Chapter 34:

I wake up in the morning with Christian wrapped round me like a vine. I detangle myself from his arms and legs and go downstairs to the kitchen where I wait for him to wake up. I've left some Advil and orange juice next to the bed, so hopefully he won't be too hungover when he comes down. I sit at the counter and look down at my stomach. "Hey,little one. Now, you might think that daddy doesn't want you because of last night but he does, he just doesn't know it yet. Once you're born everything will be ok. And mommy and daddy will love you more than anything in the world, because that's what parents do." I heard throat clear and I look up and see Christian staring at me from the doorway. He looks awful, he must be feeling unwell.

"Hi." He says, walking in and getting a glass of water.

"Hi." I reply, with my hands still on my stomach. He looks at where my hands are and sighs. "We need to talk Christian. Take a seat." He looks surprised but sits opposite me anyway. "Before I start I just want to say that I don't want any shouting, I want this to be a calm discussion. What you did hurt me, a lot. You shouldn't have left me like that. After you left I went and cried myself to sleep. The one person who can make me feel better wasn't there Christian, and it killed me. Then you woke me up because you were drunk, you went out and got drunk instead of comforting your pregnant fiancée. You have to understand how that made me feel, you can't run away. Not from me, and not from our baby. I know it's frightening but you're not the only person in this. I've the next eight and a half months my body is going to be changing and I am terrified of that. There is a person growing in me Christian, and I can't do this alone. I know it's a big decision and I don't know if I'm ready to be a mom but it's our mistake Christian and we have to take care of it. Ok. Now you go." I say, waving my hand in his direction.

"Ana I don't think I can do it. I can't be a good father I know I can't. I'll get it all wrong." I roll my eyes and sigh.

"Christian no one knows how to be a parent, you make mistakes and you learn. You will be a wonderful father and we will love this baby." He stands up shaking his head and I stand up with him. "No, don't you dare leave me again. Don't you dare." He looks at me with such vulnerability. "What are you scared of Christian? Why are you fighting this?" He looks at me and walks out the room. I try to keep the sting behind my eyes at bay and run after him. I see him heading for the elevator so I run and stop just in front of it. "You are not leaving until we talk. Go and sit down."

"Ana get out of my way." I shake my head.

"No. We are talking about this." He runs his hands through his hair.

"Ana get out of my way!" He shouts.

"No! You are not running away from this just because you can. I'm not going to let you so sit the fuck down!" I shout back. He looks down and walks to the sofa, sitting down. I sit down opposite him. "What are you afraid of Christian?" He sighs and rubs his face with his hands. "Where did you go last night?" He looks up at me."

"I went to a bar. Taylor knew where I was, he just didn't come with me. I wanted to be alone." I sigh and shake my head. He remains quiet.

"Communicate with me. Show me, tell me why you're scared. Please." He looks up at me and sees that I have tears in my eyes.

"No, no Ana don't cry please." That's when I start sobbing, he moves over to me immediately wrapping himself around me. "I'm sorry. But I don't want to lose you."

"You will never lose me Christian. I love you, we're getting married. I'm spending the rest of my life with you." He strokes my hair.

"Ana I can't be a good father. Look at my own. I never met him because he fucked off as soon as he found out." I sigh.

"Christian you are nothing like your father. You are kind and caring and considerate. You make me feel loved, you are an amazing man, and I know that you'll be a wonderful father." He kisses my hair and squeezes me.

"You see? This is why I love you so much. You take the doubt I have in myself and just make it disappear. I love you."

"I love you too. We can do this, it'll be hard but we can." He stays quiet then speaks.

"I'm just afraid you won't have any time for me." I sit up.

"Why wouldn't I have any time for you? Of course I will." He sits up too.

"But the baby will take up all of your time-"

"-The baby will take up all of your time too, buttmunch. You're not leaving me to do everything." He laughs and lies back with me in his arms.

"Buttmunch?" I giggle.

"Yeah, I don't know where that came from." He kisses my hair and chuckles.

"You better not use that language in front of the baby." I sit up immediately.

"What?" He smiles at me.

"Let's have a baby." He grins, I squeal and jump onto him. "Easy, easy."

"Thank you Christian. I know this is huge but you'll be a wonderful father, I can see it. This is scary, I know believe me. I'm the one that has to squeeze a baby out of me in eight and a half months." He smiles and sits up.

"I'm really not prepared for this Ana, and you know I hate situations I'm not in control of. But you are my world, and that means our baby is too. I love you Ana, both of you." I smile and wrap my arms around him.

"I love you too. We'll be fine, the baby will be more loved than anything." He smiles and rolls on top of me, we start you know, canoodling when he stops.

"Wait, we can still have sex right?" I nod smiling and he wipes his head. "Phew." I giggle and he thrusts into me. We spend the rest of the day in bed.

A/N - Hi guys! So the answers were mixed. Some wanted heated, others wanted calm and accepting. I tried to put a mixture in but I hope you don't think I made them sound bipolar. Anyway, hope you enjoy it! And we're nearly at 200 follows for this story! Can we get there before the next chapter? It would mean so much to me :) thank you for everything.

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