Author Notes
I needed to take a break from the DC verse, but don't worry I am still planning new chapters and entire stories but I was getting a little obsessed, so I went back to work on my Sith story to give myself a change, which is sometimes as good as a rest.
These two chapters cover Gothic's bonding with Bastila and what is the start of their relationship (not that either of them would call it that) These chapters are also more spiritual and emotional parts of the story. Gothic will learn a bit about the light side and how the Force works for the Jedi. He won't turn but he will come to understand that the Jedi are not just the good that counters the Sith's evil. It's more complex than that.
When we get to chapter fifteen it will be more adventure/action and less spiritual/drama stuff.
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The visions will take up a lot less of the story now that Sith Gothic is following the will of the Force. They were important but he's going to learn to how to 'listen' better so he won't need to be shouted at in his dreams.
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Sith Gothic. Part 13
"The Jedi shackle themselves in chains of obedience: obedience to the Jedi Council; obedience to their Masters; obedience to the Republic. Those who follow the light side even believe they must submit themselves to the Force. They are merely instruments of its will, slaves to a greater good." - Darth Bane
On Board The Ebon Hawk. Hyperspace.
I hadn't really imagined that it would happen like this, the Force hadn't warned me. Not that I have would expect it to given that there were far more important things for it to inform me about. Mostly it seemed to be trying to make me have children. Which was odd but I assumed that they were needed for something.
Also that might explain what was taking place now. One moment Shan was lecturing me about 'leading Mission astray', which was not remotely what I'd been doing, and the next I'd know we'd been kissing. Rarely do those things happen one after the other, at least not to me.
If I'd been a Jedi I would have stopped this or at least I wouldn't have kissed her back so much, but I was Sith. Our power came from passion and I had to sustain my connection to the Force using intense feelings then I'd rather feel lust than other sinful things. Anger I could manage as I could let it go when I needed to but fear, hate, greed. I just couldn't sustain such emotions for long. They were toxic.
Also while she might regret it later, Shan was consenting in fact she was quite aggressive about the whole thing. Plus she was meant to be all moral and have self-control, not me.
Soon complex thoughts when away as I put my hand around her waist. I start to do rather than think as my worries melted away.
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On Board The Ebon Hawk. Hyperspace
"Mmmm…."
Bastila moaned as she felt Gothic run his hands all over her body, she'd never felt so good while doing something so wrong. The Sith touched her carefully at first, as if she was some sort of fragile piece of art, before giving in to his more animal urges which made it difficult for him to be as gentle as he perhaps he would have liked to have been.
Gothic himself would have had to admit that he was feeling very nervous as he connected with Bastila (of course doing that would involve expressing thought, something he wasn't capable of right now)
After he had explored clothed Bastila's body, he reached behind her and started pulling down the zipper of her outfit. He slowly brought it down, knowing that she would only get more excited if he didn't rush. He didn't even need to think about it as he just knew it would work.
The action had the desired effect on Bastila as she moaned deeply, as she relished the effect her new lover could have upon her body. She wanted to feel more, she was not thinking like a Jedi anymore, she was thinking like a woman who was with a man that she found very attractive.
"Gothic…that...feels….so….good…." the Jedi moaned as his hand grazed the bare skin of her back.
The dark sider couldn't help but smile at the way Bastila purred out her pleasure. Passion was part of his nature he made him stronger and gave him focus. But he put that aside as he finished running his hands down her back.
Then he growled softly as she started to undress the Jedi woman. Bastilla could see the lust in his blue eyes as he removed everything that she wore. He was being the aggressive one now, but Shan wasn't scared as she knew that this Sith would never hurt her. Yes she was concerned about the repercussions, but right now they could be ignored. In turn he could sense that in her.
Their Force Bond had been created long ago, but only now was the true connection being made. Batilla could feel the truth of her lover, and that gave her the will to talk.
"Gothic. Don't make we wait any more"
She was ready now. She didn't need foreplay because she could feel his arousal as if it was her own, and there was the fact that she had wanted him as soon as they gotten on the ship.
When the dark side user growled again and got to work kiss and biting her chest. He seemed to be more interested in marking skin then in actually having sex. His normally loud thoughts were gone it was if his baser nature had taken over. She got the sense that he not been able to express his real feelings for anyone or anything for a good long time.
"Gothic, do not play games with me….I….I want you.. to".
She didn't really have to words, but she didn't really need them.
Bastila looked at him at this moment and the way she blushed was more than enough to make him do as she asked
"If you want me naked, you're going to have ask nicely"
The Jedi felt a bit shy at that moment but she also excitement as she begged him... well she ended up just asking nicely in a rather formal way but for some normally so prudish it took the same amount of effort.
Soon she blushing bright red at the sight of her new lover's naked body. She gently ran her hands over his form, feeling the muscles there, the result of intense training and endured hardships.
Bastila felt like her body was getting hotter with each touch of Gothic's frame, and when she made her way to his face she couldn't help but blush again when they made eye contact.
Then she felt her body heat up even more as she saw Gothic kissed her firmly going down from her neck to her breasts. Then slowly taking his time he kissed and bite his way to the wet part between her thigh, she felt this overwhelming urge of cover herself but she resisted it. She'd committed to this course of action and simply wasn't cruel enough to deny her new lover even if it was the smart thing to do.
He seemed to pick up on her thoughts, even if he wasn't doing much in the way of thinking himself.
"Bastila, maybe we should take this slowly…."
"No" she said firmly "just once I don't want to be... careful".
Not the best choice of words, but it seem to get the message across.
Gothic then went back Bastila's breasts, playing with her nipples all the time knowing via their growing Force Bond that she liked how much attention he was giving that part of her body.
Then feeling the need to touch him she reached down and started to play with the Sith's manhood.
"Gothic…." the Jedi moaned.
This play went on for a bit more as Gothic could feel the heat coming from her sex as well as the wetness and Bastila could feel the hardness in her hands.
Despite what most people thought Jedi were not required to be celibate, it wasn't even encouraged in fact, but many abstained from sex as it led to attachment which in turn led to selfish desires. Separating sex from, if not love, then at least a strong level of affection wasn't easy.
In contrast the Sith were taught to embrace their desires, but oddly this also led many of them to abstain from sex as they too viewed attachment as something dangerous. After all loving someone made you vulnerable, the person you cared for most, could even be used against you as well.
The young Sith didn't give a damn about that sort of thing, as he'd never been trained to avoid attachments. To his people, and many others, falling in love was a wonderful thing. It was celebrated. Even just having a strong attachment to another person was considered a healthy thing.
She knew that it was wrong and against the Jedi Code, but she felt empowered by the fact that she able to feel this way and that she could make someone feel that way towards her. So she would savour it for as long as she could.
Again that was not unnoticed by the Sith and he expressed as much.
"You're enjoying this aren't you?"
Bastila blushed and nodded as she parted from him.
"I am" she admitted "but don't let that stop you from going further"
The Jedi knew just what was going to happen next, she was no virgin even if she wasn't very experienced
"Gothic. Please….do it now….I need you!"
The darksider moved his cock into place at her wet sex, he then moved rather expertly so that he was inside her without further delay, he heard her moan as his dick slid deep inside her.
The Jedi called out again as she felt her pleasure and Gothic's own as well, and she reached out reflexively to hold him closer to her while gently placing her legs around him to make sure that they were close to one another as possible as Gothic began to push even more deeply into her.
Bastila was not a chaste maiden, as Gothic now discovered but she wasn't use to sex either. It hurt her and she couldn't help but gasp in pain at being impaled. But one of the benefits of her training was that such minor pain could be ignored. Besides she knew it wouldn't last.
"Gothic….thank you…."
He didn't say anything he was to busy doing all the work. He quickly began to move out of her pussy, going slowly at first before picking up the pace.
"MMMMMMMMMMM!" the Jedi moaned.
The two began to move with one another's body, each thrust of Gothic's hips was met by Bastila's own movements. Shan felt her body sing with pleasure as Gothic did as well as he began to gently increase the speed of his thrusts as well as the depth of each movement of his cock in and out of Bastila's pussy.
"Harder" she said, and this time it did sound like begging
The pleasure grew and grew even more for them as Gothic began to speed up his dark side power flaring while her light side power seemed to make her feel as if she was glowing.
They were opposites but it was working. He wasn't that evil really but she wasn't perfectly good and that seemed to make a sort of grey that balanced out between them.
"Harder!" she pleaded.
She could feel that he was going to reach his end sooner than he would of liked. Their bond was amplifying the pleasure making it tricky for him to hold back the moment of pleasure, hers was also rapidly approaching but he seemed insecure right now and that worried her. He normally he seemed so sure of himself, but this level of emotional connection would naturally be far more overwhelming for someone who hadn't known the Force until a matter of months ago.
"I want you to cum".
With his confidence reassured she got her orgasm before he did, and after they both went into a restful sleep.
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On Board The Ebon Hawk. Hyperspace
"I should not have done that" Bastila said mostly to herself as she started to get dressed "I am sorry".
Rather than answer right away I looked her over and admired her body. She was thin but it was a thinness brought about by a good diet and exercise rather than due to a lack of eating. She also had muscles but they were subtle so they didn't detract from her femininity. She was soft as well and more gentle than her brash attitude might suggest. Her skin was smooth and she had curves in all the right places. Firm breasts, that were just big for me, and a backside you could bounce a demi credit chip off.
In short she was one sexy lady, she covered in well with clothes and her sometimes annoying personality but now I knew that under all that she was a passionate woman. I had seen what was behind the act and deep down she liked that.
"What shouldn't you have done?" I asked while feeling a little insulted "Had a go at me for napping under a tree or was the sex that was wrong?".
Bastila finished covering herself up and shot me an angry expression that didn't last for long. She didn't blame me, I hadn't forced the issue, in fact she'd started off the whole encounter.
"Both" the female human admitted "I should of controlled myself better. It's not the way of a Jedi to give to such feelings. There is no emotion, there is only peace".
That forced me to snort and then to say.
"Peace is a lie, there is only passion".
She did not like hearing that.
"I'm not going to stand here and listen to Sith teachings".
Okay so maybe it wasn't a total act but we had a proper Force Bond now so I could tell that she didn't really feel mad at me. She blamed herself because she was suppose to be in control.
"You didn't seem to mind me being passionate before" I pointed out "and I am a Sith. Deal with it".
Bastila sighed in defeat.
"I don't know what to do" she admitted while trying not to look at me "a Jedi does not give into her desires and yet the dreams I've been having tell me I must do otherwise".
That was kind of a bummer. I knew exactly how it felt to have... well whatever it was the Force really was, telling you that you were suppose to do things. A galaxy wide energy field should not be able to dictate our actions. So I could only conclude that the Force was in fact somehow alive, and that it had a will of it's own.
"The Sith are taught to see the Force as a tool" I said quickly enough to avoid a protest "but as I understand it Jedi see it as more than a mere thing to be used for your own ends. Your taught to let it guide you, to sometimes even let it control you. The problem you have is that its now telling you do something Jedi aren't suppose to do. You're having a crisis of faith".
"Is there a point to what your saying" inquired Shan
I hadn't really said that very well. However she knew how I felt on the matter so she gave me a further chance to explain.
"Yes" I replied "and it's this: Do you put the faith in the Force which is your ally and the source of your strength, or do you obey the masters? Who for all their wisdom are only people. Which means they can be wrong".
"What about you?" asked Shan "what does all of this mean to you?"
That was hard to answer. I really wished I could smoke as that would help me relax enough to think straight.
"The way I see it is this: The Force, fate, destiny, or maybe even some interfering higher has decided that we need to be together. It's most likely going to end badly but until then we have two options. The first is we can fight it and each other, which will make us both miserable even if it is the smart thing to do. Then when things do go bad it may hurt less in some ways but we could end up both regretting not enjoying our time together when he had the chance"
"What is the other option?" she questioned, while still not looking at me.
"We could just try and be happy for however long this last, so when it does end we can at least look back and know that we did the best we could with the time that was given to us. It's going to hurt either way but at least then we won't end up resenting each other".
All I got in reply was.
"I need to mediate upon this".
And with that she just left.
"Bitch" I muttered.
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On Board The Ebon Hawk. Hyperspace
Why do I have to be here for this?" I complained as Bastila practically dragged to the part of the ship that served as a briefing room, when it wasn't the communications room or whatever else it needed to be.
Well maybe 'practically' wasn't the right word, but I certainly wasn't heading there voluntarily and there may have even been some use of the Force involved.
"Because you're a member of this team the same as me," Bastila explained for the second time since she pulled me my new brooding spot "As such you are required at the briefing."
"I notice that you're not making Canderous around and discuss thing while filling out forms".
The Sith might be dyed in the wool evil, but they really knew how to the lessen the paperwork load.
"Besides aren't you avoiding me?" I asked.
Bastila actually stopped in her tracks, turning to me with shock clear on her face.
"Are you…are you actually telling me that you've finally noticed after two days of being utterly oblivious?"
Clearly I still looked utterly oblivious, which was understandable to me because I really had no idea how we had gone to me expressing the unfairness of having to fill out forms, and feeling both ignored and badly used by a woman I actually had some real affection to... whatever the hell it was she was getting out now.
"We have a Force Bond now" Shan reminded "you should know what I'm feeling".
Sure I would if I was actually connecting to the Force. It was kind of hard to do when you were depressed. Mild depression didn't seem to one of emotions that allowed for use of the Force. It was too passive to close to apathy for a Sith. Plus we'd only had the bond for three days, aside from the really intense sex the only thing I had noticed was that I was having more normal dreams.
"Could you give me a clue. A subject heading maybe?" I requested
Bastila sighed heavily and then dragged me into the med bay. Possible because she thought that I needed my head examined. Which wasn't such a bad idea but I really didn't want her to do it.
"We can just pretend that this never happened because honestly I'm going from confused to embarrassed here" I admitted.
None of which was enough to shake me out of my low level depression. It was going to take more to make my mood change, and who would blame me. The girl of my dreams, or at least the girl who starred in most of my dreams, had seemed accept me totally, linked to me a very spirtually way and then had started to ignore me between being a total bossy boots. If I'd been the woman in this 'relationship' I've of spent most of the last two days crying.
"I just…never mind" she said.
"I'm not stupid, you know" I said indignantly "Actually I'm very intelligent by my world's standards, so if you explain what the problem is I will understand".
Okay so maybe the word 'very' was bit on of an exaggeration, but I was no fool damn it.
"I never said you were stupid," Bastila clarified, while trying to sound kind "It's just that you don't actually seem to care enough to pay the slightest bit of attention to these things".
What things? Briefings? Had I missed a medical exam?
"Maybe I would if I knew what these 'things' were" I tried to explain "I'm stuck on a small ship that's taking an insane course across the galaxy. I'm cut off my powers because I'm depressed.."
"I know how you feel" reminded Shan "my powers are working fine".
"Of course you do" I said not very charitably "you're the one whose all connected to the universe and has at least some sort inner peace. Why do you need to worry..."
Again I wasn't allowed to finish.
"Gothic, do you mind if I ask you a few personal questions?" Bastila asked slowly.
"If this is about the lack of protection, then I can assure that I am clean of STD's".
I hadn't been worried about tha. I had however been worried about her getting pregnant, but there must have been some sort of Force ability that could act of birth control.
Bastila frowned and then said.
"You're clean? That's a rather odd thing to say. I know you shower twice a day because of all that grease you mess about with"
I'd be trying to distract myself by messing about with the local tech. At lot seemed to be similar to what was back home. They had circuit boards, fuses, wires and lots of 2D displays. Heck they even had guns, although they were called slugthrowers and they sometimes had energised bullets.
"No, not that kind of clean" I explained when I realised that my mind had started to wander.
"Then what do you mean?" Bastila asked, a little annoyed with me "What is this 'STD'"
Shan sounded British but we had very different cultures. Actually a lot of Jedi sounded like they could be from the upper classes. Well Revan didn't, she sounded America for some reason, and the Cathar female had a horrible accent.
"Sexually transmitted disease. Basically, I'm saying that you won't get any horrible health problems. I think at this point I should also mention that I am not married nor am I involved with anyone else at this time".
It would of been better to mention these things before, but hey she was the one would been keeping my mouth busy.
"Well that is good to know," Bastila replied dryly.
"Hey you dragged me into the sickbay" I pointed out "and since you aren't having my head examined I just assumed that something more private was the problem. Since you said it was personal I was a bit worried".
Shan frowned as me for a moment before realising that I had actually been concerned for her not myself.
"What I actually wanted to know is what planet you were from?".
Right of course. She naturally want to know stuff like that. Although why this couldn't wait until after the meeting was a mystery to me.
"Oh, that," I said "I'm from Earth".
"Is that in the Outer Rim?" she questioned.
"No I'm from another galaxy" I explained before saying "I thought you knew. Everyone on Korriban found out really quickly so I just assumed you'd have been told".
I half expected her to demand proof. Which wouldn't be impossible as I could easily get a scan in here. She'd seen that I'd had an organ removed that simply didn't exist in humans native to this galaxy.
"So how old are you?" she asked next.
"There are some things you don't ask a person unless you're a lot closer than we are. Those are weight, age, their favourite My Little Pony and if they've ever been Bi-curious enough to experiment with another man".
"Wait, are you saying you've" Bastila began.
"To that last one. The answer is yes because I was pretty wild in college but I found I did like the ladies. As you may have guessed".
A little too much really, but hey there's a reason why I didn't drink white lightening cider any more. Honestly I was just lucky I didn't end up with an STD by the time I had my two NVQs
"What did you do before joining the Sith?" was the next inquiry.
"What's with the twenty questions?" I asked back.
"Just answer me" she ordered.
I got up to leave but she placed her hand on mine.
"Please, this is important" she said,
I could only assume that she wanted to get to know me but this wasn't how people in couples got to know each other. This felt more like an interrogation. Which seemed right as we so weren't a couple of anything.
"Well I was just a guy. I worked. I played on my Xbox. I hung out with friends now and again. I spent my time with my family".
I actually missed them at times like this. No one in this galaxy ever saw me they just saw my potential power and sometimes the danger I represented. I didn't want to go home exactly I just wished I could make a new home here. Trying to find a way would back would be futile because even if I did this was thousands of years ago. All I'd find back home would be smelly cavemen.
"Was there anything else you wanted to ask me?" I asked, now feeling really fed up "or are we going to end up ditching that Jedi meeting because you need to know my favourite colour?".
"It's black" said Shan.
Well yeah, but that wasn't hard to guess.
"There's no point asking what my favourite TV... I mean holo show is because the answer would mean nothing to you. Same for music as well. This galaxy's music sucks".
Well it did in this time period. It was all droid made techno beat crap.
"We can't miss the meeting, Gothic," Bastila said now looking at me like I was a total fool.
"Why not?" I inquired.
"Because there isn't one you idiot" Bastila replied smugly "I just wanted to get you away from you toys".
"Hey those slugthrowers were totally cool" I protested.
"Relationships are against the Jedi Code," Bastila informed me.
Ah now we were getting to the root of things. That or she was being totally random.
"No they aren't" I disagreed.
There was no actual rule about attachment in the code. That was Jedi dogma. Sure it might not end well a lot of the time, but it was the love of a father or a son that defeated Emperor Palpatine.
"They are" she corrected "it is okay for us to have sex but taking it further is forbidden".
"What is the Jedi Code" I asked wanting to prove her wrong.
"There is no emotion, there is peace. There is no ignorance, there is knowledge. 'There is no passion, there is serenity. There is no chaos, there is harmony. There is no death, there is the Force.' That is the Jedi Code" she told me.
Personal I felt the Sith Code was a lot easier to remember.
"Now please explain to me how you get 'You can't have a boyfriend from that'?"
I decided to start the ranting rather than wait for answer.
"I mean, you don't see me interpreting the Sith Code to mean 'I must kill all the Jedi and RULE THE GALAXY!"
A tad over the top but it got the point across. Following the Sith Code did not require you try and rule the galaxy. Sure it encouraged you to gain power but there were lots of ways to gain that.
"That's not..." Shan started.
"And that code is stupid" I said next "There is no emotion, there is peace" I mean what the hell! How can you not have emotions? Why would even want that? If you don't feel things you're just a machine. You might look alive but you'd be empty. I'd rather die than live like that. No love, no family, no friends, no regular sex. Heck you can't even have children. No one should ever have that choice taken from them they by a bunch of old men who wouldn't know what was right for people if you wrote it down and stapled it to their heads, and I include the Sith Masters in that".
I could tell that Shan wasn't going to be convinced but at least she was listening.
"The code is impossible to live up to. If it was just a guide of sorts. Something that...".
That was when she kissed me.
"You're an idiot" she said "and you didn't listen. I said 'Relationships are against the Jedi Code' Sex isn't".
Now that shut me up. Well mostly.
"Oh right!" I said.
"The Force is drawing us together, so you have to try and train yourself to let me go" Shan instructed "but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy our time together. You were right it is better than making each other miserable".
Wow she'd actually listened to something I'd said.
"Now take your clothes off" she ordered as she locked the door.
That was an instruction I was happy to listen to, and I was suppose to be under her command so I did I was told. For once.
Shan also started to undress and that was when the door opened and we both turned to see Mission hugging her pet Gizka, who looked to be a little ill which would explain why the alien teen had entered the room.
The Twi'lek looked absolute shock as she saw that we'd clearly been undressing. We quickly started to cover ourselves, but a little late now.
"Mission! You don't have to unlock every door you see" chided Bastilla "sometimes people are locked in a room because they wish to be".
The Twi'lek was absolutely stunned at this and managed to recover as she blushed to the point her blue skin became purple as she began to try and talk between laughing.
"So I guess you two finally admitted your feelings to one another huh?"
I'd not tried to hide mine. I really had been utterly confused and lost.
"Yes, but Mission..." Shan began
The young Twi'lek grinned at that and she decided to start teasing Bastila before the older woman could explain what exactly was happening.
"So Miss High And Mighty Jedi, has finally admitted that she's in love with 'the tall dark man of her dreams'".
Mission feigned a swoon. It was dramatic.
"I think I missed something" was my comment on that matter.
"She talks in her sleep sometimes" explained the teenage alien "she didn't actually call you that, it was more..."
I never did find out what exactly it was Bastilla had called me because Shan tried to silence by covering the blue skinned girl's mouth with her hand. But Mission soon got lose.
"Oh man, if Carth and the others hear this...I'm going to tell them right now!"
Bastila was so shocked at that announcement she blushed bright red and tried to prevent Mission from telling anybody about what was going on between us. Not that there was much point hiding it. You can't keep something like that hidden for long when you're on a freighter and not at all when some of the crew are Force Users. We all had empathic powers after all.
"Mission Vao! Don't you dare!" half screamed Shan.
As it turned out over excited teenage twi'leks are in fact faster on their feet than annoyed Jedi Padawans. Who knew?.
Author Note
My favourite MLP is Pinkypie in case you were wondering. You'd think it would be Twilight Sparkle given my thing for magic girls, but Pinky always make me laugh when I watch the show with my niece. Hers is Rainbow Dash cause she likes the flying.
Oh in case you're wondering. Shan was lying about the sex thing she does want a relationships she just can't admit it out loud.
Also I'm finding it a lot easier to write about the emotional aspects of sex from a third person POV. I have read way to much fanfiction recently I need to watch some BDSM porn before I get all sappy again, and then I'm going to kill some more aliens.