I was listening to my IPOD last night and this just came to me. Hope you like it alot!

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought that they'd mean everything to me

Yeah, I miss you

[From Where You Are - Lifehouse]

I hated laying in bed. My mind tended to wander. I was living in Hollywood now. Well, for about five years now. I was Hollywood's bad boy. "The Canadian Hunk." I hated it. Acting was fun, but nothing that I ever wanted. I wanted to be behind the camera. But, once I became a big enough star, I would. I would get what I wanted.

My mind drifted to my family back in Canada. Marti was turning fifteen this year. Lizzie and Edwin would be twenty-one. It blew my mind. It didn't help that I was twenty-five now. Time sure did fly by.

And then, I thought of Casey. We were still close, which surprised me. I thought that after I left university we would never have anything to do with each other. It wasn't true. Casey had graduated three years ago and moved to New York. I had flown out to see her that day. We had coffee and she laughed. She was going to be a writer.

Now, she was in Broadway. And still writing. She was amazing. I didn't know how she did both, but she did. Her face haunted my dreams ever night. Every single night. I have been crazy for her for so long and I could never tell her. Never. And I probably never will. Unrequited love was horrible.

I missed her so much. I still talked to her, at least once a week. But it wasn't the same as her being with me. I wondered if I should plan to go see her in a show. I wasn't scheduled to start work on my new movie for at least a month. Then again, I might back out. For being the "playboy" of Hollywood, I was a wimp.

I remembered the first time I realized how beautiful she is. It was our first semester at Queen's. It was late October and we were sitting outside, in the grass, surrounded by leaves. Her hair was down and the sunlight played up the natural red in it. I was intrigued by it. And then she laughed at something. And the sun hit her face and made her seem like she was glowing. It was really amazing.

For the next week, I tried to avoid her. I didn't understand how I was having these feelings. It didn't make sense. She was Casey and I was Derek and it didn't work. It couldn't. We were opposites.

Avoiding didn't work. She wouldn't allow it. She wondered what was wrong and I couldn't just tell her that I found her attractive. That wouldn't go over well. So, I started hanging out with her again. Then, I started falling in love. Slowly but surely. It sucked. I watched her date other guys and I became one of her best friends. That wasn't fun. But I did it.

It got to be too much and school wasn't going the way I planned it. I was struggling and I lost my scholarship when I broke my ankle. So, I finished the semester and I didn't go back. She was angry and upset but we got through it and I moved. She cried. I never knew it would affect her that much but she told me she was losing her best friend.

I should have never expected her to miss me because of any other reason. That would be silly. So, we hugged and she told me to keep in touch. I wanted to kiss her. I really did. But I didn't. I couldn't. It would have freaked her out. I didn't want to lose her, even if she was just a best friend.

My phone started ringing. My heart sped up thinking that maybe it would be her. I looked down and rolled my eyes, nope not her. It was Veronica Stilts. She was my leading lady in my next movie and also the girl that wanted me to date her. Or be seen with her. I couldn't stand her.

"Talk to me," I answered.

"Hello, darling," she purred.

"Yo."

"I was wanting to know if you wanted to go out tonight. Chet La Franc is opening tonight."

"I am busy."

"Doing what? You are always busy."

I hated when she pouted. Stuck up is all she was. She came from money and she thought that if she couldn't get what she wanted it was the end of the world.

"I am calling my family tonight."

"Oh whatever. That's just ridiculous."

And then she hung up. I was actually glad. She was annoying as hell. I mentally started comparing Casey to Veronica. Casey had deep brown hair with red highlights. Veronica had jet black hair that almost looked purple in the light. Casey had a sweet body with curves in the right places. Not overly curvy though. Veronica, well she was curvy. Her breasts had been done. I was sure of that. And she was definitely starving herself.

They were so different and the old Derek would have gone after Veronica in a heart beat. But that ws before I fell in love with Casey McDonald.

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