On second thought, maybe this wasn't such a good idea.

My voice cracks as I realize what I'm doing. My first instinct is to jump off of her before I wake up any of the initiates. I resist, considering my instincts got me on top of a Stiff. She stares back at me with wide eyes, and I can't help but to think that I may be a bit crazy for doing this.

But hell, I didn't give a damn.

My body goes frigid, and I don't know what to do. They adrenaline racing through my veins die down, and I start to feel everything.

Pain.

Physically, but surprisingly, mostly emotionally.

What did I plan on doing anyway? Strangling the person I loved? That would only hurt me just as much as it would her.

I felt like crying. I tried swallowing the lump in my throat, but it wouldn't make one movement to go down. The liquid trickling down my nose wasn't helping either. I tried blinking quickly and frequently, but neither of my attempts to not cry where going to change the fact that I was about to do something I would regret to someone I cared about. Someone I loved.

"I love you." I choked out, almost falling onto the floor., because of my pain and guilt. I instantly felt the tears race down my face and as soon as they start, they don't stop. Of course, only I would only cry over Tris.

Okay maybe Alzas, or Winter.

But they were different, I never really liked them this much.

In fact, I don't think I loved anyone enough to stop and think about what damage my actions would have caused.

Tris' eyes were still huge, and stuck on me, as if I made one movement, she would have the bulging eyes carved into her face.

I placed my shaking thumb onto her cheek and gently traced circles. A flush of color appeared where my thumb touched her cheek.

"S-say something." I whispered. "Please."

She opened her mouth in an attempt to say something, but shut it automatically, closing her eyes.

"Peter, stop." She said quietly, sucking in a sharp breath.

I moved my thumb, but didn't get off of her.

"Let go of me please." She spoke louder, opening her eyes.

I didn't move a muscle.

"Please."

I started to get up, groaning as I did. As I rose, so did she. And before I'm on two feet, she roughly grabbed my hair and smashed my face against hers.

I fall lightly back onto the bed, because of shock and balance loss.

It was her who is on top of me now, and there is a lot more physical activity happening.

I feel something wet land on my cheek just before I'm shoved away by Tris. Her cheeks are glistening with tears that I had noticed before.

"Are you happy?" She asked. "This was the reaction you wanted from me, right?" She continued.

I got off of the bed and stared back at her.

Nothing but hurt was carved into her expression.

She walked to the door and twisted the knob.

I raced to her and grabbed her arm.

"Tris, I-"

"Congratulations." She said before twisting out of my grasp and leaving the dorm.

OMGEEEEEE! See that coming? I'll explain who Alzas and Winter are soon enough, because visiting day is in the next chappie! HOORAY! Sorry for not updating. DON'T KILL MEH!