himself trying anything, not to mention ruining their relation as brothers.
"Was there someone you liked?" Fili gently asked a bit worried with the direction the conversation was going.
"Uhum" Kili just mumbled.
"Did anything happen?" Fili asked with worry in his voice.
"No. Never." Kili replied. "I haven't even kissed anyone yet." He finally admitted.
"Then how can you know what you prefer if you haven't? Have you fallen in love?" Fili's voice was strained talking about this extremely sensitive topic.
Suddenly Kili just went all stiff and began crying wildly. He was sobbing and trembling and Fili felt helpless. He could only bring him closer and he kept apologizing for asking such a stupid question. Fili was terrified with the reaction he caused and after such a happy day he was terrified with what had happened.
"You can trust me Kili." Fili gently whispered. "I'm here for you and I'll always support you."
"I'm so stupid; I'm such a coward..." He finally murmured.
"I know what that feels like." Fili replied. "There is someone I like a lot, but I doubt it would work." He finally explained. Kili looked up to his eyes still fill of tears, but without the desperate sobbing.
"You do like someone?" Kili gently asked. Fili felt those chocolate eyes drill into his soul, the face Kili was making so desperate and tempting was a bit too much of Fili to take. He wanted this boy more than anyone else ever, he felt attracted to his eyes, to his body, but what made his soul melt was the burning sensation of his touch on his skin.
"Have you been wondering what it feels to kiss someone?" Fili gently asked with only one thing on his mind. Kili's eyes were pleading with some kind of despair in them, he gently nodded but his eyes didn't waver from Fili's. "So why don't you kiss me and find out?" He finally whispered. Kili's eyes went even wider hearing those gentle words, the whole idea as so alluring and so tempting he could barely stand it. Kili didn't make a move; he was incapable of moving or reacting in any other way.
But he's not wavering or protesting Fili noticed after a moment. There was a brief second when he remembered what he should and definitely shouldn't do, but his mind was out of control. Without any further ado he leaned in and gently pressed his lips into those gorgeous tempting soft lips belonging to his brother. He didn't push it hard, just a short sensitive kiss. He wanted so much more but the surprise in Kili's eyes made him stop.
Kili watched his brother press him lips into him, he felt the burning sensation, those soft sensitive lips on his, and he was in heaven. The suddenly it ended as fast as it happened; Fili gently shifted giving him a bit more space to breath. But Kili didn't want to breathe; he didn't want to share a short chaste kiss. Without even thinking about what he was doing he reached his hand and put it on the back of Fili's head and forced him into another kiss. A kiss like Kili dreamt about, a kiss long and passionate, with his tongue in Fili's mouth, with his teeth gently nibbling on his lower lip.
Fili just blinked feeling the rapid and forceful assault he got as a response. He intended to give Kili a short innocent experience, but his brother obviously meant something different when he talked about kissing. He could feel those lips drill into his, his heart flipped when he felt his tongue assault him, and when he felt those not so gently teeth assault his lip he couldn't take it anymore. He gave in, and he gave back with all his energy.
Kili could feel the change after a moment, and when it stopped being just his tongue and his lips, his heart skipped a beat. Fili was kissing him back in the most passionate and exhilarating way possible. He was showing slight dominance, and he was giving Kili the best kiss he could have ever imagined. Soon it wasn't enough for the younger hormone driven boy, he sat on his brother and kept kissing him without end. He wanted so much from him, and what he was getting was more than he had ever dreamt of. And he wanted so much more yet again. He wanted more kisses and more... He wanted to touch, to forget about reality and just give in to him.
Suddenly Fili stopped the kiss. His eyes were dark and burning, but he forced Kili to stop.
"We can't!" He mumbled. "I can't do this, you're my brother." He whispered. Kili looked at him puzzled, just a minute ago they were kissing like the world was going to end any moment now, but then it was just over. It's like being given a view of paradise, but you couldn't step in.
"I'm sorry." Kili looked away trying not to show how sad he was that his brother rejected him.
Fili felt as if he had kicked a puppy. The way Kili shifted to be away from him, those heartbroken eyes, he realised he made Kili feel rejected.
"I'm always going to love you." He decided to whisper. "But you're my brother, and no matter how much at this very moment we're both turned on we would regret it later."
"I want you." Kili whispered back still his back towards Fili. "And I won't regret anything later..."
"We talked about this before already; do you remember the night when you insisted I'm a perfect brother?" Fili asked and without waiting for an answerer he continued. "Well I'm not a perfect brother, I'm far from that." He gently shifted so that he was lying right next to Kili his chest pressed to Kili's back, Kili gently moved feeling the pressure of Fili's erection on his ass. "I want you, but I want to be your brother as well. I want to shield you from harm and from the world, and deep inside I know continuing what we just started is plain wrong."
"I can't imagine a life without you, so please don't reject me..." Kili gently told him.
"I'm not rejecting you; I'm doing what's right for you." Fili tried to explain.
"I don't fucking give a shit what you think is right for me." Kili suddenly exploded and shifted and sat on Fili again. "I want you, and I will never want anybody else in my whole life."
"What are you saying?" Fili looked at him taken by surprise.
"I've known that my preference is boys for some time now, I like male asses, I like male chests and those things work for me better that any naked girl or porn movie." Kili told him bluntly. "The moment I saw you I just wanted to kiss you, to be with you in any way possible. So don't fucking give me the responsible big brother talk now, either we're going to have sex right now and again many times in the future, or we should sleep separately and just pretend to be brothers. You chose." Kili's voice was suddenly firm. "Tell me, was this whole thing just a result of the discussion and you just wanted to show me pity, or did you really feel like doing it? Did you really feel like kissing me and fucking me before you started to kiss me?" Kili was showing anger to Fili for the first time, and this Kili more alike to Thorin was so fucking hot that Fili could just stare.
"It was a result of the discussion." Fili saw slight disappointment in Kili's eyes. "But I felt like this since the moment I saw you at the airport."
"You mean you felt pity?" Kili's voice was cold as ice.
"I've never felt pity towards you." Fili finally replied feeling hesitant about what would happen if he really said the truth. But then the sadness he saw in those eyes forced him to say the only right thing. "I've wanted to fuck your brains out ever since I met you. You're so fucking hot I've dreamt about taking you so many times I can't even count." He decided the truth was the only thing he could say. "Every time I had to hold you, to be next to you I wanted you desperately, I've imagined what it would feel like to kiss you and take you. When introducing you to my friends I wish I could say you're my boyfriend not my brother." Fili's voice broke down at the end; he could still feel the deep gaze on himself.
"So why don't you fuck me?" Kili asked with pain in his voice. "Please..." His voice practically broke down saying that one word. And Kili was right, there was no way Fili could reject him.
"If uncle ever finds out he's going to kill me." Fili told him trying to keep contact with reality.
"Who says he's going to find out?" Kili told him, his hands were gently tugging on Fili's t-shirt and the way he was looking at him was so attractive Fili really couldn't say no to him.
Before Kili could beg again Fili's lips were again on his. He felt those strong arms hold him closer than before, and he felt those hands roam his body with insensitivity that made his whole body burn. Since it was their first time Fili tried to go slow, but from time to time he had to cool Kili's speed. He gently undressed him, and kissed every inch of skin visible. Kili was demanding more, but Fili wanted to go his pace, making their first time really special. Soon Kili realised forcing a quicker pace didn't work, so he just gave in, he touched and kissed and urged with his whole body. He did what he had dreamt about, touching the tattoo and touching all those muscles he couldn't keep his eyes off.
Soon touching was no enough for both of them, their bodies demanded the long awaited fulfilment. Kili gently reached to touch his brother and was rewarded with a growl. Soon both of them were rubbing against each other, and without even penetrating they came separating their bodies with a warm layer of cum.
"Will we do it fully next time?" Kili whined.
"What's the rush?" Fili asked. "There are many ways of having sex." He got up and brought a towel and gently removed the cum from their bodies. He threw Kili's clothes back at him, and he dressed himself.
"Can't we sleep naked?" Kili whined again.
"You want uncle to catch us naked in bed together? Covered in cum nonetheless?" Fili asked with a smirk.
"At least will we get to shower together?" Kili asked with hope in his voice.
"Of course we will. And when uncle goes on a business trip we will sleep naked as well. So don't you dare panic." Fili threw the towel into the laundry and got back into bed. "We'll be as close as possible, but remember we have to behave in school and in front of everyone especially uncle."
"Yeah, I know." Kili added. "But as long as I get to be close to you, and sleep with you I'll manage with everything else."
"I'm not sure I'll be able to manage, or you for what's that worth, but we've got no other choice than try hard." Fili snuggled into Kili tentatively.
"I love you." Kili whispered.
"I love you too." Fili replied and softly went to sleep.