Chapter 16:
"Easy Annie, I can't breathe." I let go of Ray and he wipes the tears off my cheeks. Then he looks over at Christian who is on the phone. "You're happy with him, right?" I take his hands.

"I could be more happy. I love him." I say, looking towards him, he glances up and we catch eyes, he smiles warmly at me and I melt.

"I see, does he love you?"

"I think so. We went gliding this morning." He raises his eyebrows and chuckles shaking his head. Then he looks down.

"You're um, you are, you're being, safe with him, right?" My mouth drops open and Christian walks over, then puts his arm around me.

"Hey, what are we talking about?" Ray and I look at each other and he looks so awkward I could laugh at him.

"Nothing." I say and he kisses my hair. I know what that means. I have to go and say goodbye to my mom. I nod and take a deep breath. I open the door and walk in. She's sitting up in her bed reading a book with her glasses on. "You're reading." She looks up and gives me a week smile.

"Tess of the the D'urbervilles." She says and I smile. That's my favourite book and I bought her it when I was twelve. Before all of this happened.

"Well, I need to get going, Christian's jet leaves soon so-"

"-Who's Christian?" She says, oh shit. When she found out I went on a date with some guy a few years after the incident she flipped. I just stand there not knowing what to say. "He a friend?" She asks, taking off her glasses and putting her book down.

"Uh, yeah. He came over with me, to see how I was. We're really good friends." She nods, I know she doesn't buy it but she's not making a fuss and that's what counts. I take a seat on her bed and hold her hands.
"Mom, it's been wonderful to see you but obviously not in these circumstances. Please, please don't do this to yourself. It's done, it's over. Just promise me you'll get some help, and that you'll never do this again. If you feel like it's the only way out come and visit me, or call me or something. Just please don't do it again. I - I can't lose you mom." She has gets in her eyes and she smiles weakly.

"Know baby, I won't. Thank you so much for coming to see me. You're honestly the light in the darkness I'm constantly in. I'll get help and try to get better, I promise you." I smile and nod, we hug for a while and with another goodbye and a kiss I leave the room feeling emotional. I see Christian and my father talking and I smile at how they're getting along. I assumed Ray was going to be the sort of dad that would be like "Whatever you do to my daughter I'll do to you." Sort of thing. But they seem to be getting along really well and that's so important to me. Christian looks up at me and gives me the most beautiful smile that makes my knees weak. He walks over and hugs me, then kisses me lightly.

"You ready to go?" I nod and Ray comes to the airport with us. I see Luke walking towards us with a suitcase and I turn to Christian. "He's coming back with us." I smile and hug him when he comes.

"Hey!" I say, he smiles at me.

"Hey Annie. Mr Grey." Christian just nods and I chuckle at his jealous face. I hold his cheeks and squish them together.

"Aw, is someone jealous?" I say like I speaking to a child. He sticks his tongue out and licks my hand. "Ew!" I shout and wipe my hand on his T-shirt. He laughs and leans into me.

"I don't know why you're being like that. My tongue's been on far worse places on your body." Luckily my dad and Luke weren't listening, I just smirk up at him and slap my hand on his face lightly.

"That is true my friend." He laughs and pulls me to his waist, kissing just behind my ear, a place he knows drives me crazy. I laugh and push him away. "Stop! You know we're in public right? And if my dad saw that he'd kick your ass." He just smiles at me and pulls me closer.

"You make me so happy Ana." My heart literally melts at his words. How can he be so perfect? Honestly, he is probably the most perfect boyfriend ever. All he has to do is bring me pizza and ice cream when I didn't ask for it and he is officially the most perfect man ever.

"You are so cute." I tweak his nose and he scrunched his face up, we both laugh and I swear this man makes me feel so giddy. You know when you're like six and a boy kisses you on the cheek for the first time? Every moment is like that with Christian. And I wouldn't have it any other way. When we're on the plane after a heartfelt goodbye from Ray I find myself staring at him as he reads his emails.

"Take a picture, it'll last longer." He smirks at me and I laugh.

"You're perfect. You do know that right?" I say, taking his hand and playing with his fingers. He just smiles sadly.

"I'm far from it baby." I shake my was at him. So much self doubt.

"Well you are to me." I say, kissing his knuckles. He smiles at me and moves closer.

"This is why I love being with you. I'm like a totally different person, you make me feel so alive, so happy. I'm so lucky to have someone like you in my life Ana, you make me a better man." Wow. Holy Christ. He has such a way with words, if it wasn't already his it would only take a sentence for me to completely give my heart to him. But it looks like he's already taken it and refuses to give it back anytime soon. "You're my life Ana."

"I, I don't know what to say to that." He pulls me closer and whispers in my ear.

"Say you'll move in with me." I look up at him and he smiles down at me with such hope.

"Ok." He raises his eyebrows at me.

"Ok?"

"Ok. Yes, I'll move in with you after graduation." He squeals, literally squeals and pulls me into his lap.

"You have made me the happiest man alive." We seal the deal with the best kiss ever, then I lay back in his lap and fall into a deep sleep.

A/N - Hi guys! Really sorry it took so long and it's pretty short but I couldn't think at all today. Thanks for following!

Sophie x