CHAPTER FOUR

Arizona spent the next few days going to doctor appointments with Jenny to nail down her treatment plan and spending as much time as possible with her family. It was now Sunday afternoon and Arizona would be flying back to Seattle the next morning with plans to return again in two weeks. She had taken Emma to the park to give Jenny a little break.

They had played on the swing set for awhile and Emma wanted to walk over the pond to see the fish and ducks so they were walking hand in hand over the pond when Emma looked up at her Aunt to ask "Aunt Zona?"

"Yes sweetie"

"Does mommy have a booboo?" Arizona stopped for a moment and looked down and the little blonde

"What do you mean?"

"She goes to the doctor a lot and I only go to the doctor when I have a booboo. So does she have one?" Arizona steered them over the a bench on the side of the path to sit down and have a little talk, Emma quickly climbed up in to her lap and looked up at her

"She does have booboo, but it's a little different then the ones that you get. She has a booboo on the inside and so the Doctors are trying to help make her better, that's why she has to go see them a lot."

"are you are gonna to make her all better? You are a doctor"

"I am, but I'm not kind of doctor that can help your mommy. But I'm going to be there with her, and help her figure out the best way to get make her better."

"is she going to die?" It was hard for Arizona to hear that come out of the little girls mouth, she was only 3 and those were words that Arizona hadn't yet even uttered in relation to her sister in laws situation. But she knew that Emma knew that her Daddy, Tim, had died and Arizona was use to bluntness of children. She actually found it a bit refreshing at times…. This was not one of those times.

"The doctors are going to do everything they can to help her so she doesn't die."

"Can I help?" Arizona smiled that the sweetness

"You can! You can be extra good for your Mommy and give her lots of hugs and kisses and tell her you love her everyday! Can you do that?"

"yep! I can do that! Cuz I don't want her to die"

"Me neither- how about we go see those fishes!"

Jumping down from Arizona's lap Emma ran ahead to the pond "yes! Come Aunt Zona! Run! They are over here!"

Later that night after Emma had gone to sleep, Arizona and Jenny were in the living room talking about the next two weeks and what the treatments would be like for Jenny. Arizona was trying to give it to her straight but also giving her a pep talk.

"And I mean it Jenny, if you need me, or its getting too hard with Emma, or or anything! You call me and I'll be here."

"Arizona – you have a job! You have to be in Seattle to save all of those kids you can't be babysitting me all the time"

"YOU are family, my sister, if you need me here I'm here. Okay!"

"okay okay" a few minutes of silence pasted between the two women, finally Jenny looked over at Arizona "Arizona" the turned her head and looked at her sister "thank you"

"you don't need…"

"I do! I do need to thank you- I don't know what is going to happen but this feels better to fight and I wouldn't have done that without you coming here and kicking my ass so thank you." Arizona smiled and reached over to take Jenny's hand

"You are welcome. I'm always up for a good ass kicking. And I'll be here to keep kicking your ass so be prepared"

"oh great!" they shared a small laugh together "I need to ask you one more thing before you leave tomorrow, and I'm sorry I didn't do it sooner. I tried to a few times and I just keep chickening out and now you are leaving tomorrow so I just need to"

"Gosh you really are a Robbins! You are rambling Jenny"

laughing "I guess so. Um okay well. You know I don't have any family, well family that is worth a damn, and Tim and I never made a will before he passed and well I think I need to make one. For Emma. And I know that you have never really expressed that you want to have kids and that you have this amazing career and a girlfriend that you love and you are going to continue to do amazing things and I don't want me or Emma to ever get in the way of that but I um well…" at this point tears were welling in both women's eyes

"Jenny. yes."

"Yes?"

"Yes if anything happens. I'll make sure she is okay"

"Really? Are you sure because I want you to be sure. Maybe you should talk to Callie first and get back to me because I know this is not in your plan and this isn't so much of a hypothetical here Arizona. I'm sick and there is a real chance"

"I know what I'm saying yes to. Jenny she is my niece, she's half of my brother and I love her and I love you and if something does happen then I'll step up. Plan or no plan."

"Okay. Thank you, I can't even began to tell you how relieved that makes me because she loves you so much and I can't burden your parents with this. They deserve to have their retirement and enjoy their life, I already feel like I ask them for too much"

"I know they love watching her when you need so don't worry about that. And we can talk about this more another time but you should call your lawyer tomorrow and tell him write it up. Let me know if I need to do anything okay"

"yes okay. I will." Jenny reached over and pulled Arizona into a strong hug "I love you sister"

"I love you too!"

"Are you sure you don't want to talk to Callie about this?"

"No I'll talk to her when I get home but my decision won't change no matter what she says"

"Okay. I'm going to get to some rest. See you in the morning"

"Yep- sleep tight"

That night while Arizona laid in bed she thought about the conversion she had with Jenny that night and the questions Emma had for her at the park and suddenly it all became very real. Jenny was sick, really sick and even though Arizona had gotten her to agree to get treatment there was still a big, no, huge possibility that she would not make it. If she dies then there is no one left to take care of Emma but her. She would have to be a mom to dead brothers kid. Oh god. Arizona never wanted to be a mom, she didn't think it was in the cards for her. And she was okay with that- she had an amazing career as a doctor making sure that other peoples kids were safe and sent home with their parents to live long healthy lives. But a kid of her own…. She never dreamed of that. Of course she loved Emma so much, she would do anything for that little girl but this never entered her mind before.

How had it not! ARIZONA! You are doctor you know what can happen here. How had Emma's future not come into play in your mind yet. And what about Callie? What if Callie didn't want this. Just the other night she was SO happy there was no baby in their lives. Does she even want kids? ARIZONA! YOU don't want kids!

Arizona's mind was going a mile a minute about Jenny and Emma and Callie and everything that she couldn't take and did what Arizona does best in these situations… she shut it all down and refused to think about it until she really had to.