A/N: Fair warning this chapter is rather short, it's only like 5 pages, but it has a BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG intense scene in it which took forever to write. Plus the next chapter has the Christmas ball so that chapter is going to be LONG. So this one is just a… short JUCIY chapter, which you guys HAVE TO review.

p.s. I added Mary in there on the last minute D:

p.p.s. I should get a reward for fast updating!

Chapter 17

Mary Macdonald & Marlene McKinnon

Mary Macdonald

I know that after fainting in Potions class, it would really be the best for me to stop this.

But… the whole thing with the Ball is stressing me out. I still haven't been asked and even Alice has been asked. That's just bullocks.

I hit the button on the toilet and watch the remaining of my lunch wash down.

I slowly open the doors to my booth to make sure the bathroom is still empty, which it is.

I look at my self in the mirror and try not to see the ugly person that stares back at me.

My stomach turns again, like it wants me to throw up more, but there can't possibly be anything more left in my stomach, can there?

But still I force myself back into the booth, open the toilet and try.

After coughing up nothing for a while I give up, lay back and press my back to the wall. Trying to ignore the tears that have started to trail down from my eyes.

"Mary?" a surprised voice greets me as Emmeline opens the booth.

She stares at me, and I avoid it. But I know she gets what going on. It's obvious. "Ohmygod." She breathes out and then pulls me up from the ground. "Mary did you just-"

I avoid her eyes again.

And then suddenly she's hugging me, and I can feel her own hot wet tears on my cheeks. "I should've noticed." She cries out.

I have nothing to say, I can't make up a sound. Why is she apologizing?

"Its not your fault." I choke up.

"Mary, why do you do this to yourself?" she asks and shakes her head at me, she isn't sorry anymore she's disappointed.

I shrug. "Makes me feel better."

She looks at me like she doesn't believe me but says nothing.

"You can't tell anyone." I tell her then before breaking from her hug.

"I-" she starts.

"Emmline. You can't tell anyone." I tell her darkly and she slowly nods.

"I wont."

And for the first time in a very long time I give her a smile and actually trust her. Emmeline Vance of all people.

Marlene McKinnon

Everyone is in such a good mood this week. It's annoying really.

Frank finally grew some balls and he asked Alice to the ball.

I know Mary is half upset that Alice has already been asked.

"Alice? Alice Prewett has already been asked to the ball? And I haven't?"She says annoyed next to me. "I'm never going to be asked! No one wants to take me."

I roll my eyes. "Mary, just wait a day or two, boys will be lining up for you."

Mary rolls her eyes back at me. "No they wont. Have you been asked yet? There is a Marlene McKinnon fan club out there right?"

I poke her harshly in the shoulder for that comment. "There is not. And No, plus I'm dating Adam so…"

"Has he asked you?"

I decide not to answer her, he hasn't done it yet but I know he will be, or hope he… wont.

So I slept with him and now I regret it, I really, really regret it and its stupid, I shouldn't regret it. And I shouldn't wish it had been Sirius I slept with instead of Adam, but I still do. Stupid. Stupid. STUPID ME.

But that's it, that's who I am. I'm stupid and haven't still gotten over how hard I fell for Sirius Black. Good Fucking Job Marlene.

- Hunting For Happiness -

Maybe I shouldn't go to the ball. I wonder to my self later that day. Its just too much drama and … I have to pick a dress and it's just too much. Maybe I don't even want to go. Or… I have no one that I want to go with…

"Marlene?" Adam (of course) pokes me from his seat next to me in the Library, we're supposed to be studying together, but really its just him studying and me mentally kicking my self.

"Yes?"

"Are you done? Because I finished, and I'm getting rather hungry."

"I'm done…" I tell him and close the book on the table (I don't even remember what homework I was doing.. Herbology I think… or Charms)

"Great." He smiles at me and grabs my hand to help me up from my chair. Some girls may go 'Aww! What a gentle man' but I go 'Ugh, let go of me creep!'

Honestly, why does he date me again?

I let him hold my hand as we walk towards the Great Hall, but we don't get to stand close to each other for very long because suddenly, my hand is yanked form his grip and my body yanked into a broom closet, said broom closet is then locked shut.

"What the hell?" I yell out.

"MARLENE!" Adam yells from the other site of the closet as he tries to force it open.

"What is –" I turn around to find a person standing behind me. "Of course."

I meet the eyes of a smirking Sirius.

"What the hell Black?" I spit out. "Why the hell did you pull me into an fucking closet?"

"Always such a dirty mouth." Black laughs.

I shake my head "What he hell do you want?"

"You." He breathes out and pulls me towards him. I stumble into his body.

"What?"

"Marlene," he drawls out "Stop acting like you aren't dying for me too, you've been with Adam for long enough, don't even try to tell me he's satisfying your needs like I –"

I cut him off by slapping his shoulder, I don't want him to continue telling me the truth.

His eyes narrow as he flips our positions so my back is pushed against a wall and his body is leaning on mine. "Break up with him."

"Why?" I ask him half angrily, half weakly because just his hands on my hips make my knees feel weak.

"Because you don't want to be with him."

"I want a relationship."

"No you don't." he tells me in a low growl before his lips crash down on mine and I kiss him back.

Kissing him after all this time is like… finding new air, its like I've been stuck in a locked room with no oxygen for so long and now.. I've found air again. I kiss him back - I can't not do it. He runs his hands from my hips up my stomach, over my shoulder, and then finally buries them into my hair. My hands wrap around his neck as I pull him closer.

There is a loud bang as the doors to the closet fly open and Black and I both fall out of it and on the floor, he on top of me.

I look up to see the Hallway is filled with people staring at us, but only one eye catches my attention. Adam.

"Oh my god." I breathe out as I push Sirius of my body. I stand up and try to smooth down my ruffles close and my messed up hair.

Adam stares at me and so does everyone else.

"Adam, this is not-"

"Not what?" he asks, his voice is loud and dark, like I've never heard it before.

"Not what it seems." I finish weakly.

"Don't lie McKinnon," smirks Sirius behind me "This is exactly like it seems"

I turn around, my face red with anger to look at him. "Shut your mouth!"

"I'd ask you to help me shut it but by the look of your … what was it again? Boyfriend? Yes judging by his face –"

To shut him up I slam my hands against his chest and push him backwards. "SHUT UP!"

I turn around to find Adam again but only to see him walking away. "Adam no! Don't go!" I yell and grasps for his hand, he slowly turns around.

"Why not?"

"Because I'm asking you to stay," I bite my lip, and refuse to turn to look at Sirius who I know is standing right behind me.

I wrap my arms around his neck and hug him. "Adam, please. Sirius and I are nothing! We maybe were something, sometime. But its over now, I don't want him. I .. I've chosen you." I choke on the words but finally get them out. This is what I have to do.

Adam looks down at me and then over my shoulder, like he's looking at someone else, then suddenly he pulls my head up for a kiss. It's a weird kiss, almost… possessive.

"Do you forgive me?" I ask as he pulls away from my lips.

"No." He breathes out and then lowers his voice. "Marlene, you haven't chosen yet its painfully obvious you still have feelings for him."

"No – I have! I have chosen-" I try

"Its not up to you anymore." Adam says. "You don't get to choose anymore. I'm going to choose - for you, and I choose that you choose him." He breaks away from my hug and walks away.

"ADAM!" I yell after him tears flowing from my face; I spin around quickly looking for Sirius so I can yell at him. Right now everything is his fault.

"LOOK WHAT YOU HAVE DON-" but he is gone.

I turn in circles looking for him. For Sirius and for Adam. But there both gone. Both of them have left me.

- Hunting For Happiness -

I wake up with a throbbing headache and groan out, I look around and realize I'm not in my Dormitory.

"Finally, you wake up." The familiar voice that belongs to my one-year-younger sister greets me.

"What… What am I doing here?" I ask her and sit up in her bed.

Melanie sighs "Well after that… fight, you guys had last night, I decided to take you up here, your friends were no where to be found and I didn't want to just leave you. You seemed about to die, you really don't remember?"

As she stops talking I remember, but I force it back out of my mind. I don't want to remember yesterday.

"So you sneaked me into the Hufflepuff dormitory?" I ask rather amused.

She shrugs "Like I've told you, my friends really don't mind that you stay here"

"Thanks Mel." I tell her and she stands up to hand me a glass of water.

"It's been long though," she says and sits back on the bed "Since I have had to 'rescue' you …"

I nod "That's good right?"

She shrugs "I suppose, I like doing it though, not that I like you upset." She hurries out "we just hardly talk if I'm not saving you from Sirius."

His name makes my stomach turn.

"Mar? You are looking a bit… pale? Do you need to .. puke?"

"No. I'm fine." I breathe out and close my eyes. "Just tired."

"It's Saturday," she reminds me "you can sleep as much as you want."

"Thanks Mel," I yawn out and lay back on the bed. "You are a great sister you know… I'm sorry that we don't hang out more…"

"It's okay." She says with a laugh "Just go to bed. And … Marlene?"

"Yes?" I ask as I slowly fall asleep.

"Are you okay?"

I decide to ignore the question, I don't really know the answer and before I know, I've fallen asleep in the safety of my little sister's arms.

A/N: NEXT UP IS THE CHRISTMAS BALL!

Anyways, after this chapter surely I have awoken some… thoughts or something? A review from you would be nice! You know what? *Points wand at you* IMPERIO! I command you to review! *evil laughter* MWAHAHAHA… Please?