It's Only You and Me
a series of Moments in Cameron and Daniel's relationship
summary:a series of moments in Cameron and Daniel's relationship as they come together
genre: Romance
rated: PG-13 (just cause of the all the kissies and occasional dirtyness)
content warnings: swearing, boy/boy lovin
author note: each story is paired with a song lyric that either fit with the specific chapter or inspired that chapter. i just love these boys together :) whether its the actors or the characters or a mix of both I feel like there's this wonderful chemistry between Cameron and Daniel and I wanted to explore that from a slash and romantic standing.
disclaimer: All characters in this story belong to MGM and the creators of Stargate SG1. The characters are not mine, as much as i would like to keep them and play with them all day n the way I wish they would have them play with each other on the show ;)
"It's so easy to get caught up in what I'm regretting; forget what I got from a wounded heart."
"Gardenia" - Mandy Moore
*takes place right after Season 9's Collateral Damage*
Daniel grabbed the groceries from out of the back seat and closed the car door with a little more force than necessary. Thanks to a barbeque his neighbors were having, with what seemed like the whole damn neighborhood had showed up to, Daniel had to park down the block. As he walked down the street towards his home, Daniel couldn't help but think about the past mission.
That damn memory recall device. That poor woman. Damn Mitchell.
He felt bad for his teammate. Between having to go through thinking he had murdered someone and Cameron also having to recall some of his own not so pleasant memories on top of that, Daniel knew it must have been a difficult time for him. Despite that, Daniel couldn't get over the fact that Cameron had went home with her. Daniel was hurt by it. He was glad that after the briefing Dr. Lam requested to check on Cameron. It gave Daniel the chance to leave the mountain and avoid the Lieutenant Colonel. He knew he'd have to face him tomorrow but, for the moment, he just couldn't deal with it.
As he arrived at his house and turned to head up the walkway to his front door, Daniel stopped momentarily at the sight before him.
By his door sat Mitchell. At the top of the steps he sat back against the door, legs bent with his arms lazily hanging over his knees, and his head leaned back, eyes staring up at the sky, singing to himself.
Daniel's initial reaction was to smile slightly at the sight. But just as quickly as it formed, the smile quickly faded, remembering his anger. As he continued his way up the path Cam saw him approaching and quickly got himself to his feet as Daniel came to stand in front of him.
"I was worried when you didn't answer you're phone," Cameron spoke, his voice laced with concern and nervousness.
"I was at the store. No reception," Daniel replied, focused on unlocking the door and avoiding looking at Cameron. As he opened the door, he resisted the urge to slam it closed behind him in Cam's face. "Come on," he said instead.
Cameron followed him in, closing the door and following Daniel into the kitchen. Daniel dropped the bags onto the counter, back turned to Cameron as he started to unpack the groceries. Cam stood by the table a couple feet behind Daniel, watching him move about the kitchen, saying nothing. They stayed like that for a few minutes until Daniel slammed the fridge closed after putting in a half-gallon of milk and spun around to face Cameron.
"Well?" he said angrily, holding his arms out at his sides.
"Daniel, I'm sorry," Cam sighed.
"Why Cameron? What do you have to be sorry for?" the sarcasm and anger dripped from Daniel's voice.
"For hurting you, betraying you," Cam said sincerely.
"Betrayal?" the anger disappeared slightly and hurt came into the forefront of Daniel's tone. "We're just seeing each other It's not like we're a couple, Mitchell," Daniel said as he folded his arms across his chest.
The self hug. Cameron hated the self hug. He'd asked Sam about it once after witnessing it a couple times when he first joined the SGC. She said Daniel had been doing it as long as she'd known him. He didn't do it as much as he used to but when he did they all knew what it meant. It was a self-defense mechanism. It was a way of kind of protecting himself when he was scared, upset, uncomfortable, hurt. Daniel was doing it now and Cam hated knowing he was feeling like that.
Especially if it was because of him.
"That's not true, Daniel." Cameron stated slowly and firmly. "I told you I'm in this for real. That means you and me. Together. A couple. Boyfriends, partners, whatever."
"How can I trust you mean that?" Daniel asked, the anger dissipating a little more.
"Because whatever happened didn't matter. It didn't mean anything."
"Didn't matter?" Daniel said, the anger quickly returning, his arms dropping from around his chest to now rest on his hips. "So you're just saying it was just harmless flirting? Oh right," Daniel nodded his head sarcastically. "Not flirting. I think diplomacy was the word you used. Then why the fuck did you go back to her place?"
"She said she didn't want to go back to the party, asked me to walk her home because she didn't like walking alone at night," Cameron tried to explain, knowing how lame it sounded as he said it.
"And?" Daniel knew there was more.
"We had a drink, a very strong drink, and she started to get friendly and I just got caught up. Daniel, I'm sorry."
"Got caught up. Sure. Perfectly normal," Daniel nodded, his brow creased. "But not if you're in a relationship. You said it yourself, Mitchell. We're partners. You don't tell someone you're falling in love with them and then go and kiss some random person, on this planet or any other one!"
"Daniel, I know it was wrong, but you have to understand," Cam pleaded, moving closer towards Daniel. "I felt something for her but they weren't my feelings."
"Oh well that makes perfect sense. Why didn't you just say so!" Daniel stormed off past Cameron and headed for the living room. Cameron followed closely behind him.
"Daniel! Would you please just listen!" Cam shouted. Daniel stopped and turned, Cam just a few inches from him. "That memory they gave me when they were showing us the device, the one where the Emissary told Varrick she was named to lead the project. She was in a robe and as he congratulated her he told her that they expected great things from her. And then I....he, hetouched her robe. He was flirting and by imprinting me with that memory, any feelings of attraction or lust he had towards her felt like my own. Like I had been the one flirting. Those impressions were left behind."
Daniel stared at him for a few moments after he had finished, his arms wrapping around his chest as Cameron spoke.
"I didn't know," Daniel said quietly. "I mean it makes sense that if you can recall feeling anger as a result from the false memory of the murder why couldn't you recall a feeling of lust from another memory."
"I got caught up in those feelings, not realizing what I was doing because a part of me wanted it but that part wasn't me, weren't my feelings. I don't want to be with anyone else but you," Cameron tried to reassure Daniel. As Cameron moved to touch Daniel's arm, Daniel pushed it away. He looked up into Cameron's pleading face.
"But that still doesn't change the fact that you did kiss her," Daniel said. "The feelings may not have been yours but the will to kiss her was."
"Dan," Cam searched for more words.
"I think you should go. I'll see you at work tomorrow, Mtichell." Daniel bit the inside of his cheek, the corners of his eyes glistening as he stared at Cameron.
Cameron wanted to say more but he just didn't know what to say, wasn't sure if there was anything else he could say. Daniel was right. So Cam just nodded shortly, and turned away.
"Cam," Daniel called out just as he reached the door. Cameron turned back, afraid to look Daniel in the eyes. Daniel paused for a moment before continuing. "It's not over. Us, I mean. I still want...I just need a little time before I can erase that kiss on your lips with my own. Just give me a little time."
Cameron smiled slightly, thankful when Daniel returned it with a ghost of a half smile of his own.
As he closed the door behind him, Cameron let out a big sigh as he headed down the walkway, relieved in knowing that he didn't just lose something that could be the most important thing in life.