A/N: Okay, so I made a deal with my friend, if she updated yesterday I'd update today. So I had to hurry a lot with this chapter. and I mean A LOT. So it's maybe not my best, but at least its something, yeah? And I love the reviews I got for last chapter! They were all so amazing. You guys are amazing! But yeah, if this suck BLAME STARKID MCFLY :D

P.s. I had such a headache while writing this and I was supposed to be cooking and my dad was whining and my brother was whining so, bear with me it was a hard written chapter :P hehe. And it's not beta'd so I'm sorry if it's filled with fails D: And its not really long.. OKAY. I'm gonna stop making excuses. Just read it, yeah?

Chapter 38

Mary Macdonald, Marlene McKinnon and Sirius Black

My eyes were still hard and narrowed, it was almost like they'd been glued together this way.

Even after McGonagall had removed the scumbags from the hallway and moved me and Marlene to her office.

The eyes stayed narrowed.

"I will be right back." she had said few minutes before and then she had left the room.

Marlene sat in the chair next to me, not moving, just staring forward.

I sigh.

"Are you okay?"

Marlene nods her head slowly.

"Good."

"Thank you." Marlene whispers after some silence.

I turn to her side. "You're my best friend. There's nothing to thank."

"Still... Thank you."

"I guess you're welcome then.."

Marlene smiles, turning to look at me, she opens her mouth to say something but gets cut off when the doors open and in walks McGonagall again, this time followed by Sirius and James.

"Sit." she orders the boys and then turns to me and Marlene, who stare confused at the two boys. "Miss McKinnon, was Mister Regulus Black one of those that attacked you?"

Marlene's eyes grew big as she shakes her head "No, no he wasn't."

"It was only Mulciber and Avery." I nod.

"Exactly, Mister Black." McGonagall turns to Sirius, half glaring at him. "Twenty points away from Gryffindoor-"

"What!" Marlene and I both yell up, now even more confused

James groans and Sirius glares.

"Mister Potter and Mister Black over there really need to learn to control their hands." McGonagall says simply, shaking her head before heading for the doors again. "I'll be once again right back, you'll all wait here."

And then once again she disappears out of the room.

"What exactly did that mean?" I turn to the boys, and realize this is the first time I've talked to them in what seems to be a century.

"We heard." James says, after looking over at Sirius. "About what happened to you Marlene," his voice is so soft, he hasn't spoken in that tone to us for ages.

Marlene continues to stare forward, her face like stone.

"And .. I guess we snapped. Mulciber and Avery were waiting in front of Dumbledore's office."

"You fought them?" My eyes grew big.

"Yep." James cracked a small smile.

"What has Regulus anything to do with it?"

James' eyes flutter to Sirius. "They had a.. lets just say the ran into each other and.. stuff."

"Stuff?" I repeat.

James nodded "I first thought he was involved in the whole.. thing.. but if you say he wasn't-"

"I wish would just die."

Sirius' voice is dark, filled with hatred and he doesn't even look at us while he says it, just stares at a wall.

His statement makes the room fall silent.

- Hunting for Happiness -

McGonagall and Dumbledore didn't (even though we screamed and yelled and cursed in objection) expel either Mulciber or Avery. Instead both of them got detention for what was left of their school years at Hogwarts.

"That's rubbish." I mutter to Marlene as we walk back to the Dormitory.

Marlene shrugs. "They didn't do anything Mary, it's alright."

"She also gave Sirius and James detentions!" I shake my head, "For defending you!"

"Mary, lets just forget about it all."

Marlene's voice is so strained.

It almost makes me wanna throw her against the wall multiple time until she realizes Sirius fucking Black was defending her honor.

But I know she's had to go through enough tonight.

And besides.. I suck at solving problems.

I can't even solve mine.

Marlene McKinnon

The weeks start to fly by and no one even mentions the thing with Avery and Mulciber again, or well at first there were rumors but they drowned out quickly. People even got over the me and Regulus snogging thing. People are more excited over summer anyway.

Sirius and James went back to not talking to us.

Things were almost normal.

"You can pack your bags," Professor McGonagal announces. "Like you all know tomorrow is your last day of school, but that does not mean you don't have to finish your homework."

I groan as I stand up, hoisting my bag on my shoulder.

"Should we go back to the Common Room?" Alice asks as she walks over to Mary and I, with Lily following.

"Can you guys come to the Hospital Wing with me?" Lily says, her hand clutching her head.

"Why?" Mary says, eying Lily curiously.

"My head is killing me," Lily murmurs out, rubbing her head.

"She's been whining all day," Alice nods.

"Sure," I say, linking my arms with Mary and Lily. Lily links hers with Alice's.

We're just like normal best friends. Like we used to be, before the drama and teenager-hormones.

"Thanks for class Professor!" Alice calls over her shoulder, ignoring our laughter and rolling eyes.

"What!" Alice says, smiling a little "We wont see her for months soon!"

Mary laughs "That's good Alice! Summer baby!"

But I stay silent.

I'm nervous for summer.

I don't say it out loud, but I know that I am.

My family is still pretty broken, even though its been years since dad left. And its not like I can go over to Jamie's for the summer again. And I don't want to go to Mary's, I know I'll just be pain for her family and her house is way to small for guests.

"Madame Pomfrey?" Lily calls out as we all enter the hospital wing.

"Madame-Remus?"

My eyes widen when I notice Remus on a bed in the corner.

He looks up from his book. "Oh, hey.. what are you guys doing here?"

But he's supposed to be at his home.. visiting his mum?

"Aren't you supposed to be with your mother?" Mary asks, raising her eyebrows.

"I-" Remus starts "I just.. I-" he doesn't finish.

"You just what?" Mary pushes.

"Remus we brought you cho-Girls!" James' voice interrupts us as he and his fellow friends walk into the room.

I stare at James, Sirius, Peter and then at Remus.

"What the hell is going on?" I finally manage up.

"Remus? What's up?" Alice asks, concerned.

"You should leave." Sirius speaks, taking a step forward and then hesitating before walking straight past us and towards Remus - James and Peter following him.

Mary takes another step forward. "What's going on?"

Remus looks at the boys with a sigh. "We should tell them,"

"No." Sirius says at once.

"Tell us what?" I demand.

Sirius opens his mouth to retort something but Remus cuts him off.

"You didn't have a hard time sharing this in year five and we've already been over this it's my secret to share not yours, Sirius."

I stare, confused at Remus.

Sirius closes his mouth but shakes his head and leans against the wall, his eyes narrowed.

Remus sighs, looking from Sirius at us. He opens his mouth and then closes it again before taking in a deep breath.

"-I'm a werewolf."

WHAT?

"W-what?"

"I'm a werewolf." Remus is freakishly calm.

Which is a total opposite to me.

"W-what?"

I don't even notice what the other girls are saying.

Not until Lily is hugging Remus and Alice is sitting on his bed and I realize me and Mary are the only ones standing.

She takes another step forward and another, until she's also clutching Remus and giving him a kiss on the cheek.

"W-what?" I whisper once again.

"Are you okay?" Remus asks when the girls have let go of him.

"I.. uh.. I.."

What?

"Do you guys mind?" Remus says, not taking his eyes off me "Giving me and Marlene some alone time, if she doesn't mind?"

Sirius mutters something but James and Peter pull him out of the room, followed by Lily, Alice and Mary that all send me looks, probably disgusted by my response.

"Are you okay?" Remus asks again, calmly.

"I, .. yes, I just.. I-"

I don't know what to say

"You're sounding like me earlier." Remus gives away a laugh.

"I'm sorry," I breath out, finally getting my legs to work again and walk towards Remus.

How did everyone react so .. calmly?

Except me of course.

God, Remus must hate me.

"You don't need to be sorry," Remus says, smiling a little. "I am sorry. You can go if you want, I understand-"

"I don't care." I finally manage out.

"Care about what?"

"That.. that you're a werewolf." I suck in some air.

"Thank you," Remus says, just above a whisper.

I close my eyes for a second. "I'm just shocked. I .. I never knew and I just.. I'm shocked."

Remus nods. "I know. It's not really.. easy going news."

I force up a laugh.

"I have something to tell you Marlene"

"More news?" I says, laughing nervously.

Remus laughs, but his laughter is slightly strained "Sit down."

And I do.

Sirius Black

James nudges me.

I don't bother to open my eyes.

James nudges again and I growl: "What?" but as I do I open my eyes and look at the doors to the Hospital Wing to see it open.

"Remus wants you guys to come back in." McKinnon says, her voice is shaky as she walks away from the doors.

I stand up, James following me and head for the doors.

"Sirius," her voice stops me. "Can I have a word?"

I turn around again, giving James a nod - He, Peter and the rest of the girls then disappear back into the Hospital Wing.

"What do you want?"

I'm not sure if I intend on making it sounds so harsh. I just can't stop myself to have my guard up around her.

And to add on that I'm fucking angry at her.

And I want to shag her against that door.

"I talked to Remus," she replies, biting down on her lip, which really doesn't help me with my thoughts.

"Aha,"

Remus better have not told her.

"I needed to ask you something."

She takes a step closer to me, and I take few steps back, so my back is almost pressed against the wall.

She takes few steps closer, until she's only inches away from me.

"I hate you guys for not telling me," she starts out, her voice still shaking. "For not trusting me enough to tell me." she forces up a laugh.

She's so close I can feel it when she laughs on my skin.

"I hate how you just lie, and lie and lie. I hate how you talk to me. How you look at me. How you try your best to make me suffer."

Her eyes stare into mine, blue and bright versus my dark gray ones.

"So tell me the truth Sirius," she's leaning so close now, her body almost touching mine.

"Did you-" her voice is breaking, almost like she's holding back tears. "-Did you really cheat on me?"

It's the perfect opportunity.

She's almost begging for it.

I could do it now.

Tell her the truth and slam it into her face.

That she's the whore not I.

That she ruined the relationship not I.

I could ruin her forever.

She continue to stare, her eyes more sparkly than normally.

"Y-yes."

I can't.

I just can't.

I can't do it.

I can't break her down.

Not when she's already so broken.

She closes her eyes, a tear sliding from it down her cheek.

"You didn't, did you?" her voice is completely broken now. "You didn't sleep with Veronica."

I can't say anything, I just stare back at her.

Suddenly there is a burning pain in my cheek and I can see her raised still palm.

"Why!" she pushes her tiny hands against my chest. "Why do you do that!" she's hitting me.

My hands grab hers in mid hit.

"Why did you say that!" She screams, her eyes glowing with anger. "You had the perfect chance! Perfect chance to stomp on me, to hurt me! And you didn't!" she shakes her head, her voice lowing "-or well, you did.. Because now I know it,"

I'm not sure if to ever respond, it's almost like she isn't talking to me.

"Now I know that it's my fault. That I ruined the relationship. That I'm the whore." she gives away a hollow laugh.

"Marlene-"

"Who are you?" she cuts me off, shaking her hands loose from mine and still staring at me.

"What?" is the only thing I can say.

"Who are you! The Sirius Black I knew would never walk away from an opportunity to watch me crash and burn." she shakes her head turning away from my face and takes a step towards the stairs.

"Where are you going-"

I'm not even sure why I'm trying to stop her.

"It's all over now," she says, turning around again, her voice shaking again. "You and I. All over at last."

She gives away a very hollow laugh and then she's walking away and I can't find any words to use so I just watch her disappear.

A/N:

Uhm..

Thank you for reading this very suckish and weird chapter.

I hope you don't want me dead. I like living.

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