"I can't deal with this. Specter 2, get Specter 4 and find out more about our estranged guest here. Send for Specter 6 to come here. You know why. Specter 5, I'm assuming you didn't hear me the first time so I'll let it slide, go help Specter 3 with anything." Kanan said with an air of finality that even Zeb wouldn't dare disobey. If Rex was intimidated when Zeb and Hera escorted him out he didn't show it.

"When Ezra gets here, tell him I still want my helmet." Ignoring the glare that Kanan had shot at her for using names when he had made a show of using their code names, she left the room, no doubt ignoring his request and going off somewhere to work on her art.

"Don't be too mad at her. I already know her name and Ezra's from before." Rex managed to yell over his shoulder as he disappeared from sight around a corner.

Kanan chose to once more ignore the frustration welling up inside him at the revelation and meditate while waiting for Ezra to show up. That was the most important problem he had yet to face. It would've been the first one he would've faced too if he hadn't woken up with a problem waiting to be dealt with him in the room. He tried his hardest not to move when he heard the door open so as to at least appear calm.

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This is it. Thought Ezra. Nothing had gone right for Ezra once they set out on that mission. Not only did he fail to impress Sabine, but he now had to confront the fact that he was going to be kicked off the ship. A fact that missions allowed him respite from. Not to mention that guy Rex. Ezra didn't like him. As far as he could tell the guy had done nothing wrong, but that didn't mean he didn't like him. He had an air of authority that royally pissed him off, even if he never acted on it. It has nothing to do with the fact that Sabine practically drools at him- which she doesn't! Then there was the issue of those incidents. Don't even think about that Ezra.

Why not Ezra? You killed those people. Without remorse, even now, you don't regret it.

SHUT UP!

Ezra didn't even realize he had reached the door a minute ago and was just standing there arguing to himself. With a deep breathe, he tried to calm himself and stepped inside.

"Kanan?"

"Ezra, come here. Sit with me. I can't exactly get up to walk with you." The cowboy jedi said with a chuckle, hoping to lighten the mood before things seriously got dark.

"Ezra…"

"I'm sorry Kanan. I know. I'll pack up my things." Ezra said with a straight face, determined to leave with dignity.

"NO!" Kanan shouted, shocking even himself. "No, Ezra. I wan- we need you to stay. You can use the force. It's a rarity and we need to teach you the ways of the Jedi. To fight the empire."

Ezra tensed up and almost gasped. So he knew about what happened too! He visibly paled, and was afraid Kanan would judge him, and was secretly hoping he would be judged so he could stop tormenting himself and put a face to the voices constantly judging him in his head ever since the 1st incident.

"I… can't. It… scares me."

"I understand Ezra. The force is a large thing, almost omnipotent, and an entire way of life, I'd be a little overwhelmed if you weren't."

"No. The power. Kanan. You know what I'm talking about. I willed myself to do those things, even if I didn't exactly plan them out that way. Training me to harness it would only put more people at risk." Ezra was past the fear, glad he knew they wanted him there, and even more so that Kanan was willing to train him. Now he was just arguing out of passion as he put all the inner turmoil he'd been feeling to words.

"You've glimpsed the Dark Side of the Force Ezra. It's disturbing and the hold it can have over people even more so. It warps your sense of perception, and the fact that you've obviously been regretting what you did only proves to me that you're stronger than most people for being able to glimpse The Dark Side and look away."

Ezra wanted to argue with him. He couldn't trust himself, and he didn't know if he should even risk thinking like Kanan and trusting himself to wield that power again. "I… thank you for having so much faith in me Kanan." And for not actually saying what that deed was.

"I'm thinking of introducing you to my Master. For training."

Ezra's heart lurched.

So he doesn't want me.

"While I attempt to find him, I'll personally train you as to not waste time learning the small things when you get there."

He's letting you stay. He's agreeing to train you. This is as close as I'm going to get. Get to what exactly? Aw, it doesn't matter. Seize the chance!

"Thank you Kanan. I appreciate it. When do we start?"

"Right now. Let's start meditating."

Ezra couldn't help but swear.

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Hey! I managed to dish out a chapter right away! For any of you out there reading, I'd like to make a plea for an artist, I use the term loosely, that'd be willing to draw something up for the picture on this story. I also need a beta reader, and would make sure they received proper thanks. I also wanna thank the 21 people following this story and the 6 have favorite it so far. How'd everyone like the chapter? Maybe talk about in your reviews?