AUTHORS NOTE:
*Gets prepared for the bad name calling*
Okay, so I'm a bit of a.. what shall I say? Witch with a b? Female dog? Horrible human being?
I am really sorry for how long its taken me to update!
My conscience: Oh my gosh Sig, how can you do this to your amazing loyal reviewers?
Me: Uh.. uh.. you'know school.. homework.. t-t-tests!
My conscience: And did you or did you not have a four day long midterm break?
Me: Uh.. you see, I... I ... I... I... *runs away screaming*
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I'm sorry! Anyways, here's the update! Please lower your guns, I don't have my safety jacket on D:
Chapter 42
Marlene McKinnon
Fuck shit.
Fuck shit.
Fuck shit.
Fuck this shit.
Fuck this shitting, shitting fuck.
My life is one hell of a rollercoaster.
Someone up there must really hate me, or maybe it's someone down there, that hates me or holds a grudge.
Or maybe someone has cast a spell on my life.
Or maybe I just deserve to be stoned to death.
I really hope no one stones me to death, that really sounds painful – okay it can't be more painful that my pain in the ass life.
Sirius Fucking Black is the most fucking stubborn son of a bitch on the planet.
Mary Macdonald is a hypocrite if I've ever met one.
Alice is too happy to be able to be sad.
James Potter is a coward from Gryffindor.
Remus Lupin is a depressed moron.
Peter Pettigrew can be describes as an annoying rat in the background.
Lily Evans can join Remus in the depressed-ness, only she has a reason to her misery. Her fucking parents died.
And Emmeline Vance is as dead to me as my pet rabbit I had when I was five.
Okay so maybe I did deserve Mary's yelling.
At least half of it.
But not all of it!
I'm not self centred!
.. All of the time.
I don't leave my friends for my "Fuck buddy"!
... Often.
I am not in denial and in love with Sirius.
... Denial is just a river in Egypt – Or is it in Greece? I really should've paid attention in Muggle studies before I dropped that subject mid through the semester.
So, after Sirius Black decides to jump on me with a passion filled hate kiss, we kind of lost track of time and end up doing more... complicated things.
So, to be fair it's his fault that I forget my best friend's parents are dead.
Hypocrite. Hypocrite!
My conscience yells in my head as I put the pencil down and stop scribbling down angry words into my and Mary's notebook.
Mary's left it on the coffee table after she was writing something in it yesterday, the pages have been ripped away, which is exactly what I'm going to do with those I'm writing on when I'm done.
With a sigh I look around; no one is around.
School is two days away and Lily's parent's death has brought the silence back over our group – not that it ever really left if be honest.
Mary's not letting me see Lily anymore; damn that girl is furious with me.
I turn back to the book, bringing up the quill again.
Since when is Mary a saint? I'm really tired of her bullshit.
And then there is Sirius, who's back to be his always cheerful "I love ignoring people and throwing them dirty looks" self.
James is being weird, he hasn't left his position beside Lily's door since we arrived back to his house – no way we were going to be staying at Lily's house while Lily's sister had a fit.
Petunia Dursley was someone I am going to wish to never meet again.
She actually had the nerve to accuse Lily for her parents' death ("If they wouldn't have had to get you from school, they'd still be alive!"). She's a horrible whore.
James tried to hex her, but Lily stopped him by running away sobbing from the house.
So we'd gone back to the Potter's, his parents have been missing in action ever since, probably working out some really secretive Ministry plan. Or whatever, who cares.
So Mary's really pissed at me for not showing up to comfort Lily earlier than I did, but I was a bit... busy.
So I'm not the nicest friend ever, but hey! It's not my fault.
But Mary believes it is.
Bitch.
Which brings me back to Sirius.
I really thought that after shagging me (again) he'd possibly get over his absurd hate on me and we could at least try to be friends, but no, he seems to be stuck on hating me more.
I do not get him at all.
So I'm just going to say "fuck'em all."
I close the book and throw it back on the table, then I quickly reach out for it again and rip out the ten pages I'd written and chuck them into the burning fire.
"Marlene?"
I look up; spotting the last person I had expected to be down here, talking to me of all people. I'd seriously expect her to rather talk to Sirius or Peter.
"Lily!" I'm surprised how weird my voice sounds as I stand up.
"Hey," her eyes are red, swollen and cheeks wet.
She's still crying.
Oh god, I don't handle crying people very well. Where's Alice? Get yourself together McKinnon.
... "How are you?"
Lily hiccups. "Let's not, let's just not talk about me." she says, shaking her head and sits down.
She closes her eyes and leans back. "Tell me about you. Your days."
"Uhm," What the hell? "My days are not really interesting."
"You slept with Sirius again," she says, one of her eyes peaking open. "I heard Mary yell it across the house."
I roll my eyes. "That's not the newest news flash Lils."
"Tell me something." Lily requests.
"I'm talking to myself," I mutter out. "In my head... again. Like I did.. after the Hogsmeade fiasco. I've never been this nutted out before."
Lily cracks a smile. "Nutted out?"
"Me saying I'm a nutter," I roll my eyes.
"You're a tosser." Lily says, shaking her head.
"I'm sorry Lil..." great, she's making me guilty now.
"I know its okay."
"Mary hates me, doesn't she?"
"Neh," Lily shakes her head. "She'll get over it."
"She's a bitch like I am," I laugh. "She does one thing in her life right and she thinks she has the right to tell me I'm a bitch."
"I don't think she's doing that," Lily says, opening both of her eyes now. "She's always muttering about being a bitch herself, she's just looking out for us."
"You," I correct her.
"Us," she corrects me back, cracking another smile.
I roll my eyes. "Whatever Evans, so... do you have any plans?"
"Plans?" Lily asks, her eyebrows rising.
"I mean... about you know after Hogwarts."
She groans, sitting up straight. "Alice just managed to talk me into going – I'm not sure where I stand yet about life after school."
I totally agree with her. I'm terrified of life out of school.
"'Could live with me," I propose. "You and Mare and I could get an apartment together, live the life of the singles together!"
Lily snorts. "Yeah, like you and Mary'll stay single!"
I snort right back at her, chucking a cushion at her. "Yes we will! It's not like I've anyone to shack up with yet! I just have Black, who's never going to date anyone ever again I'm sure. And Mary's relationships last two weeks maximum."
Lily chucks the cushion back. "Fine! We'll be bachelorettes forever together!"
I grin. She's being so normal it's almost... not normal. She's really strong.
If it were my dad – then again, it should be my dad instead of her dad – and my mum – okay... I officially think the world is cruel.
Why does the world take parents away from someone that loves her parents so much?
And leaves mine alone trying to ruin my life?
I look at Lily and sigh.
She doesn't deserve this like I do.
- Hunting for Happiness –
Dear Marlene
Why aren't you coming home before school? I know Lily Evans lost her parents, but you've got to get back home young lady, we need to have a word with each other before you disappear back to school again. We'll at least talk on the platform yes darling? Your dad and I love you, dearly.
- Your mother.
I've been dreading to write her back, ever since I got the letter two days ago, but it's time I force myself to do it, seeing I'm going back to Hogwarts.. tomorrow.
Mum
You know well why I'm not coming and it not just because Lily lost her parents. I'm not even going to try to explain it all to you. I'll talk to you for a minute on the platform and then you can watch as I walk away. I'm seriously not going to be a part of "our family" if it's like that. Tell my siblings I'm sorry for not being there to watch them go through the shit you and dad are going to make them go through.
- Marlene.
Yeah, yeah I can be harsh... ish.
B-I-T-C-H stands for bitter, immature, tough, crazy and hopeless. And I'm the biggest Bitch there is.
- Hunting for Happiness –
I lied to my mother.
When we reach the platform, I don't look for her or talk to her, I head straight to the train.
"Find us a compartment!" Alice yells after me, as she tries to spot her parents, because she actually wants to see them before she goes.
Mary doesn't bother to check if her mother came – she didn't, we know that already.
But she seems does seem to have forgiven me, because both she and Lily follow me into the train.
"Hey McKinnon!" James calls after me, grabbing my hand.
"What?" I turn around, raising my eyebrows.
He grins, pulling up something from his pocket. "I have two big surprises," he announces. "But only one I'm willing to give away yet."
"Which is?" I raise my eyebrows, "You guys look for a place," I yell over at Mary and Lily that nod and leave us to talk.
He opens his fist.
"You're captain!" I gasp, staring at the shiny badge in his hand.
James grins proudly.
"Wow!"
This year is really filled with surprises already.
James is captain of the team
And Lily got Head Girl!
That's got to be the most surprising thing. I mean Lily's really bright and smart and loyal and all the crap, but she wasn't even a prefect! Everyone thought Alice was going to get it.
At first Alice seemed outraged when we found out, but now she's calm. She's always calm. It's freaky.
"I've one more thing," James is getting serious now. "Or well two, but only one is for you to know yet."
I stare at him, again looking confused.
"Don't... fool around with Sirius anymore, okay Marley?"
I stare at him, my eyebrows rising again, I'm confused while at the same time I feel like someone slapped me.
James sighs, running a hand through his hair nervously. "Well, I was talking to him yesterday, and he said something about not wanting to waist his last year and that he was not going out of here as the 'man who snogged half the female population' but the man that 'snogged or more almost the whole female population." James seems awkward, oh so awkward.
I'm not sure if to laugh or cry.
"So just, don't mess, and you won't get hurt."
Maybe I should hit James?
"Oh and, he's co captain, I made him that, didn't want him to feel left out, so we make all the decisions together..."
Nope, I'm definitely killing him now.
- Hunting for Happiness –
I don't get to kill James.
James ran off, as soon as he delivered the oh-so-lovely news.
So I'm left to whine to Mary because Lily had to go to a Head girl and Head boy meeting to meet the new prefects and the mystery Head boy.
"Who do you think the Head Boy is?" Mary asks, crossing her legs.
"Frank," I snap, annoyed that she's getting off topic. "Back to me!" my voice is still snappy and I don't care if it annoys her.
Alice is not here, she went to look for Emmeline, which makes me even more annoyed. But I don't care! I'm angry. Really, really, really angry.
"Right, Sirius is an arse." Mary nods.
"-And so is James!" I'm almost shouting.
I'm in a serious rage.
Mary nods again, sighing. "Men, we should get rid of them all!" she says, clicking her gum against the roof of her mouth with her tongue. "So, the team... gonna be good or bad this yea' you think?"
"With Gideon and Fab gone? This year's gonna be hard. With James and Sirius as captains? It's going to be hell. I wonder if Sirius will even come to practice now, he used to skip all the time." I sigh, burying my head in my hands. "And now he'll be all busy shagging the rest of the female population. Beware Mary! You may be next."
She pulls a face, rolling her eyes at me and continues to paint her finger nails, which seems very important right now to no one but herself.
"I'm killing James," I say, crossing my arms.
"Okay love, have fun," she says absent minded.
I'm about to snap at her again but get interrupted.
"JAMES POTTER GET BACK HERE!"
The familiar angry voice gets us both to fall silent, and stop doing what we were doing, and look up and towards the door.
"I AM GOING TO KILL YOU!"
"I think someone might beat you to it Lene," Mary chokes up, looking at me with an amused but confused look on her face.
I keep staring at the doors, I barely manage to see where James is running as fast as he seems to be able to, grinning, with a very angry Lily Evans running behind him, holding her wand up in the air and aiming it after him.
Yep. What a fantastic start of the year.
A/N: So It was supposed to be longer, perhaps with a cliff hanger, but I couldn't make myself write anymore, so you don't get the longest chapter yet and its a bit of a filler, but at least they're back in school, which lets me take the lid of my "drama box" and pour it into my pot of "HFH plot" and stir with my chopstick.. Yeah, I'm tired, it's late. I should sleep. I'm going to update next week, and I promise you, if I get over ten review, I'll make sure the chapter is over ten pages and so juicy you'll feel like I just made you lemon juice... juicy lemon juice... yeah, I'm strange.
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