Chapter 3

Jeanine was already in the classroom when we got there. She had changed into a light blue pencil skirt and white blouse. She looked incredible. I sat as far away as I could to avoid being obvious. The lesson went on pretty normally, we learnt about ethanol as a fuel and how fast the speed of light was. I started to dread whether my future at erudite would be full of trying to avoid Jeanine and excel in science and other academics. I will not let my life come down to that, ever.

A week has past and nothing has happened so I was obviously the cause of Jeanine's strange behavior. Now for the challenge of getting over her. How is that even possible? She is gorgeous and everything she says or does makes me fall for her more and more. And now that I know she doesn't feel the same way that's even more heartbreaking. What is even worse is I have to see her at least four times a day. It's now a constant battle to keep my cool around her.

I was in bed one night when a note in a royal blue envelope slipped under my door. It read: "Dear Beatrice, I apologize that it's so late at night and I hoping you get this as soon as possible. But my dear could you please stop by my office? Thank you xx J" I read it 16 times before deciding that I should go. I changed numerous times so id look good and i…even… shaved… I know I'm a disgrace but you never know what could happen.

I swayed back and forth on my front leg to my back several times before plucking up the courage to knock on her office door. She opened it immediately. She had her hair in a perfectly messy sort of way like she was unprepared for me to come, but she still looked amazing. I should make a joke to break the tension.

"People are going to start wondering why you're with me all the time Jeanine ahah."

She laughed a little but she didn't smile, she looked very concerned.

"Come in Beatrice."

I sat on the royal blue sofa meant for two or three people and Jeanine sat opposite in in a single royal blue chair. I looked over to my left to see the wall full of glass that looks upon the cafeteria. I continued to scan the room which was extremely clean and professional, I liked that about her no matter any circumstance she always kept professional. Jeanine kept adjusting her sitting position. She is fiddling with her hands a lot. This isn't going to be good I can tell.

"Uh… so.. Beatrice, I wanted to ask you something or um more like tell you something."

Her eyes were so worried and she kept biting her lip.

I cleared my throat "Uh yeah sure."

I can't believe this is happening; my heart is racing a hundred miles an hour.

"So, Beatrice, Ever since I met you at the choosing ceremony I uh…"

"Are you alright?"

"Yes, don't worry, anyway I think I have feelings for you."

The longest silence I have ever encountered consumed the room. Did she just say that? No I'm dreaming I'm imagining this.

"I'm sorry Beatrice, I didn't want to tell you but I couldn't keep it in anymore."

I was so shocked I couldn't speak or breathe. She stood up and sat next to me on the couch. Oh god.

She moved closer to me and placed her perfectly shaped hand on my leg. It felt like a perfect fit, like it was meant to be there forever.

"I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable"

"No you didn't, I'm just surprised, because I think I really like you and I didn't realize you felt that way about me, so I'm just shocked that's all, Ms. Mathews."

She leant in and whispered, "Call me Jeanine" and she touches my neck with her lips. A small groan escaped my lips from the pleasure. This must be a dream. I slowly trace my hand along her arm. And in return she slides her hand under the back of my shirt and starts to touch it softly sending shivers al through my spine. I put both of my hands around her jawline and lift her head from my neck and push our lips together. The kiss is so passionate that I rock forward pushing her down so her back is lying on the couch and I'm lying on top of her. The feeling of her body against mine is incredible. Suddenly I realize what I'm doing and freak out I retract and sit up out of breath.

"What's wrong Hun?"

"I can't do this right now I'm so sorry."

Jeanine looks at me with a worried look. I run out of the room panting. I head straight for the bathroom and fall down against a wall curled up in a ball and slow down my breathing. This is crazy what am I doing.