S.R.F. Ch. 18
Rex couldn't fathom how he ever felt comfortable without it. His mind numb, as he slowly trotted along behind Zeb.
How could I forget… my helmet…How could I… forget such a large part of my life. I… need my helmet. Rex had his head down with a straight, if not grim, face as he bumped into the back of Zeb.
"Watch were you're going soldier-boy." Zeb grunted, surprisingly without menance.
"I…hn." Rex said, still in a slight daze. He knew that he was avoiding thinking about the subject that was actually disturbing him. He HAD forgotten a giant part of his life, while somehow being aware of it. Whatever happened at the facility, it was screwing with his head in a manner that went beyond normal amnesia and this terrified Rex. The one thing that he had always relied on to save his life was his wit, his mind was the only thing that truly gave him individuality. Rex was so immersed in his own thoughts that he almost threw Sabine to the floor.
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Ezra was having a bad day. He felt the urge to complain loudly that it was the worst day of his life; and he did several times, even though there was a tiny part of his self that told him not to exaggerate, as he most certainly knew that this didn't even come close, but like so many times before, Ezra subconsciously ignored this as he tried to suppress the surprisingly grim side of his personality that would overtake his usually cheery opposition if he allowed it. Ezra felt that he had been doing this too often lately, and realized why, seeing as his brush with the Dark Side and the blood on his hands had really shaken Ezra to his moral core, leaving him dazed on where he felt his moral compass always tried to point and where it lied now. I thought I came to terms with this, Ezra mentally scolded himself. With a heavy sigh, the padawan in training walked out of the room he was in to head to the main cabin where most of the crew seemed to relax at. He was a bit surprised to run into Hera, who was seemingly in a rush.
"Hey, Hera." Ezra said, trying to cover up the lack of jubilance he normally carried, and much to his chagrin, saw Hera stop dead in her tracks to look at him.
"Ezra, is everything alright?" The Twi'Lek Pilot asked in concern, her eyes seemingly scrunched in what Ezra vaguely recalled a 'motherly' fashion laced with concern. The thought of what Hera reminded him of only brought another wave of sadness onto him and the smile he flashed her became slightly more obvious as to its nature; fakeness.
"Ezra…" Hera said trailing off at him, giving him the look to let him know she wasn't about to drop the subject so quickly. "We are most definitely going to be bringing this up later young man."
Hearing Hera's stern yet oddly affectionate words actually relieved Ezra a bit, though not enough to put him at ease. Hoping to fool her completely, as Ezra was in no mood to reveal just how badly his inner turmoil struck, faked another grin and responded, "I dunno what you're talking about Hera, but I for one love our one on one conversations and look forward to it!"
Hera narrowed her eyes at Ezra, before looking over his shoulder momentarily. "I have to go now Ezra, gotta get Zeb and… him." Hera said with some contempt.
Ezra gave a small but real smile as he saw Hera's quickly retreating form, and mentally congratulated himself. Nice one! I finally managed to avoid something I didn't want to put up with! Ezra's smile disappeared as he picked up on some movement right behind.
"Smooth words, kid. If Hera didn't have so many years putting up with the same from me, I dare say she might've actually dropped the subject." Kanan said with a smirk on his face, hands on both hips as he looked down at his padawan. The smirk on his face disappeared however when he saw the cold and stormy look Ezra's eyes took on when he saw the smirk Kanan was sporting. This can't be good. The cowboy jedi said to himself sarcastically as he chose to await Ezra's response.
"Don't bother Kanan. I know the real reason you swung by." The street urchin said, slightly upset that he still failed to suppress his feelings even the slightest. "I'm just not ready to bring it up right now." Ezra said, his gaze softening a bit as he continued to stare at Kanan. Truth be told, Ezra was just unnerved that after finally having his emotions being his major problems, there happened to come along someone who could read him like an open book and deny Ezra the chance to fake his mindset until he had plenty of time to dwell on his own feelings himself; in short, it made Ezra feel insecure.
"I.. understand kid. When the time comes, I just hope you know I'll be here for ya." Kanan said, turning around and walking down the hall. Kanan didn't even bother to check with the force, knowing that if he were to turn around, he would've seen a slightly disheveled Ezra glance thankfully at Kanan.
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So guys… everyone failed to mention a teeny tiny thing. Chapters 7 and 8 were the EXACT SAME THING! I'm more ashamed of myself for making such an easy error and not noticing for two entire weeks, and also disappointed that everyone else failed to mention it. It goes without saying that I fixed the problem and ch. 8 was kind of a big deal in regards to ch. 9, so I definitely recommend anyone who isn't reading this story for the first time to go back to ch. 8, especially if Rex is beginning to grow on you. In response to the last reviewer, Cptbc et cetera, there, I updated and I even got you a new chapter! So check out 8 once more, and drop a review and maybe pm me to talk about the story guys! Shoutout to my friend M3mb3r123, who's stories are so full of fluff you just wanna squeeze the life out of them, give her a look after this! Next review will hopefully come out soon, so until then!