'I'm trying to understand, are you upset it was neg or you wanted a positive?' Lori was pouring Carol a coffee, Sophia and Carl were on the floor moving around in their own fashion, Sophia wasn't nearly as good at Crawling as Carl but they already tag teamed every part of the lounge and kitchen things they shouldn't be touching.

'We're not ready, I feel like I'm a mouse or a animal trapped on the wheel running but not getting anywhere. I can't stop, I need to talk to him to move on with Daryl,' Carol finally managed to figure out what her problems were. She needed to get it all sorted out in her mind now Ed was sober. To move on with Daryl.

She loved Daryl, so much she didn't know she could love someone as much, a different love than Sophia but all consuming love. I was overwhelming her to a point she could barely breath without it hurting. When he was hurt, the quick marriage. She didn't get all her duck in a line before hand and now she was stuck like a mouse on a wheel running for her prize but not getting anywhere because no one showed her how to step off the wheel.

'Daryl needs to let me off the wheel, I've gotta stop, I need off,' Carol finally said, 'I need him to let me see Ed so I can get off, stop running, before... I had no choice, what happened with Ed was terrible but I don't think that is who he was, Ed running too, I need to let him off the wheel too... I don't' mean I want him back or anything, I just think seeing him going to let me stop running and hopefully he'll stop running,'

'Ok,' Lori was trying to keep up, Carol kept saying they needed to stop running. She wanted to stop running. 'I get it, I think. You need to see Ed to put the baby to bed so to speak, Ed... I guess Rick would say was a victim of his upbringing.'

'I'm not excusing the things he did wrong, but... Every night I close my eyes I see a kaleidoscope of images, since then,' Carol come out with saying to Lori. She'd finished her drink.

'Have you told Daryl?'

'Of course I've told Daryl, I've been telling him over and over, he doesn't get it,' Carol watched Sophia crawl right over top of Carl who was chewing on a toy on the ground.

'No did you tell him that not meeting with Ed was holding you back from moving on with him, having another baby, you felt like you were on a wheel and no one was letting you off,' Lori nailed the problem.

'Not like that,'

'Tell him that to move on you have to do this, face it alone,' Lori told her, 'Lets make an appointment to go see Ed today, just make it, Daryl just has to make one phone call to get your ban lifted, then you get off the wheel,'

Carol nodded, Lori got on the phone to Rick and organized for him to take her out there today. Now all she had to get Daryl to make the phone call.

She pulled up outside the house, looking around at the beauty of it all, she took a breath and pulled Sophia out of her car seat. She grabbed the diaper bag, and was greeted by Daryl on the porch.

'Hi?'

'Hey, take the baby or the bag,' Carol told him, she looked around, everyone was out. She fed Sophia before she come home and moved about putting her down for a nap. Daryl hovered not knowing if they were fighting or what was going on. She left the door open and come out and sat on the couch and indicated for him to sit down. She pulled out the morning after pills and tossed them on the table.

'You want another baby, to move on with Soph and me to start our lives together, you gotta let me move on with you. My way,' She told him.

'You didn't take them?'

'No but until I see Ed I can't even think about bringing another baby into this when I'm unhappy, I need off the wheel, you gotta ring them let me see him,' Carol looked at him she put her hand up to stop him from speaking. 'I've got the same thing going over and over in my head, I can't stop... its like I'm in one of those wheel things, I'm running and not getting anywhere, everything is there but I cant get it... its like I'm on auto pilot, I can't get happy,'

'You wana go back to Ed?'

'You don't understand, I barely understand, I want you, I love you but you gotta let me get off this wheel... I think I can only step off once I face him sober and talk face to face. He saved Sophia, I gotta talk to him, get off... stop having stuff run through my head so we can move on together,' Carol hoped he understood, 'I can't think ... I feel sick all the time,... its tying me up in knots having this big thing between us... can you ring and lift the ban, Rick will take me today... then we can move on with our future and I can stop running, feeling sick,'

'K,'