When I awoke my mom was sitting on my bed looking at me.

"Honey, where were you last night, your father and I were so worried about you." Asked my mom

"I was in the library after school and fell asleep, I'm fine now." I said, not entirely telling her I was in the member library , thus having to tell I was looking up a way to cheat dauntless initiation.

"Oh I'm just glad you're safe" my mom said as she rose of my bed and walked out of my room calling to my brother to wake up. Well now that I am awake I might as well get up, I thought and walked over to my dresser to get ready for the day. After I changed into my dark blue Erudite jacket and shirt and pants, I put my hair up into a but at the bottom of my head, a abnegation hairstyle. It got it away from my eyes so that was all I cared about. That was one thing I hated about my hair, it was always in my face if I didn't put it hair was medium length and dark blonde, not my favorite part about myself but not compleatly horrible. Today was a weekend and I had the whole day to tell James about the faction book and read more about dauntless. I walked over to James room across the hall and peared in. He was sitting at his desk reading a book. When I walked he closed the book and looked up.

"James I need to talk to you about something"

"Am I about to learn why you fell asleep in the library last night and came home and 1 in the morning." he asked calmly.

"Yeah….. So yesterday I kind of got a slip for to go into the members library and tried to find a book on dauntless initiation and couldn't find one so I walked around the library, got lost then a book fell on my head and it was a very old book about the factions and then I started reading it and fell asleep and when I woke up it was 12:30."

"May…" James said while burying his head in his hands "You are absolutely crazy and amazing...Can I see the book you got ?"

"Sure ." I said, so I got up and walked over to my room to get the book. When I came back James had cleared out his desk to make space for the giant book. I placed it down and flipped to the section on Dauntless initiation. "There." I said pointing to a small paragraph in the corner of a page.

"Dauntless initiation will be the hardest out of all the factions. First initiates must jump on the train and ride it until they reach dauntless headquarters. Then they will jump off onto the roof of building 25A. On the south edge of the building there will be the hole. Initiates must jump of the side of the building and fall 7 stories into a net placed at the bottom. There will be no danger in jumping of the roof, this will be a scare tactic only. Any initiates that do not get this far in initiation and do not read the bottom of the net will become factionless. From there initiates must learn skills that dauntless leadership find fit to second stage of initiation is fear simulations. Initiates will be put into a simulation that will make them face their worst fears. They will need to slow down their heartbeat and breathing to pass the simulation. In the simulation they will think it is real, initiates will not remember that it is not third stage is fear landscapes, it will take the physical training from stage one and the mental training from stage 2 and put them together. In fear landscapes initiates will know that they are in a simulation." When James finishes reading he looks up at me will a small grin on his face. "May, I think you could be number 1 in your class." he says

For the next months I train with James everyday after school and learn to fight and aim. I pretty much already knew how to fight so that wasn't much of a big deal but my aim wasn't the best. Since our faction is Erudite we aren't allowed weapons and so I had nothing to practice with so we used pencils as a substitute. Soon enough after 2 years of practice I could take down James is 4.56 seconds and throw a pencil form 100 feet and make it stick in a dot on a thick textbook. I was proud with myself.

The next thing I needed to learn was control, how to control my breathing and how to control my body. Since I wouldn't know I was in the fear simulation I needed to learn to cope with fear that I was real. Me and James came up with a strategy to deal with the fear simulations. The strategy was to stand up or sit on the floor with your arm sticking out besides you and talk. I talk about books. Not textbooks or non fiction, I would talk about fictional books. The one thing that you need to know about me is that I love to read, my favorite series are Harry Potter, Hunger games, The selection and thousands of other books and series that I've read. I read when I'm nervous or scared or sad or happy or anytime. So I practiced and practiced to make my response to fear and response to the fear simulations to not be afraid.

On the before the aptitude tests James walks into my room after school.

"May I have an idea and I think you might like it."

"ok..What is it?" I asked

"Well when you transfer to Dauntless you have the opportunity to make a new identity for yourself and recreate yourself. So I have the idea that when you get to Dauntless you don't talk at all, we can create cards for you will keywords and also blank ones so you can communicate with people. You still make friends and everything but you don't talk at all. The only time you speak is at night."

"At night? What?"

"Let me explain. You love to sing,right?"

"Yeah.."

"So at night find a place in the dauntless compound that walk around and sing, your voice is beautiful someone will probably notice, when someone does notice you go back to being silent and act like that wasn't you singing. And when you talk for the fear simulations just act like you didn't say anything. Also for the fear landscapes to get through you can sing also instead of talking."

"James...That's an amazing idea. It will make me stand out and make me mysterious. But once I finish initiation I want to talk again, I can't give up speaking forever."

"Also you can laugh, but not a lot just a little and special intervals."

"I love it. Truly. Now let's get going mom and dad will kill us if we're late for dinner."

Dinner is pasta with pesto me and James favorite.

"So are you worried about the aptitude tests tomorrow?" asks my dad

"No"

'Not really"

"Good, you have nothing to worry about" says my mom