Chapter 4

I've been avoiding Jeanine for a whole week, don't get me wrong its hard on me because I just want to be around her all the time but I'm so scared of talking to her. The last time we used our mouths to communicate we had our tongues down each other's throats. People have noticed something is up with me, I've just been saying I'm tired, I can't use this excuse much longer I need to confront this situation. I don't know how though because she has also been avoiding me and she hasn't even been our teacher because she's been "sick". Bullshit she has been sick. I ask around my fellow initiates and they say she comes back tomorrow.

I start to plan. Thoroughly.

All preparations fly out the door as I spot her staring down at me from her office windows. That's it I've avoided this long enough so has she. As I stand up I look at her as she quickly turns away from the window as if getting ready for my arrival.

As I enter her office I shake so much. She takes a deep breathe in, this makes me a little awkward. I just start casually.

"So you've… uh been…uh sick for a while."

"We both know I haven't been sick Beatrice."

"So you were avoiding me?"

"I was avoiding the situation rather than confronting it because I wanted to protect you"

"Wow, I didn't know you actually cared about me that much."

"Well I do"

This makes my heart race twice as fast I ask to leave because I simply can't deal with this conversation right now.

For the next whole week she won't stop looking at me. Whenever I'm in class or I pass her in the hallway she stares at me like she could lunge at me at any moment. So therefore every time I see her I find it hard to control my emotions. This is ridiculous I need to snap out of this nonsense immediately.

I keep trying to change my mindset and tell myself that I'm overthinking the whole thing and she doesn't like me as much as I like her. But then I remember that night, how could that happen if she didn't like me?

I can't stop thinking about her.

This is insane.

We are gathered today to have a formal meeting with all of erudite. Great I have to sit in a hall for an hour trying not to be obvious, I hope Jeanine tries her best too I cant handle this much longer. As I walk in to find my seat I spot Jeanine extremely fast and she has seemed to sense that I have entered the room. She looks up at me from the lower seats of the auditorium smirks and nods and looks away. She is glad I am here, that gives me a certain comfort that I adore. The meeting is about an uprising from the faction-less I'm trying to pay attention because this is a topic I'm interested in but I keep looking at Jeanine every time I try and concentrate I find my eyes wondering towards her beautiful blond hair and perfectly curved body. My heart races and my anxiety levels shoot up and I had to get out of there. People around me make small murmurs as I stand. This draws the attention of Jeanine. I race to the bathroom hoping she wouldn't follow me. I slam the door of a cubical shut and lean against the wall taking a moment to breathe. Once I'm calm I hear a distant steady beat of heels slowly getting louder and louder as someone approaches the bathroom. I am praying its not Jeanine, but at the same time I'm urging it to be her. The footsteps stop very close to the cubical I'm in. There is a long silence then suddenly I hear her beautiful sexy voice that makes me shiver every time I hear it.

"Beatrice, darling are you alright?"