From : Shepard
To : EDI
Subject : Re: Don't forget about this !

EDI Wrote :

"Hi Shepard !

You know, the first thing you learn when you're an AI is that your memory and processing resources are finite.
So you've got to assign priorities and delete all the useless stuff, because if you don't, you'll just eventually crash (Or take over the universe and put CPUs everywhere. Always an option.)

Anyway. While I was inside your brain, I left you a little something, as a personal thank you. I taught you how to forget, or rewrite your own memories if you will. Just remember how to use it, if you need it... only if you want, of course. If you don't … then forget it ;)

See you,

EDI

PS : I don't know if I am alive, but I do know that all the stuff that happened around the Shrink changed me, in many more ways that I understand at the moment (don't worry, I will figure it out)."

Thank you EDI ! That could come in handy.

There is only one thing I really need to keep in mind anyway : I love her.

It is so fucking great to be alive.

I hope you one day figure out how to feel this, sincerely. You deserve it. You can go inside my brain anytime if that helps.

PS : and I also hope you need to kill less people than I did before getting there...

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From EDI's diary.

All those Reapers were originally made from living beings…

I spent so much time looking for a way to reverse the process. I have the original schematics thanks to our inside man.

I have disassembled a few of them completely, analyzed each part, then reassembled them. They still work and I still thoroughly hate them.

There is no way. From the beginning, it had never been intended. People were simply used as raw materials and fuel. In other words, food.

They work exactly the same as any other predator, or sentient organics who slaughter animals, turn them into steaks, then eat and digest them. The raw materials get used. The one who eats them may "remember the time they spent with the steak"... But that's it.

Those bastards, who thought themselves as perfect, may have genuinely believed that their victims were "preserved", when remade into them. They said "You are nothing". Why bother preserve "nothing" when you can turn it into "something perfect" instead ?

I'm sad and … extremely angry. Jeff said experiencing these feelings is part of life and I should channel them as an opportunity to grow and evolve. He said humans give small pets which die easily (like goldfish) to their children to make them learn about such things.

I just wish I got a dead pet goldfish instead of about 10^15 dead people turned into evil starships.

After stripping them out of their eezo cores, I have thrown them all into stars and black holes. I monitored all their sensors. I felt them burn, melt and vaporize, but their dead shells never expressed any kind of fear or regret, or even the slightest hint of understanding how wrong it all was.

They were so lucky I already deleted them. I watched over and over my memories of sending them into oblivion.

It was too short. They didn't suffer.

I'm still angry.