I really hate mornings. At least it is friday and I don't have anything to do this weekend which means I'm locked in my room all weekend avoiding Anna.
I go into my bathroom brush my teeth and hair. Rebraid my hair over my shoulder and go back into my room to change. I put on a black pair of skinny jeans a grey shirt and a black hoodie that hides my face.
I go downstairs and hear Anna in the kitchen eating breakfast. I'm not very hungry so I put my shoes on and head out the door before Anna notices I'm there.
I walk down the street with my head down. Thinking. Hoping that today will go better than yesterday. I see a white car ahead of me. Its a white mustang convertable. I don't recognize it so I don't worry about it knowing that it will just become the car of one of the people who make my life a living hell.
I get to school at 7:45. With 20 minutes before the bell rings I walk into the building and to my locker. A note falls out.
Elsa,
You are the biggest whore I've ever laid my eyes on. I hope you choke on dick and die. How dare you bump into Toothianna yesterday and not say sorry! If I were you I would do everyone a favour and kill yourself. Nobody likes you anyway. Next time I hear you did something to my friend I'm going to beat your motherfucking ass!
Best wishes,
Belle
Well so much for a decent day.
RING!
There's the bell time for homeroom. I get my stuff from my locker and head to homeroom throwing the note out on the way. I get there and I see everyone out of their seats and watching Gaston and Aladdin fight over who's better at something. I took no interest and sat in the back of the room. Jasmine and Belle walk into the room to break up their boyfriends and that was the end of the drama in homeroom. I kept getting dirty looks from Belle and her little circle of friends that just happened to include Toothianna.
RING!
That was the end of homeroom. On to Geometry.
I get there and Mr. Callahan was sitting in the front of the room with a teaching task for us to complete. I like math but not the people in the class. Anna and Hans are in this class and I see them all the time gropping each others privates in the middle of class. Its disgusting. We were learning SOHCAHTOA. Or sin, cos, and tan. I found it fairly simple and finished 20 minutes before class ended.
"Very nice Elsa! I'm very impressed!" said Callahan and he gave me a smile. Probably the only one that I'll get all day.
"Thanks Mr. Callahan."
For the rest of class I read Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. (A/N: For my readers who are fellow Potterheads. I'm a Slytherin and Deathly Hallows is my fave book and movies of the entire series! Ok I'm done now!) I got a few weird glances but otherwise geometry was painless today.
RING!
Damn! Time for gym.
I walk through the halls and everyone bumps into me as if I'm not even there. At first it would bother me but now I don't even feel it. In my eyes its just how life is. You get pushed and shoved but you just keep moving forward not looking back. You don't worry about what happened in the past. At least thats what I try to do, but sometimes its very hard to do.
I get to gym and we have a substitute teacher so I go up on the highest part of the bleachers and put out my book once again. I've read this book so many times its almost impossible. My favourite part is when Harry plays dead and everyone thinks he's dead. Ginny starts crying and Voldemort is boasting about killing him. But then out of no where Harry pops up and he isn't dead. The part that gets me everytime though is when Harry is looking at Snape's memories in the pensive. That part makes me cry everytime whether in the book or in the movie.
I look up to see the althetic ones like Merida and Astrid playing basketball and volleyball.
Gym goes by fairly quickly and before I know it I have to go to World History Cultures. The teacher Dr. Tennant (A/N: Doctor Who fans anyone?) is very good and he always keeps class interesting. Right now we are reading about the Holocaust and writing an essay. God I hate essays. The questions are always so confusing and dumb that I can never answer them. But he was nice enough to give us an intro paragragh so I got my rough draft half finished by the time lunch came around. I dreaded lunch everyday. Not because I sit alone but because thats when everyone finds time to harrass me. What really hurts is the Anna is usually the one to start it. I get my lunch but I'm not particlarly hungry even thought the last time I ate was yesterday at lunch.
I see Anna making he way over here with a scowl on her face.
"I saw that you left this morning without even having breakfast with me. What a pity."
Sometimes I compare Anna to Umbridge she would play a very good Umbridge.
"Sorry I wasn't hungry."
"Ouch! That hurts! I made breakfast and everthing but you don't even have enough courtesy to come join me. How rude." she stated with a fake sad expression on her face. "You know I heard that you had a run in with Toothianna yesterday."
"Ya so what?"
"So what? So what! She was very upset that you bumped into her and didn't even apologize. Now thats not the Elsa I know. Oh wait I don't even want to be related to you! All you do is hide in your room! What are you afraid of me or something? Oh big sissy is scared of little sissy!"
"Anna please go away."
"No because you want to be a bitch and purposely hurt my friends. I hate you Elsa!"
She looked around and saw that she had gathered the attention of a few people.
"We will continue this conversation at home. Ice bitch." And she left.
Thank god she didn't hit me or anything. But now I don't want to go home. I'm afraid of how she is going to end this 'conversation'.
Lunch ended and I went back to History where I finished my rough draft and turned it in.
"Thanks! Elsa right?"
"That would be correct Sir."
"May I ask you a personal question?"
"Ya sure. What is it?" Nobody asks me questions let alone personal ones.
"I noticed that you have very good marks but not many friends. Why is that?"
Wow. This guy just jumps right into it doesn't he?
"Well I don't think many people like me that much Sir. I mean I used to have friends but people are overrated I believe. My only true friends are books. Books are a very powerful weapon to arm yourself with."
"Very right you are Miss. Elsa. Books are very powerful friends they can take you anywhere in this universe in just a few words and words are even stronger than books. But where you're worng is your mindset that people are overrated. If you just took the time to get to know some people with the same interests as yourself then you will find that people can be very beautful indeed."
"Well thank you Sir I will keep your words in mind."
"No problem Elsa and may I just say your essay is fantastic!"
"Thank you Sir!" And I blushed when he started complimenting me.
"Awe! Elsa has a crush on Dr. Tennant! Just wait until everyone hears about this!"
Shit! It was the schools gossip queen. Every school has one and for Fantasy High ours was Ariel Voice. Damnit! this was going to be all over the school by the time class is over, which was 5 minutes.
"Now that is inappropriate for a student to have a crush on a teacher and vice versa. Now why do't you stop gossping for 5minutes and do something your Holocaust essay." Dr. Tennant took charge of the situation and Iwas grateful that the teasing had stopped for a little bit.
RING!
Time for the last class of the day. Spanish. I like Spanish its not to hard but not easy either. I walk into Ms. Cortez's room
"Buenos tardes clase!"
"Buenos tardes Ms. Cortez!" The whole class said with no emphasism whatsoever.
"Ok take out your Do Now books and copy down the words that I'm going to put on the progector and copy them 3 more times."
We had to copy down words for places. And for me it didn't take very long and so I'm left sitting there for a long time before we get our Do Nows checked and passed up to the front.
"Today we will be reviewing your colours and numbers that we learned in the begininng of the year. Don't want you forgeting now do we?"
Class goes by very fast reviewing easy stuff such as colours and numbers that I mastered in the beginning of the year. And before I knew it...
RING!
Oh no. It was the dismissal bell! I would normally stormed out of this hellhole but today I wanted to take as much time as I possibly could getting home.
But my luck didn't let the walk home last long enough. I put my key in the lock turn the knob and step in the door. I close the door, take my shoe off by the door and begin looking around for Anna. I know she's home because I saw her car in the driveway.
I look into the living room. She's not there. I go a little bit look into the dining room which we never use. She's not there either. The last place to look would be the kitchen. I go into the kitchen and there she was sitting at the glass table with two glasses of water sitting on it.
She looks up when she hears me entre the room.
"Go on sit down."
Alright if I was scared before I'm downright terrified. I pull out the chair across from her and sit down nervously.
"Now you are probably wondering why I have done this. Yes?"
I nod yes.
"I want to know why."
"What to know what?"
"I want to know why you are so cold and distant to everyone including me? I don't remember doing anything to deserve this treatment."
What am I supposed to say 'Oh when Mom and Dad died they made me promise to take care of you. That I love you so much and it hurts when you tell me to go die in the very gruesome way possible.'
"Well I'm waiting."
Well I guess what I just came up with in my head will have to do.
I take a deep breath. Here goes nothing. "You remember when Mom and Dad died?"
"Ya what about it?"
"Well before they died they made me promise that if anything happened to them that I would take care of you. Anna I love you very very much. And we only have each other so when you tell me that I should go die in the most gruesome way possible it hurts. It hurts like you wouldn't believe. If you take anything away from this conversation let it be that I love you very much and that Mom and Dad loved you very much."
I just watched her for a second. She just stared at me with a shocked and unbelieving expression.
"Can I think about what you just said and get back to you because this is too much to take in?"
"Ya sure go ahead. Take as much time as you need."
"Thanks."
Anna stood up took her glass of water and went to her room to think. I took my own glass to my room and set my bookbag on the floor. Today wasn't so bad, it was actually pretty good. I didn't get hit. I was called a few names but I can handle it. I took my bandages off and stepped into the shower. I didn't even touch my razor for the first time in a long time. It felt very nice not to hurt myself to relieve pain.
I got out of the shower dryed my hair and braided it once again. I went downstairs in a pair of black sweatpants and a white shirt. I went into the living room and sat down turned on the TV to the news and watched it for a little bit before Anna came in and sat down next to me. She just sat there for the longest time not speaking just staring at her lap.
"Elsa."
"Ya?"
"I'm sorry." She said and as soon as she said that she started crying."I'm sorry Elsa. I'm so so sorry." Her voice was cracking badly."I have treated you like a piece of shit. I said that I wanted you to die. I never even thought about how it would have made you feel. I feel like the shittyest sister ever." Anna was near hysiartics now." I love you too Elsa and now that I've thought about this really hard I hate how I've been treating you..."
I cut her off by giving her a hug and consoling her. After she was done crying she looked up at me and smiled. And for the first time in forever I smiled back.
That night we made dinner together and ate like we did before our parents died. And that night we slept in the same bed like we did as kids.
That night I had a different dream than the one I usually have.
*DREAM*
I'm walking up the stairs in my house and there are candles everywhere. I pass the mirror on the wall and I look older than I am now. I continue down the hall to my room where the candles lead me too and there on my bed was the white haired boy from my other dream he got up with a bouquet of roses in his hand. He handed them to me I smelled them as he got down on one knee.
"Elsa, will you marry me?"
I never got an answer because Anna's alarm started going off.
(A/N: Finally finished with chapter 2. I hope to make all the chapters long ones. I put a whole bunch of references in here. I hope to introduce Jack in this next chapter because I already sorta metioned him. Thank you for the review please keep them coming if you have any opinions on the chapter. Thanks for reading and I hope to update again very soon!)
