Chapter 12:
Beatrice just left the room and my heart was in a flurry. My head wanted to end this but my heart wanted to hold her. I'm her teacher, this is so unprofessional of me, and I'm in erudite I should know better.
I don't know what to do.
What do I say to her next time I see her? She is so young and naïve she doesn't know what love is but I can feel how much she loves me. And I love her too but I can't let myself. I just can't.
I head to my sleeping quarters still contemplating what I should do. All I really want to do is fuck her, but I can't keep such a scandalous secret like that from the board. I have bigger things to worry about like organizing dauntless to wipe out abnegation. I can't go through with that while I'm in a relationship with someone originally from that faction that is just unethical of me. But I feel so strongly for her I just don't know what to do. She is in erudite she is smart why can't she see this is a terrible idea?
This can't go on I will tell her in the morning.