After lunch time at the Wesley's Harry went outside to take some fresh air and thinking about what have happened , in spite of their victory nothing returned as it was, in spite of what everyone keep saying that everything will be alright he was sure that nothing will be alright anymore it was hard to believe that they will be able to move on and have a normal life after what they've been through, after all, those people who they've lost and all that fear that they've faced.

When he get back inside he saw Bill, Flur ,Gorge and Mr. Wesley trying to calm Mrs. Wesley dawn after she was in a deep fit of tears again , he immediately went upstairs to Ron's bedroom and as he has expected Hermione was there as well

Harry: "Hi"

Hermione: "Hi , where have you been ?"

Harry: "Out. I want to talk to you guys " and he sat at the edge of the bed facing his best friends "I was thinking um …. I mean I think I need some time alone"

Ron: " You do realize that you were out alone and you came here to join us, don't you ?"

Harry: "That's not what I meant Ron , I want to go away for a while"

Hermione: " What are you talking about Harry? Where do you want to go?"

Harry: " I don't know I just need to be alone for sometime "

Ron: "Why? Is there something wrong ? is anyone bothers you in here ?"

"No Ron, nothing wrong , I just need to be alone I need to think a little bit "

Hermione: "You need to think about what?"

He wasn't sure if he should tell them what in his mind or not would they understand ? he did not think so, even Harry himself didn't quite understand what's going on with him. He just said "Everything"

But his best friends knew there's something wrong, something prevents him from celebration their victory against Voldemort

Hermione: "I don't know Harry, we need each other right now, we finally had a chance to relax. Aren't you tired of running away ? "

"I'm not trying to run away all I need is to be alone what's wrong with that?"

Ron: "She got a point mate why are you want to be alone anyway when you can be here with all of us ?"

He looked at them and he knew they won't understand so he just said : "guys don't worry about me ok? I'll be fine and I'll write to you and maybe after a couple of days I'll be here, I need this ok ?"

He knew that Ron and Hermione were pleased with his decision but he has to go. So around the sunset he made his way out having absolutely no idea where he was going it's like his feet was walking without consulting his mind.

After almost half an hour of walking he stops he know now where he wants to go, he disappeared from where he was standing and in a few seconds he was standing in front of ( 12 Grimmauld place ).

When he entered inside he found himself in a long, dark hallway he pulls his wand out of his pocket and whispered : "Lumos"

He stood at the kitchen door he never saw this place so empty except that time when he came here with Ron and Hermione when they needed a place to hide in, he never liked this place so much but the memories he had here was priceless especially those ones with Sirius. It was really painful to be here again.

He made his way upstairs to Sirius's bedroom it was a beautiful room with black and silver decoration , simple but perfect, he sat on Sirius's bed looking at the pictures on the bedside table , there were two picture frames one has a picture of Sirius and his parents on their wedding day and the other was a picture of Sirius standing next to him , taken two years ago on the Christmas eve .

He was looking at Sirius , he looked very happy in this picture putting his arm around Harry's shoulder and smiling to the camera .did he knew that this will be the last picture of him ? did he know that he'll die a month after this picture ?

" did you have to go ? " Harry said "did you have to leave me ? WHY ?"

He was yelling and smashing things around him : "Why you broke your promise ? remember when you said that when all this over we'll be a proper family ? well, it's over where are you now ? why you gets my hopes up that finally I will live a normal life with someone who will care about me someone who will give me the family that I never had then you just go and leave me behind cannot able to forgive myself for killing you?"

Yes , for Harry he was sure that Sirius death was all his fault, to be specific every bad thing had happened to Sirius was his fault. First, he has been sent to Azkaban because he was trying to save him and his parents , and then when he finally escaped and found that disgusting rat Peter Pettigrew who betrayed his best friends and accused him of the crime and he finally got the chance to revenge, Harry stopped him. Because of that Pettigrew run away again and left Sirius lives in the darkness for two years and then die trying to protect Harry.

How could Harry forgive himself after all that?

He felt that he have lost a part of his heart when he lost him .

He could understand why people may not understand his pain , to them he was only Harry's godfather that he knew for only less than two years . but to Harry Sirius was way more than that , he was the only person that made Harry understood what a family really means , every time they have sat together and talked about Quidditch , his friends , Hogwarts , his parents or literally anything he felt like he was talking to his best friend he felt that it's like he knew Sirius for too many years, they had a very strong relationship and friendship, they were so close, he was like his close friend that maybe closer than Ron and Hermione.

While he was suffering from his own thoughts he felt someone hit him with a big stick in the back of his head : "ouch" he turned around and found Kreacher stand in front of him : "Oh the young master ! Kreacher thought there is a thief trying to steal things that belong to the noble family of Black "

Harry: " Kreacher ! I didn't know that you still here"

Kreacher : " I will always be here master ,till I die. Kreacher have to protect the house as long as he is alive" then he asked: " is the young master going to live here in the Black family house ? "

Harry : " I'll stay here for a while"

Kreacher : " do you need anything then sir"

Harry: "well, I was wondering if you can clean my room ?"

Kreacher : " sure sir"

Harry: "Thank you, I'll be here call me when you finish"

And that was the second chapter. what do you think about it ? and where do you see the story goes ? I'd love to see your expectations

Have a lovely day

-R