He woke up slowly in the next morning, searching for his glasses on the bedside table he did not need to be looking for too long , the sunlight filled the whole room and the pillow was holding his head strongly. But his stomach was telling him that he desperately needs to eat the last thing he ate was lunch the day before at the Weasley's . Kreacher was already prepared the breakfast when he arrived at the kitchen , there's really something weird about Kreacher despite his bad behavior his cooking was always delicious even if it was a simple breakfast meal it was really good. He smiles to himself a little, he really ate too much he must stop now and go back to his bedroom to write a letter to Ron and Hermione telling them that he's doing fine and he will stay here in the main time. he made his way to his bedroom but he suddenly notices a door next to the kitchen that he never saw before " Kreacher, can you come here for a second ? " he said

Kreacher: " yes sir"

Harry was referring to the door : " what is this ?"

Kreacher: " this is the Black family library"

Harry: "you mean it was here the whole time?"

Kreacher:"Yes sir, it's been here since Mr. Black has built this house"

Harry: " why I haven't seen it before then?"

" because when mister Sirius came back to live here again he has put a spell on it to hide it from everyone, " said Kreacher

Harry : "Why"

Kreacher: " He said that this house already full of dark magic it doesn't need a library full of dark magic books as well"

Harry : " Um okay thanks ,you can go"

Well, it's a bit strange that Sirius never talked about it before , but to be honest, that didn't surprise him, he knew how much Sirius hated his family and how much he hated their obsession with dark magic. He ignored that door and walked upstairs.

He almost spent the whole day cleaning around in an effort to make the house a pleas where human beings can live , despite Kreacher irritation about it , he wasn't one of those people who sit the whole day doing nothing , besides he couldn't trust Kreacher with cleaning , living in a dirty house clearly wasn't thorny problem to him. After hours of cleaning, hunger has become something can't be ignored , he cleaned the dirt stuck in his flesh and went to the kitchen to eat something but dinner wasn't ready yet so a little relaxing on the couch can't be a bad idea . eyes closed and muscles unbend and he felt very comfortable after a very long , after nearly half an hour Kreacher Informed him that dinner is ready he walked into the kitchen following his house elf but suddenly he stopped he couldn't ignore this door anymore he was thinking , what if something about that vile can be found in there ? the vile was something he couldn't stop thinking about lately and Sirius of course! It's like he finally has time to grieves properly.

It's been two years since he has gone but Harry didn't actually have so much time to think about it. Right after Sirius death the wizarding world knew for sure that Voldemort is back, so Harry had a new mission, which is finding any sort of information that would help him to destroy Voldemort, then he found out about the Horcruxes and he start to collect them and destroy them by the help of Dumbledore, and then when Dumbledore died he have to find the rest of them along only with the help of Ron and Hermione , and then like all this wasn't enough , the ministry fell and Voldemort was in charge so he ran away with Ron and Hermione after they become wanted. That was definitely two years of hell

His only wish when he woke up that day after he killed Voldemort he was if Sirius was there, he wanted to tell his beloved godfather that it's over , he killed Voldemort and he have nothing to be afraid of anymore, nothing threat his life and they can live together and look for each other like any normal family. but that never happened

So if there any chance to find something that may help him to bring his godfather back he won't miss it, he ran to the library ignoring that call from his stomach that eager to be filled with some food, he start searching inside a sea of books hoping to find any kind of information about the vile.

After almost two hours of searching he give up, he couldn't find anything related to that vile. Anyway, maybe it has nothing to do with dark magic? Who knows ? with that thought in mind, he left the library and went straight to eat his dinner.

After two weeks at the Weasley's kitchen :

"why it took him all this time ? what if something happened to him ?" said Mrs. Weasley

" mom your talking like his five years old, he'll be here any minute, relax," said Gorge

Mrs. Weasley looking through the window : "Ron are you sure that he told you he'll visit today ?"

Ron: " yes mother , yes he said he'll be here today?"

"good afternoon, sorry I'm late," said Harry who was just arrived standing next to the kitchen door

Mrs. Weasley : "Oh good afternoon, sweetheart we're waiting for you come on sit , you must be very hungry"

After the lunch Ron asked him to join him and Hermione to his bedroom, of course, they wanted to know how he's feeling right now after he spent two weeks in his godfather house away from them

Hermione : " well, fell better now Harry ?"

Harry: " yeah a bit, you ?"

Hermione: "yeah we're doing great"

Harry: " actually guys I want to talk to you about something"

Ron: " what is it, Harry"

Harry: " well, I was thinking about Sirius recently I mean um… maybe we can bring him back again ?"

Ron: " aren't you tried that before?"

Harry: "No Ron , I'm not trying to bring him back as a ghost . I know that I cannot do that unless if Sirius himself have made specific procedures before he died"

Hermione: " so what exactly are you trying to do? "

Harry: " I don't know Hermione I need you to think with me. maybe there's another way ?"

Hermione : " do you remember what Dumbledore once told you, Harry ? There's no spell that could bring anyone back from the death "

Harry: " I know that, but he didn't die from a spell did he?"

Hermione: "No but I mean "

Harry interrupted her :"He fell behind the vile, what if there's a way to break the vile or something ?"

Ron shared a look with Hermione for a few seconds before he finally said: "Look, Harry , I know it's hard but you have to let it go , he died and you need to accept that and move on"

Harry: " but guys"

Hermione stopped him :" Harry I agree with Ron , you can't live like this. you finally free to live your life without anyone tells you what to do, you need to forget about this , please Harry I'm worried about you ,we all are "

Harry: " you don't understand I can't let it go , I tried a lot but I can't stop thinking about him and about what I've done to him"

Hermione: " you haven't do anything, none of what happened was your fault seriously when are you going to understand that ?"

Harry: "I know that you're trying to make me feel better and thank you, but it was my fault. If I haven't gone to the ministry that day he would've been alive now"

"No Harry it wasn't your fault if there is anyone we could blame on what had happened it would be Voldemort and fortunately you've killed him, " said Ron

Hermione: " His right it wasn't your fault Harry, anyways you need a distraction don't you ?"

Harry: " what that supposed to mean ?"

Hermione: " Hogwarts of course"

Ron: " please tell me you're kidding"

"No Ronald I'm not , we need to succeed in (NEWT) tests if we still want to work in the ministry, aren't we ? They don't accept anything less "

" I don't think we need ( NEWT ) to manage that , after everything we've been through right ? " said Ron

Hermione: "No Ron we do, we defiantly do "she was looking at Harry who seemed agrees with Ron " come on guys it's Hogwarts that we're talking about don't you miss it already"

"Not really, " said Ron

Hermione continues ignoring the last comment : " I will spend next week with my parents then we'll meet again on September first at the platform 9 ¾ deal ?"

" No," said Harry : " I'm not going back to Hogwarts "

Hermione seem like she's lost her patience : " what's going on with you Harry ? shouldn't you be happy by now? I just don't understand. You're not yourself lately"

Harry : "You really expect me to be myself after everything ?"

Hermione: "What is everything ? what exactly that you're talking about ? because to me it seems like you pretend like it's just you who have suffered, it wasn't easy for all of us ok ? but we need to move on, we need to be happy that it ends "

Harry : " I never said that Hermione I know it was hard for everyone I know that but it's just …. I mean ….you know what ? never mind"

He knew that she will never understand. no one will , but she was right about one thing , he is not the same person anymore and his not really sure if he will ever be again

I worked harder in this chapter and I really hope you like it

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