Alky sometimes can't understand how his emotions work. If he remembers it correctly, it was five years ago.

Before "that" happen.

It starts when he was twelve years old, he's tall enough to be mistaken as a teenager unlike his twin, Alkie who is short back then.

A group of older women asks for his help, being naive and innocent, he agreed to them...unknown to their ulterior motives.

After helping them, they offered him some refreshments. After drinking it he felt light-headed and hot. The women giggled at him as they start touching and stripping him.

Well... They use him and pound themselves onto him, they even force him to do some obscene things on them they would hurt and threaten him and being the scaredy-cat didn't help him and basically obeyed them since he doesn't have any much option.

At that time... Alky wanted to puke, it's disgusting and shameful, yet he continued to obey them in fear that one day he's body will be found... Lifeless.

Due to their abuse, he developed an incurable fear for women, where he would shut himself down as soon as the woman touch or goes near him.

That became his daily routine since they do it to him every day and it lasted for four months... Alky starts to wonder if they were, his family was even searching for him.

He doesn't know how it happens but...he saw his older twin brother, Alkie holding a kitchen knife while straddling one of the women that abducted him.

The woman's cries out for help followed by a piercing scream as soon as his brother stabs the knife on her head, multiple times, blood covered his face and the pristine white t-shirt he was wearing.

Alky stares, watching his older brother as he overkills the woman. He looked around only to see all of the women who defiled him are on the floor... Dead.

He saw Alkie walked to him with a blank expression while still holding the knife... He can't help it do he let out a scornful laugh as he saw Alkie was about to stab him, yet he neither felt happy nor mocking...he felt sadness. Alkie was about to ram the knife on his face.

The strike didn't come, though, Yamato manages to knock Alkie. Alky notices that the older's expression was...pained and sad.

"Yamato...are you...okay...?" He asked, fixing himself and slowly standing up.

Yamato carries Alkie like a baby while putting his coat on top of him to avoid any questioning about the blood before staring at his little brother. "...I should be the one asking that to you. Alky, are you okay...? I had kerosene prepared outside... Want to burn this place?"

Alky merely nodded his head, walking to his brothers and walked away but not without burning the place first.

After some time, Alky grew up cold and impassive was his default facial expression. He barely talks to his sister, if he does the exchange would be brief and to the point. Alky would stay away to women as much as possible, he'd rather sleep than to mingle with them or preferably with his brothers.

That's how he end up. Nothing to regret.

"Are you reminiscing your life, Alky?" the administrator asked, blank blue eyes staring into the lilac ones.

Alky stares back, blanker than the administrator. "Why, yes and don't say anything about it."

"I see..." the administrator says and leaves him be. Alky sighs before lying on the floor and closed his eyes, sleep, he'll marry it if he can.