Chapter 14:
I sat on my bed that night thinking about, about our argument and what I would say to her… in tutoring that is… like I know that we will be learning… but we will do other things too, I'm sure of it.
I really need to just focus. And I still haven't found to right time to talk to Jeanine about her presentation and how bad divergent's were. She is so intelligent I'm surprised she hasn't figured out I'm one yet.
All day I keep checking the time to see if its 4 o'clock yet, because that means I get to see her, which is what I desperately want.
When it gets to four o'clock I walk to her office, but on my way I pass two tall aggressive looking men who are holding an unconscious girl who has bruises on her face, her hair is messy and she looks like she is seriously hurt. They look straight at me as they carry her down the hallway, clearly trying to dispose of her. There's only one place that girl could have come from… Jeanine's office.
I swallow hard and tentatively walk towards the office door, I can hear Jeanine's muffled voice and it sounds like she's on the phone. I take a moment before I knock in a light timid way. I hear her respond with "come in" and take a couple of breaths, not sure what I'm expecting to see in her office… will there be blood on the floor? Will it be all messy? Will there be someone else tied up and being beaten?
No.
It was as clean as ever which was more disturbing in a weird way. She starts to walk over to me in her black pencil skirt and white blouse:
"Sorry Beatrice, I'm a bit out of sorts today."
"I can see that…."
She just stared at me and I could see her thought process trying to decide weather or not I saw the girl.
"Please, sit down."
She continued after an awkward pause, which came from my silence
"I'm glad you came today." She said, trying to get me to spill about the girl.
She all of a sudden said something that shook me:
"I need to know I can count on you to enforce the law "
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"There are divergents being hidden in abnegation, and your parents are hiding them."
"How dare you accuse my parents."
"Beatrice, I'm sorry that was out of line."
"Who was that girl?"
"Girl?"
"Don't act dumb, you're in erudite."
"She was a divergent."
"I don't get what is so bad about them." I said under my breath
"They threaten our system."
The hatred in her voice utterly scared me, what would she do is she ever found out that I was divergent?
The heaviness in the room lifted because I said nothing.
"So, Beatrice, what am I tutoring you on today?"
"I don't feel to well I might just go back to my room if that ok."
"Is there anything o can do for you darling?"
"nope."
And I walked out… I didn't just walk out of her office, I walked out of erudite, I walked out of her life. It's way too dangerous for me to be around her and I have no idea if her love for me would ever balance out her hatred for divergents.