I shot up as I heard a bang downstairs, flicking on my lamp I sat up In bed and got up quietly.

I jumped when I heard another bang.

I opened my door as quietly as possible and looked over the stair case to see shoes on the floor and the shirt Caleb was wearing now on the floor.

I let out a breath I hadn't realised I had been holding before going downstairs to see what was going on I rounded the corner at the bottom of the stairs and saw the bathroom door wide open and heard Caleb being sick.

I rolled my eyes at the fact he had come back this I went and got a bottle of water out of the fridge before going to the bathroom.

Caleb was propped up against the wall next to the toilet shirtless, I couldn't help but stare he had a nice body, I walked in and crouched down next to Caleb opening the bottle of water passing it over to him

"thanks Maddie that's really kind and I'm sorry if I woke you"

smiling I looked at Caleb

"no problem Caleb and you did wake me but I'm glad it was you and not an intruder, I mean little five foot nothing me against someone breaking in.. let me tell you they would not know what hit them"

laughing at me

"remind me never to get on your bad side Maddie"

I grinned

"so good night then?"

I stood up and offered my hand which he accepted I pulled him up

"well it was until I felt ill I have only had one drink"

I glanced at him a felt a bit bad I judged him instantly for being drunk and not even considering that he could have been ill.

In a way I liked seeing that the stuck up man I had met a few hours ago also had a vulnerable side. I looked at him again in concern and saw the thin layer of sweat on his forehead still there.

I raised my hand up to his forehead and felt how warm he was before he weakly tried to push my hand away groaning.

"right come on you "

I wrapped one arm around his waist trying to support him and he draped his arm around my shoulder taking him up to his bedroom where he would be more comfortable I opened the door and helped him onto the bed.

I opened his bathroom door and got a towel that I soaked in cold water and then came back out placing it across his forehead he exhaled deeply

"thanks Mads that feels so good" he was slowly shutting his eyes falling asleep

i put a bin beside his bed in case he needed to be sick again and couldn't make it to the bathroom by this point Caleb had fallen asleep I opened his window to let some air in and grabbed the notebook on his desk writing a note

"Caleb, I hope you feel better soon if you need anything just come and get me it doesn't matter if it's early. Maddie"

Leaving it on his pillow I quietly closed the door and went back to my room getting into bed and drifting back off to sleep.

I felt myself being shaken by someone and slowly opened my eyes rubbing them before looking up and seeing Caleb standing there looking very pale

"Mads, Maddie? "

I sat up "yeah, sorry Caleb what's wrong you look awful?"

he sat down on my bed shaking his head in disagreement

"chill out Mads, I'm sure it's just a virus"

I eyed him suspiciously

"yeah possibly I think I might make you an appointment to see a doctor though Cal"

he laughed loudly and shook his head receiving a frown in return from me

"what is so funny? you think you are one of those guys who is too tough to accept any help?"

He continued to laugh but broke off from into a slight cough

"hey you called me Cal!"

he grinned happily that I had finally used his nickname, I looked at him and smiled in return.

"Oh and Mads I am a doctor so is Ethan"

coughing again and holding his chest in pain I slid out of my bed turning and pointing my finger at Cal

"you stay put I will be back in a minute"

Silently groaning at the fact I was living with not one but two doctors I had always avoided going to the doctors as much as I possibly could, guess I would just have to have good acting skills when I was ill.

I walked down to the one room I hadn't yet been in knocking lightly I pushed the door open to see Ethan tucked up in bed still sleeping, he looked so peaceful and so different without his Clark Kent style glasses on

"Ethan? Eth"

I whispered whilst lightly shaking his shoulder his eyelashes fluttered as he slowly opened his eyes he reached for his glasses and put them on whilst sitting up on his bed, looking over at me

"oh Maddie good morning I hope you are well"

smiling I nodded

"Morning Eth sorry to wake you up it's just Caleb came home sick last night and I put him to bed but he's in my room and he really doesn't look too good I was going to make him an appointment but he won't let me then said you were both doctors so..."

Ethan nodded and got out of bed grabbing what I assumed to be his medical bag

"after you Maddie"

holding his door open for me

"thanks Eth"

I opened my bedroom door to find Caleb still laying on the bed walking over and sitting on the bed next to him

"no way Maddie why did you get him.."

"Shut up Caleb you are clearly sick and you will let Ethan take a look at you without complaining, got it!?"

he groaned and laid back against my headboard, Ethan walked over a face full of concern for his older brother sitting on the bed in front of Cal

"Maddie was right Cal you don't look good"

Ethan said before pulling out a thermometer and placing it into Cal's ear I saw Caleb try and pull away and chuckled but Ethan used his other hand to hold his head in place.

Caleb looked over at me and gave me a sad look, which I wasn't 100% sure if it was because of him being poorly or me getting Ethan. I place my hand on top of Caleb's and squeezed it tight he squeezed it back and held onto it.

*beep beep* Ethan pulled the thermometer out of Cal's ear and grimaced

"39.4 .. well that is not good Cal, no wonder you aren't looking great"

Cal threw his head back against the board and groaned knowing full well that was a high fever. Ethan looked at his brother with empathy at how he must be feeling. Not soon after Cal broke into another coughing fit whilst I gently rubbed his back, he still hadn't realised the grip on my hand. Ethan grabbed his stethoscope from his bag and started to put it on.

"no no no Ethan no need for that come on please"

I grinned at how stubborn Cal was being

"wow doctors really do make the worst patients huh?"

Caleb gave me a frown in response whilst Ethan chuckled lightly nodding his head in agreement.

"Cal come on I need to have a listen I will be quick promise"

Ethan placed his stethoscope onto Cal's chest

"right Cal you know the drill try and take some deep breaths"

Cal released my hand to remove Ethan's stethoscope from his chest

"Guys come on this is ridiculous I will be fine its just a temperature"

I looked at Ethan not knowing what to do to make Cal co-operate and let Ethan check him over, Ethan returned my look with a shrug.

I shifted out of my position, and straddled my legs over Cals waist

"Maddie, Mads, Mads what are you doing?"

I looked towards Cal and grabbed both wrists whilst pinning them down to the bed in my grip.

"Go ahead Ethan"

Cal groaned and Ethan Grinned and nodded.

He put his stethoscope back onto Cal's chest and had a listen to his heart.

"Cal its beating a little faster than normal but given the position you are in that doesn't surprise me"

Cal blushed as did I and we both laughed at each other

"Right I need to listen to his lungs Maddie"

"hmm ok"

I shifted my weight backwards a little and wrapped my arms around his torso lifting him up till he was sitting I kept my arms there and placed my head on his chest.

I was about to grab his wrists to hold him still but to my surprise he wrapped his arms round me and we ended up sitting in a cuddle. I could hear his heart beating and it was quite soothing.

he jolted slightly

"oh sorry Cal "

I looked up to see it was just him reacting to the coldness of the stethoscope Ethan had just placed on him, he looked down to me and smiled warmly.

I returned my head against his chest and he pulled me in closer whilst he took some deep breaths.

"Right Cal all done, i'm afraid however you have a chest infection, most likely what is causing that temperature, I will pop out quickly and get some oral antibiotics but if that doesn't clear it up.."

"you will admit me to hospital for IV antibiotics, yeah i know how it works"

Ethan nodded whilst putting everything back into his bag and Cal smiled sadly.

"Right i'll go and collect those for you now Cal"

"Wait Eth..thanks and i'm sorry i was a pain"

Cal smiled and Ethan nodded

As me and Cal were still sitting comfortably in the cuddle, i looked at him and my mind started saying no I struggled to get out of his grip and felt my palms start to get sweaty, my heart was beating faster and it was getting harder to breathe, i knew i just needed to remove myself from the situation.

"Woah Mads what is wrong"

Cal stared at me trying to work out whilst releasing his grip and helping me off his lap.

I ran out of my room

"Maddie! wait whats going on are you alright?"

Cal called after me, i got into the garden i slid down against the wall pulled my legs up to my chest and tried to take some deep breaths and get my self back under control.

I hated this so much it always had an impact on everything I do, there was nothing dangerous about me cuddling Cal he wasn't a risk so why does my stupid body have to make me go through this , a single tear rolled down my cheek.

"Maddie?"

Cal spoke quietly to me. I hid my head away in response not wanting to talk right now i heard his footsteps walk towards me and then stop.

He placed his hand on my shoulder and I flinched in response but he kept it there stroking it lightly.

"Maddie i want you to take some deep breaths for me ok?"

"Cal.. i'm.. fine.. you.. should.. be.. resting"

struggling to get my words out properly.

"I'm not going anywhere until I know you are ok, now deep breaths. In 1..2..3 and out 1..2..3 and again with me"

he took my wrist in his hand and held it to his chest whilst he took some deep breaths so I could try and copy his breathing pattern.

i couldn't bare to look at him out of pure embarrassment.

After around 5 minutes I could feel him staring at me but this time not checking me out i think he was using his medical eye, i shifted uncomfortably and kept looking down.

When I finally had my breathing under better control, he took my hand back away from his chest and turned it slightly pressing his fingers inside my wrist.

Assuming he was trying to take my pulse I pulled my hand away from his and shook my head.

Cal sat down next to me

"Maddie come on babe i just need to take your pulse quickly i promise i won't do anything else please I just want to know you're ok"

I looked over at him to see him pleading with me using his eyes.

I sighed at reluctantly moved my arm towards him, he took my hand in his holding it and rubbing soothing circles on the back, he then wrapped his other hand around my wrist pressing in lightly.

he removed the fingers pressing in but kept my arm across him and continued to make the circles on the back of my hand.

"I'm sorry Cal"

i sighed deeply and looked down at my feet

"hey look at me Maddie"

i continued to look down

he grabbed my chin lightly and tilted my face to look up at him

"there is absolutely no need to apologise, it is fine trust me"

he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me in closer.

"Cal.. please can you not mention this to Ethan , i really hate people knowing , i will tell him when i have to"

"of course Maddie it isn't my secret to tell.. but i have to ask why did you have a panic attack what happened to bring it on?"

i looked away at the floor.. how could i tell him it was from him cuddling me.

"err i get them a lot"

Cal nodded but pressed on

"ok, but what specifically caused that one?"

i sighed

"if you really want to know, i can't stand the idea of being trapped, or anywhere enclosed, and when we ,i mean we were.."

Cal cut in

"Oh we were cuddling, and that made you feel trapped?"

He let out a deep cough

i stood up and held my hand for him to grab, he gladly accepted and i pulled him up

"come on you need to get you inside before you get more ill"

he nodded

"but we are continuing this conversation inside"

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